new years eve

the week didn't start off good...received a msg from fiz that she got into arguement with her friend whom has an interest in her; he is jealous of me being too close with her. we didnt manage to talk abt it as she wasn't feeling well and she needed sometime alone. it made me realise how much this gal has affected me. On top of that, work hasnt been kind to me the whole week. I finally broke down at work ytd. i guess i couldn't hold back the tears and just poured. thanks to perry & aloysius for being there for me. so my last day of work for the yr 05 ended on a sour note.


after work, i headed down to church to help out in the 'Youth Bash'. the turn out was a bit okie. the group that turn out was abit more younger than expected and man, the songs there were asking for. Thank God for Pat who have her laptop but still kids these days cannot appreciate. Come on, 'in da club' is not a brillant song writing. had fun though, maybe nexy year will be better.


chalet later today. hoping and wishing that she can make it. :)

another day

another christmas come and gone...i'm a bit high from drinks and tired while blogging this! first and foremost i would like thank those who have tagged or have come by personally, i thank you! I really appreciate it.

life sucks!!!!

fucked up big time at work today! feeling like shit and really want out of here. its not worth doing what i;m doing, it totally sucks coz the mistakes are always magnified. life sucks at the moment, in fact the moment when i joined here nothing seem to be going my way. keeping everything to myself at the moment coz i do not know whom i am to share; not sure if anyone would understand what i am going through. sometimes i do not understand myself - is it me or the work and shit i am going through. a day to christmas eve, and things are looking down. i just hate my life at the moment!! its just so screwed up! i want outta here!!!

went for confessions ytd, hoping to seek answers but receive none. never have i felt so empty ytd...felt that even the big guy up there has given up on me! it make me think of 'skydiving' but i know thats not the answer. life sucks, so do i.

my wish list

All I want for christmas is.... :p


Ebay auction for 8-foot LEGO Star Wars Rebel Attack Cruiser






"Own a one-of-a-kind 8-foot LEGO Rebel Attack Cruiser™ model designed by LEGO Master Builder Erik Varszegi..."

sunday before x'mas

yea, finally my christmas tree is up! spend half a day putting up my 6½ feet tree, but i think i have lost my touch, it doesnt look good this year....same as last year. guess i have to shop for new decos for the tree next year, maybe get a new tree too. i loved my friend's christmas tree last year, it was really beautiful and big, wonder what tree they got this year....yea, they threw away the last one. :p


its only a week to christmas and i don't feel a thing. whats up with that??? has modern civilsation caught up with me that i can't picture myself in a stable a thousand years ago, where a little child was born. the little child who has in a way been taken over by santa and hence the whole modern civlisation has covered the true meaning of christmas in order to capitalised on profit making. the whole idea of christmas has been too commercialised that one day we might think its santa's birthday!! And just look at what they have in the movies this year, Santa's Slay!? its like saddam in a santa's suite...yea, pray u are not in his list. man, what happened to good old fahsioned holiday movies like 'home alone', 'die hard' & 'lethal weapon' :p but seriously for those who remembered 'lethal weapon' and 'die hard', it had this classic x'mas song for the opening credits that just stick with u and make u feel chrismasy.


feeling christmasy? is there such a word?? if there is, i am certainly not feeling any. even being at yesterday caroling session, didn't lift my spirit one bit and just finding out that liverpool didn't win the world club championship; what more can i say. i guess my work has really gotten into me. it has not given me any space to breathe and to be me. even at mass today, where i attended the evening mass i almost broke down, which almost happened during the week also...but i know one day i will not be able to be strong anymore, so before i crash and burn, i guess it will be a good choice for me to look somewhere else. this life in the fast lane ain't for me and all the shit i am going thorough is certainly not worth it. which brings me to think, what is life all about for me! what's my reason living in this world?! can anybody answer me that or answer yourself? why are we here? are we here for some experimental project where aliens are actually our creator and we are just their experiment. once in a while, they would visit us and see how we are doing. the reason why america has most sightings is becoz they aliens are wondering what got so screwed up over there. ;p maybe they shld just 'take' bush and some 'experiments' on him....or maybe they already did, hence his fondness for saddam...hmmmmmmmm. ;p such is life. maybe it's brush up not beat up...bang up???? okie okie, i don't want to go any further, i guess it runs in the family, the father and son fondess for saddam!! which reminds of a song by level 42, 'running in a family'! okie, okie i think i better stop here, before i 'run riot' (def leppard). ;p


it's half past ten, and i'm listening to bon jovi live in concert on winamp. 'i am six feet under and i don't need a bed. i'll live my life when i am alive, i'll sleep when am i dead!' to those who went for the opening of 'ministry of sound'...damn, i wish i was there!!! lol. that's defintely gonna be my next club visit, next to 'the balcony'. for those who are with me, 'raise your hand, from new york to chicago, raise your hand'! yes, you got to keep the faith, we will be there to countdown x'mas!! talking abt x'mas eve, i absouely have no idea what's the plan this year since we are not doing the x'mas eve mass for once....or maybe the second time. the very first was when i just joined the choir and we had to sing at this private function of some young exec (yuppies). it was a nice bungalow house with a live size christmas tree at the front door, that was like in 87/89? we ended just at the stroke of midnight and rushed to novena for the midnight mass which was half way thru, some of the girls were still in our choir gowns as they weren't appro dress.


yea, those were the years of non air-con bus so we could shout to the bus stop or to sbs bus, 'merry christmas' and startled everyone in the bus or at the bus stop! but it can be quite embrassing when the bus manage to stop beside us at the traffic light! this is when we take cover behind our hanged uniforms. there was this other time where we had our usual caroling session at 'bayview hotel', the keyboard just had its mind of its own and played dead. so we had to sing the whole session accapella, it was real bad and that was the last time we ever heard from the hotel and so did mph on a different year! well, u win some, u lose some but most of all, i had fun caroling with the choir for ten years and now its for the new generation to have their own experience and have a story to tell one day! :)


well, the year started good for me but somehow got a bit on the down side but although it has not picked up, i am glad that i met someone that made me happy and she didn't come at a much better time than now, where i really needed someone to lean on and make me laugh. she's my good and best friend now, and i thank god for sending her to me even though our culture & religion are different. she has told me that i have re-open up her heart and made her see that there are good guys out there and she will take a chance again next year. she's willing to kick her old habits and start the new year on a right foot. she is the most sweetest thing that has happen to me and once again, i thank god for her. i am hoping though she will spend x'mas eve and also new year's eve with me, keeping my fingers crossed! new year's eve will be at my colleague's chalet at pasir ris costa sands, i think! not sure what's x'mas eve plan at the moment, so if u guys got a plan let me know. in the meantime, to everyone out there who happen to read my blog, hope u enjoyed reading it as much as i did tying it...hahahah!! Have youself a merry beautiful christmas where ever you may be!! God Bless you and your family!! :)

sms

24 sweet hours makes 1 sweet day
7 sweet days makes 1 sweet week
4 sweet weeks makes 1 sweet month
and
1 sweet person like you makes my
whole life sweet..

Thanks for being someone wonderful in my life

Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry)"

"Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry)"

[VERSE 1]
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this thing drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state
(in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[BRIDGE]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more


-Dedicated to someone i use to love-

missing u

its just one of the those days where u guess life aint worth living. for the amount of shit u have to take almost everyday, u think to urself, is it worth it. its just one of those days where i wished u were here with me and i could seek refuge in yr arms and just get lost.

it jsut one of those day that i really miss u much!

missing u

its just one of the those days where u guess life aint worth living. for the amount of shit u have to take almost everyday, u think to urself, is it worth it. its just one of those days where i wished u were here with me and i could seek refuge in yr arms and just get lost.

it jsut one of those day that i really miss u much!

and the reason is you!

its like 2 weeks to christmas and it certainly doesnt feel like christmas esp when u are dead broke. hahahaa.....sigh. hope we would get our pay before x'mas and not after....we are keeping our fingers crossed!

was kinda upset by a remark i heard ytd and it got me thinking why must we always be so stereo-minded. i am sure the one i met would not cheat or lie to me and there's nothing going on at the moment between us. so y conclude that she's going to betraye me someday, altough it maybe a point to take note of but i dont think she's like that but (again) i thank you for your concern. i hope u could meet her one day and you'll know what she is like!

anyways, she ask me ytd, while on the phone with me, whats the reason of me being so happy, i replied, "you!" and we kinda open up more to each other. :) i've asked her along for x'mas eve mass but she's still deciding abt it. it will be nice to have her spend x'mas with me and new years eve also. lets see how things go!! she's in malaysia now on a short trip with her friends and i'm not quite missing...yet! maybe becoz of the message she left me before she left thats she's gonne miz me. :) looking forward to her return with my present! hee hee....

thank you

almost forgot that we were singing that elvis song last fri night
what started it, we're still wondering
but what i know is you make me smile always
we laugh at almost everything no matter how silly it may be
not sure what my world will be without u

my soul to keep

my stomach feels hungry but i'm too tired n lazy to get something. was watching central a while ago, one of those shah rukh khan movies and it made me wonder, will i ever find love. i guess i have forgotten who to love as my work has taken ninety-five percent of my time and life away. tmr is another day at work which i am not looking forward too..my life now is without any direction or future. to god, i would want to surrender my spirit if God if its his will. so i dont awake to see the light tmr...know that i'll be looking over u. the eyes are tired and so i shall retire.

liverpool

yes another victory for liverpool which brings them to 2nd place, thanks to bolton who beat arsenal 2-0 and if portsmouth can do the same thing against man u. liverpool will remained at second place, but not forgetting that liverpool has a game in hand. it will be good for man u to lose to portsmouth, so we will remained 2nd place. also this is great time for chelsea to slip pts and the title will be an open race again. another good news for liverpool is crouch finally scored. tis the season to jolly!


anyways, gotta get up in like 4hrs time for mass tmr again. i guess this is the first time we're doing the 0745hrs mass on a sunday...guess its gonna be alright.

marche

people talk about getting high and drunk at clubs and friends parties. well, ytd must be the first for me, i got high and almost threw up at marche! now u might be thinking how did that happened. well, for a start, it was a litre of erdinberg shared btwn two of us, thinking that we could finish it. the problem is marche at heeren got nothing much to offer on food unlike suntec where there's alot more varities. so we were left with little food choice and a litre of beer to finish. so my friend had a great idea of timing each other and see how long we can hold our drink. so we took turns...and surprisingly my friend could hold her drink longer than me. alas, we finished erdinberg and i really felt like throwing up but thank god we left the place and the walking helped.


met up with jp outside heeren and it was pouring. took about ten mins to decide wot we're gonna do next and decided to get more drinks. so jp n i got e33 while my fren had some wine (which apparently is with me now...lol). so we were deciding where to chill out with jp sis called her and we met up with her. finally we found a place beside wisma and just set there and talked till abt oneish and adjourned to macs near pacfic plaza. by then the day toils has taken on me, and i really missed my bed. so to home i finally went, to bed i finally slept.


well, things were pretty weird at times but i guess i enjoyed myself ytd. and i am really glad that i spend it with the someone.

when i am gone

do u sometimes get the feeling that u are truman burbank? the character jim carrey played in 'the truman show'? where ur life is just one big tv show, just like one big reality movie and you dont even know it. your life and how u lead it, has been pre-planned, no matter what you do. guess we all go through this phase once in a while..its like being stood up at your very own birthday party coz u're not the popular guy in school or work, where the chicks would rather do their hair than do u.


ytd was not quite wat i expected, what i didn't expect was seeing mark there and i got hit myself for not inviting him personally. anyways, something happened ytd that got me thinking about myself and my surroundings...something that i got figure out for myself, coz no one knows me...not even me. guess i got some soul searching to do and till then, i am on my own. sometimes, i really need someone to talk to but i don't know where to start. if i do, i won't be sure if u will be able to understand it. so till then, i am on this alone...

lessson in life

today taught me a valuable lesson in life. a lesson that will change the way i see a few thing.....

someday i'll be saturday night!

it's saturday finally, the day i've been waiting all week long! thanks to all my peeps who stood by my through the week and help me make it through (you know who u are). today is THE day to let loose and party, with beautiful people! hee hee..just can't wait for tonight! good news is that fiz might be able to make it tonight, she'll be great company and no, there's nothing going on btwn us. anwyays, fiz got a present for joanne oredi and i;ve not, shucks! might be meeting fiz after mass to get the pressie, if she's able to make it tonight that is. if not, i'll be on my own scouting for a pressie.


really can't wait for tonight and wish that it could last forever and i dont have to face another day of work. maybe i'll just resign once my probation period is over and take a break and go to thailand, and then get a new job. hows that for a plan?? but i know some will disagree and will encourage me leave sooner..hahaha. well, hope things will turn better for me. but for now, i;m outta here...goona hit the shower and to get breakfast!

old times

feeling sleepy and tired, so a blog before i shut my eyes. was on the train back and was thinking back of the times we had at 925, all the late night coffees and the company. really missed it all and most of all i missed my fiends. could we do it all over agan? maybe next mth when x'mas is in the air. This sat will be a good start at obar, i guess i'm gonna have loads of fun. have to survive till sat then!


on a side note, we celebrated my eldest niece b'day on sun. while there, we all herd my 4 yr old nephew, rap to westlife, 'day after day....' and it totally rocked! :)


okie thats all about it, the eyes are closing.

paying it forward

another weekend gone... didn't enjoy much of it anyway and it's monday tmr!! i hate mondays and i hate my life at the moment! nothing seem to be going my way. i was pondering the fact about resigning, thought it over and i guess its the best option at the moment. i am just not happy of late..not been myself. as u can see from my previous blog posts. its a tearjearker, if only there were awards for it; I will do a peter jackson!


well, i have nothing against the people there,(now that sound so cliche) they are just great, very helpful. its just the extra work that is slowly killing me. i took this job, so i could find the time to upgrade myself, hopefully start dating girls and find the right one. ;p but i can't do that working 14 hrs; and so i would like to quote queen, "i want to break free!". free to be myself again... to be able to love again...or more like to win the love of someone again. someone i terribly i miss right now. i feel closer to the ones furthest to me at the moment. no one really knows what i'm going thru right now and somehow it really touched me when someone i didnt really know personally, knew there was something wrong and hugged me. it one of those things that one would brushed apart coz the person wasnt the one that u were hoping for. (i am guilty of that too) but somehow that day, it meant something and it really touched me. i guess God sent his angels in various ways. i have had my own share of angels who have helped me along the way.


which bring me to the point of how people can lose faith in HIM so easily just because their prayers were not answered. have we taken into account the ppl who might have come along and offered help but were brushed aside, cause we were all waiting for some divine intervention from above?? even if our prayers were not answered, aren't we thankful to see another day of sunrise? another day for us to reconcile with HIM no because we want our prayers to be answered but to better understand our real purpose here on earth. we can't do miracles but we can lead by example, no matter wot religion u maybe, it teaches us to be good and to lead by example. if only we all could pay it forward! a simple rule which is hard to follow. i'm not out to change the world, i'm just out to change me and u!

hanging on....

another week gone, the weekends ard the corner!! its been a hectic week, been working like 14 hrs the whole week. hopefully i could get off early tmr. there were times during the week that i told myself that i couldnt take the stress no more and i seriously wanted to tender. life aint worth wot i go through sometimes. but somehow after constantly talking to the Big Guy above, things somehow works through and after a while, i think that its not that bad after all. hope tmr will be a great day for me and everything will go on smoothly.


Yo, Ramli! u with the family...you make us manly! Ramli is good, good malaysian food. Ramlie is good, eat it like you should......anybody for Ramli???


we now return you to your regular programming.


got so much to blog but the mind is tired and i am tired. till next time...good morning!

heartbroken

you said your goodbyes today
never though it would end up this way
as it hardly even started
we're leaving each other at hello!

ISP

btw, can anybody trace or do know whose isp address is this 202.156.6.35. If u do, do let me know, thanks!!

rainmakers

another weekend's gone, had fun though! that wld be sunday when i met up with fiona & patrick/sharon & joe/murali & crystal...yea, as u can see i was the only single one there but nonetheless, i had fun. we went to settler's cafe at bouna vista or shld it be considered hv, as it was just behind wala wala. we had lunch there and played some card games till like half pass six.. after which was a movie at tiong bahru.. the exorcism of emily rose! a must see movie; three am will never be the same again. on the way back had a good conversation with patrick & fiona. i must say that they are so compatitable together! :)


i had a day off today...well kind of! we had to attend a kick off rally for fy06 at seletar country club. it was a whole day event, seminars and games inclusive. we all had fun i guess, there were a few eye candies around that made the day! ;) but alas every good thing has to come to an end, our team came in second in the games category! hip hip horray! we will do this again next year!



for now, its the bed for me...zzzzzzzzzzzzz. can't wait for next weekend!

thanks april for your concern, i;m doing good! :)

My Space

Add MySpace Records as your friend!

the tooth strikes back!

the empire strikes back!!! just when everything seems to going fine, the tooth decides to create havoc and man, its painful. i have taken two panadols and i;m drowsing off but the pain is still there....did i take the right one??/ will brb, gonna take the right pain killers!! (we will be right back after this commercials) *coughs coughs coughs* take cough syrup; if it doesn't work, it;s you! (we now return you to your regular programmes). I think i initally took the cod relief panadol and of course it didnt work, so i manage to get the right panadol this time. now i feel more drowsy then ever... but if i go now, my viewership will drop and no one will return to my blog again. so i must hang on and entertained my fans out there! to go where no bloggers have gone!! and that is ........ well,i'm not sure about you but i'm going to bed!! :p good nite!

to the ones who have come up to me

or tagged

thanks for your concern!

i really appreciate it!

:)

rain

2 more days to the weekend. work has been the same, i'm almost meeting the dateline tmr...well, almost. i hope things will look better as time go by.


i need to chill
i need to heal
these wounds i have
it aint healing!
hoping for a better tmr
but always expecting the worse!
hope it will rain tonight!
rain sweet rain.
good night!


...................looking forward to the weekend!

a meaning to life..?

well, monday was good! its was like the worst day in my history of life. never have i hated life so much that i wanted to end it all. its true when they say, 'work can kill you!'. didnt really enjoy my weekend much, was stressing myself to much till i felt sick, had a very high fever on sunday night. wasnt sure how i survive monday admist everything that i was getting faulted for. it was real bad that i had skip lunch and had my first meal of the day, 20 mins after midnight. go figure!


however, today wasn't so bad. guess somebody out there must have said a prayer for me. although i got screamed at my boss twice, it wasnt as bad as monday when i was practically under her mercy. i guess it made me understand alot of things and made a better person. 'to be a better person, we have to fall once in awhile!' well, i hope the today will get better tmr. i've not fully recovered from my sickness and the cough just made its entrance. and as i get older, it just worst! oh well, the body is slowing down. not as young as i used to be.


good night!

the good friend

‘The Good Friend’

The good friend

Is always there

Is always faithfulIs always supportive

The good friend

Loves unconditionally

Forgives easily

Forgets every wrong

The good friend

Cries over you

Cries for you

Cries with you

The good friend

Gets hurt

Gets walked on

Gets left behind

The good friend

Never has anyone

Never asks

Never gets

I HATE being

The good friend!

Amanda Wearstler

life

just love the new song by mariah, taking into account that i didn't really like her from her previous albums. maybe its becoz her song from this album striked a cord or two...failed relationship and all the crap. life hasn't been good and skydiving has been on my mind of late. i really feel that my life has no meaning, i am not sure why i am here. love is never for me to experienced but the hurt is always. got loads of things to say but i'm just too sleepy and tired. hope tmr will be a good day and the weeks to come.

Don't Forget About Us

MARIAH CAREY

"Don't Forget About Us"

[Intro:]

(Don't forget about us)

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go

No baby, no baby, no baby no

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go

My baby boy...

[Verse 1]

Just let it die

With no goodbyes

Details don't matter

We both paid the price

Tears in my eyes

You know sometimes

It'd be like that baby

[Bridge 1]

Now everytime I see you

I pretend I'm fine

When I wanna reach out to you

But I turn and I walk and I let it ride

Baby I must confess

We were bigger than anything

Remember us at our best

And don't forget about

[Chorus]

Late nights, playin' in the dark

And wakin' up inside my arms

Boy, you'll always be in my heart and

I can see it in your eyes

You still want it

So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience

Nothing can compare to your first true love

So I hope this will remind you

When it's for real, it's forever

So don't forget about us

[Verse 2]

Oh they say

That you're in a new relationship

But we both know

Nothing comes close to

What we had, it perseveres

That we both can't forget it

How good we used to get it

[Bridge 2]

There's only one me and you

And how we used to shine

No matter what you go through

We are one, that's a fact

That you can't deny

So baby we just can't let

The fire pass us by

Forever we'd both regre

So don't forget about

[Chorus]

[Rap]

And if she's got your head all messed up now

That's the trickery

She'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be

I bet she can't do like me

She'll never be MC

Baby don't you, don't you forget about us

[Chorus x2]

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go

No baby, no baby, no baby no

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go

When it's for real, it's forever

So don't forget about us.

somebody to love

mariah carey is on the radio and my thoughts are with u. its songs like this that i wish that i had u with me. wondering wot are u doing now although i know i'm furthest from your mind at the moment, but thats life. to be in love with someone that is totally out of my reach, now that just me. hahaha...


on a brighter note i finally learned how to fly...er i mean...fry, fry an egg that is. well, my previous attempts always resulted it in being smashed or mashed up but today i manage an almost perfect egg, well....almost! but anyhow dinner was good today, thanks to the egg. i am so happy tha i wish i could sing...

"dont you wish ur bf could cook like me

dont you wish ur bf could fry like me

dont you.."

or maybe i;m just too tired. gd nitez!

holiday

i'm bored. it's a holiday and yet i feel the uneasiness, knowing i got loads of work to clear. still contemplating abt going back to work today. its times like this that i wish i had someone. don't think i could survive in this job if it carries on this way. can't really cope taking the added responsibilty. life sucks at times! wish i had u by my side telling me what to do, & to pick me up whenever i fall. i'll love you to bits & pieces...but your world is different from mine. you have a brighter world out there with brighter prospects, whereas i'm living here where everything day is the same like the other, till it feels a lot like 'the truman show'. living in a world where the rich have it all and we're just their pawns...their puppets. *sigh* maybe i should just get laid and i'll feel much better. i think its been damn too long since my last rendeavous but i guess rendeavous aren't healthy and i should either have a buddy or someone who loves me, if i am making any sense here..or maybe a discreet realtionship. any takers??? actually i would be surprised if there would be any....hahahaha.

happy deepavali

&

selamat hari raya adilfirtri

little prayer

sigh...not looking forward to work tmr. somehow when things are looking up for me, work has to suck at times. the level of stress and workload is not other that i have experienced. i'm just learning to cope with it and not to break down...although i almost did on monday with this new added responsibility. its like i told a friend of mine, every job has its own stress and my new added stress is the security of people out there. new datelines to meet and new people to please, on top of my current ppl to please. well, there's always the downside of every job but the upside of it, i get to interact with every level of management. so hopefully through hardwork, i'll able to make it one day. but for now, i'm not really looking forward to work tmr as i have thousand and one things to do and three to four datelines to meet. *sigh* hope i'll be able to meet it by this week.

"And she said "somebody must be prayin' for me.

Somebody out there must be prayin' for me.

Must be angels I can't see

Somebody must be prayin' for me"

-tim mcgraw

who ever it maybe, i just need your prayers now more than ever.

october

was at obar last night with a couple of old friends and for once i didnt have to look out for any younger ones. hahaha....so i had a great time last night. i think it was the vodka redbull that really got me high. i had two jugs of vodka canberries before that, dont worry i shared it with my friend. she was moving from double o and obar. it was her guy friend, that intro'd me to vodka redbull and man, i was pretty knocked out later on. hahaha. anyways, i had a pretty good conversation with an old friend of mine whom i've known for like twenty odd years but it was only until recently that we kept in touch again. when i was dancing with her, i could tell that i was the envy of many guys there, but don't get any funny ideas, her bf was there too. after obar, her bf drove us in his pickup, to mohamed mustafa area for supper. had prata there and since they knew the ppl there we had extra servings of chicken and stuff. the food was great but i couldnt remember anything else as i slept for awhile. took a cab back home and knocked out till tis afternoon.

guess i woked up at around two still feeling the after effects of the vodka but now i'm feeling much better. i guess we are going to meet up again next week...see how things go. but for now, i'm already late, suppose to meet up my friends like 5 mins ago. not sure wot movies we;re gonna catch. also suppose to meet up with fiza later tonight. see how things go. but before i go..... "SWAP! WAMP! BANG! right back @ u, april! Hello! :)"

updated @ 0054hrs...

caught the movie, 'domino'... it was good. didn't know it was M18, hence some scenes took us by surprise. keira is so good looking here. it was based on a true story (well, sort of) of domino harvey who died in june this year. so go and catch it while u can. on a diff note, something happened today...something that i tot i would never get to see and it kept me wondering if it was for real. all i know that its the kinda of thing that will last me for the week through. all in all, i had fun during the weekend coz i had wonderful companys. not really looking forward to the work week but life still has to go on. you made my day today. :)

looking for the weekend

been busy the whole week and i've been going to bed early. just cant stay up late anymore. i guess i still getting used to the normal working hours after working shift work for nine months.


well, the trip to jb was fun and exciting. i guess it brought the best in everyone and we did have loads of fun. i was really impressed by someone's character on sunday. for the short period, she showed maturity and responsiblity. to me, i think that person grew up that day. so we had secret recipe, seafood and lots of shopping and walking. i felt that we should did this again, this time over a three days period. any bidders?


on a diff note, work is stressful as ever...but my colleagues are just fun loving people. sad that today is gonna be their last day of attachments. hope we would have fun at mu later tonight.

Cheers!

a post for the weekend..

ytd was like monday to me...felt real miserable, mainly due to work pressure. tot by attending a friend's birthday party, i will be able to chil out and get over it. but *sigh* i felt more depressed. no offence to anyone, but i really felt out of place. i guess that age is really catcing up on me and i should just give up the idea of looking out for the younger ones coz of the generation gap. i'm getting old for this job....

ytd i felt like ending it all cause no one really bothers about anything anyway. each searching for their own goal, destiny and to be top of everything. they pay too little attention to the harm they do along the way. coz in the end, all they want to be is on top - friends not included. friends will be used, re-used to get to the top. but at the end of the day, when appreciations and gratitudes are due, you won't be remembered. so why do we go thru the same cycle again knowing the end result would be the same?

today is doesn't feel like a sat, i am not sure why. my heart is dreading to face the day ahead. although it has nothing to do with today. somehow i am not looking forward to jb tmr also, i am not sure why. had a chat with a friend ytd, he told me that he was gay which kind of freak me out intitally but he was kidding, i hope so! anyways, he told me that he has cut off ties with some friends which got me thinking, should i do the same?

ytd i tot to myself over a bottle of e33 that i should forget you. we will never be together, coz faith never works my way...it never did!

It's hard to say
It's time to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye

oh no - commodores

I want you

To want me

I'm goin' crazy

Knowin' he will be your lover tonight

And when he comes,

I'll let you go

I'll just pretend that you walked out the door

Oh no

I can't sleep

Oh no

I'm goin' crazy with love

Over you...

I need you,

To need me

I want to hold you

But you're holdin' someone else in your arms

When I close my eyes

I see your face

I'm just not sure

How much my heart can erase

Oh no

I can't think ooh....

Oh no

I'm goin' crazy with love

Over you

Oh honey

Oh sugar

Oh no

I can't sleep anymore baby

Oh no

I can't think anymore baby

Oh no

I'm goin' crazy with love

Over you.....

angels

its funny how that when you're feeling down and out, the ones comforting you, may not always be the one close to you. it might even be someone u just knew or a stranger. whatever, it is, thank them for taking the time to listen to you, to lighten your burden. friends will not always be there for you but i believe there's always an angel out there.

I believe in angels,

The kind that heaven sends,

I am surrounded by angels,

But I call them friends.

- Aizabel Parinas -

a dream

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dreamt of you today

and it made me smile...

just got off the phone

with you

and it made me wonder,

will i dream of you again

tonight!

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Photograph - Nickelback

Photograph - Nickelback:

Look at this photograph

Every time I do it makes me laugh

How did our eyes get so red?

And what the hell is on Joey’s head?

This is where I grew up

I think the present owner fixed it up

I never knew we ever went without

The second floor is hard for sneakin’ out

This is where I went to school

Most of the time had better things to do

Criminal record says I broke in twice

I must’ve done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it’s too late

Should I go back and try to graduate

Life’s better now than it was back then

If I was them, I wouldn’t let me in

Every memory of looking out the back door

I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor

It’s hard to say

It’s time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door

I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for

It's hard to say

It’s time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

Remember the old arcade

Blew every dollar that we ever made

The cops hated us hangin’ out

They say somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio

And sing along with every song we’d know

We said someday we’d find out how it feels

To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim’s the first girl I kissed

I was so nervous that I nearly missed

She’s had a couple of kids since then

I haven’t seen her since God knows when

I miss that town

I miss their faces

You can’t erase

You can’t replace it

I miss it now

I can’t believe it

So hard to stay

Too hard to leave it

If I could relive those days

I know the one thing that would never change

Look at this photograph

Every time I do it makes me laugh

Every time I do it makes me

fiona

its the weekend again, time really flies. although i do wish time wld slow down during the weekends. so we cld spent much more quality time with friends, loved ones and family. but ,as they say, time and tide wait for no one. *sigh*


ytd was fiona last day, so we (fiona, sherry and me) were treated by derrick (formula service) to breeks in amk central. for dinner, we and some other colleagues had dinner at some indonesian restaurant at riverside point. in total there were like 12 of us but we didnt manage to finish everything that was served. whatsmore, we had curry puffs after lunch and little inbtwn snacks. hahaha....after dinner, we headed down to tcc @ clarke quay for coffee. after waiting for a long while, we found a place for all 12 of us. well, this time around it was more fun. i just wished that time wld just stopped and the moment will not end. maybe it was becoz, i was sitting opposite.... gonna miss that girl lotz. ten days time, sherry wld be leaving, and i'll be all alone. kinda sad feeling actually. i wish they cld get a replacement for sherry as i dont think i could take over her portfolio too. i just hope and pray that they will find someone new. come monday, i will be flying on my own. hope everything goes well.


jb next weekend - something to look forward to!!

a movie date

went to watch a movie with my colleagues, fiona & sherry today - '40 year old virgin'; it was damn freaking funny. a must watch i tell ya. hang around with them at coffee beans where i got to know them a bit better. fiona will be leaving this friday and sherry at the end of the month with the rest of the nyp students. life's gonna be boring without them. *sigh* well, gonna have dinner this friday with them, hope we get to club after dinner. :p

from fiza..

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"y'day is history, tmr is a mystery.

today is a gift, thats what we call the present.

Life is short so always think positive &

enjoy it till the lat moment.

Thats what I'm trying to do,

so let's achieve it together!"

*****************************

welcome to where ever you are

well, its been like only ytd when we all got high and dry at the chalet. man, time really flies real fast. tmr is another work week that i dread looking forward to. why is the weekends so short? wasted today staying at home which is good in way coz i'm hardly at home but then again *sigh* it was just wasted.

i finally collected my ic ytd, not sure why it always had to rain whenever i was there. i'd also settled payment for the windows 'retrofitting' ytd, it cost almost five hundred. the breakdown seems justifiable, but still don't understand why it cost so much. i will check with hdb on this. anyways, at least we got one headache out of the way. not sure what other flaws they would see in the system and recommend that we must rectify it. *sigh* such is life.

well, its back to work tmr...got loads of things to do. really not sure if i will be able to fit into the role.hope i could get to work early tmr and have a head start. somethings are just pilling up since thursday. with lots of datelines to meet, i guess the backlogs are just pilling. hope to go in early tmr and clear it before my boss finds out. ;p once that is done, i'll start on my boss reports. which will take me the whole day to do it....yes, i am that slow! hahaha.

cant wait for the weekend again. :p

east coast

had a freaking good time at the chalet on sat. guess it was the company that made it a memorable one. will put up some pics as soon as i get it from others and also write more on it. it was good seeing friends that we have not met for a long time, mainly issac n bell, jeremy n mitsuye, mainey and last but not least, matthew. well, will give the lowdown of the party the next time i blog... ciaoz!

of beast and poems

i've put a new link, 'cool stuffs'! this are stuffs written by my friends and i think it is worth the read. go and check it out and tell me wot u think of it.

on a diff note, work has been okie, a lot of things to learn and a lot of things i have not learned yet. hardly at my table most of the time, always running around to get things sign or collect reports. well, hope i'll be able to cope soon. on a bright note, i have a very big table and flat screen monitor. the working environment is just great, just like the stress level. hahaa... well, if u need to reach just message me. i'll only be online after work or weekends.

can't wait for the weekend, hopefully i get my cheque by then. chalet at east coast on sat, hope its gonna be great...wonder who else will be there. well, will only know when i am there..so have a great weekend!

starting all over again

second day @ work, and its been busy from the moment i step in. i guess i came in at the right time, the financial year end closing; glad thats over. there's all more things to learn, and the job scope is so wide, i've hardly touched the surface yet....i think. well, the good thing is that the one i'm understudying is such a cutie, but she is leaving us to futher her studies, so i got till mid-oct to digest everything. then there's another sweet gal seated beside me, she's an intern who is on attachment, she is leaving end oct, pray and hope they will find a replacement for her, if not i've to take over her portfolio too, *sigh*. but other than that, its good to be back in a fast pace world where everything is a dateline, where even checking a sms is no longer a luxury, so i'll just reply to u guys during lunch. yes, finally having a proper lunch time although its not a fixed timing, so lunch can be at 2 pm too like today, as i was rushing some reports for my boss for her meeting later in the evening, so had lunch with her and her boss. good thign i wasn't bombarded with lots of questions. jsut ate my lunch quitely. ;p

still getting used to the nine to five working life again, been away from it for ten months but i guess nothing has changed; ppl still rush for an empty (feeder service) bus for a mere ten minutes ride. come on, before they can warm the side, it's their stop already; the bulk of them gets down before me. so i am still puzzled with all this rushing, is it just to get a seat or hoping that the bus will move out of the bus bay faster coz their late? beats me... well, things you can see in the neighbourhood. so, who are the people in your neighbourhood, in your neighbourhood, in your neighbourhood now... who are the people in your neighbourhood, the people that you meet each day, when you are walking down the street; so who are the people in your neighbourhood, the people that you meet each day....

a blog before i rest

a blog before i lay to rest my weary eyes...

someone made me smile today... it was great hearing from her after again a long while. we chatted and she really cracked me up and it was nice to know that i did put a smile on her face. will be hearing from her soon i guess. it's such a nice way to end a weekend, with a smile..dont u think!! to all my fellow bloggers and friends alike, hope u had a great weekend, but if u didnt, i guess it will be a great comfort to know that man united lost. hahahha... have a great week ahead! peace out!

don't love you no more (i'm sorry)

not sure of anything anymore...feel like i have been used, taken for granted and chucked aside...only to be reused when you need some company. stay up last night thinking of you, wondering how wld it be if i had you beside me... but the magic moments that we shared i'm afraid won't be there for me to experience again. i have told myself ytd that i would walk away and never look back again but i just had to call u today, only to realise that you will be spending the night with him. guess there's no looking back now, everything just gone out in smoke. i had my chances and i've wasted it. it's like the latest craig david's song, 'don't love you no more (i'm sorry)'. gonna walk this journey alone....to find myself again. i start a new chapter in my life next week. hope it will bring me new possiblities, and opportunities. and hopefully, i'll be able to meet someone.

anyways, was with jennifer, hatsuee and chris after choir. hatsuee was talking abt her trip with her two 'soul' sisters, sarah & jo-n. and u know if u put the three together, they are never short of fun. anyways, while hatsuee was talking abt her trip, jen brought up that the choir (new & old) shld have a 'road trip' one day to jb at least and she wanted something, like in oct. so we have planned it on a sunday, the possible dates are 9-16-23-30 Oct, an email blast will be send out soon with the intinary. it's gonna be fun i guess. gettting away from everything and having a blast. might be planning another trip in dec for i heard from fiz that art n sophie are also planning for a trip to kl during the dec month. prob over a weekend... will see how that goes. prob can do christmas shopping there. :p hmmmm........christmas is exactly three moths away. so you better watch you! you better not cry! santa claus is coming to town to make you spend, spend, spend n boast the economy! hahahaha..... here is a tip on how to beat the mad rush during christmas - start shopping now. talking about shopping, i guess i gotta start shopping soon for new clothes. save up some money also and get some stuff from ikea, and transform my room into something that i've always wanted. but first i gotta get rid of two cupboards that my brothers have left behind. one is a built one that will have to be demolished, the other is a big four door cupboard. prob sell that away and get something smaller. any takers? this all will happen before christmas i guess, once its done, i'll invite you to my 'crib'. till then, i'll go window shopping first.

Rita’s strongest winds roar ashore

Strong Category 3 storm threatens to level Texas coastal oil towns

As Hurricane Rita approaches the coast, one of at least three fires rages in the historic Strand District of nightclubs, shops and restaurants in Galveston, Texas.
David J. Phillip / AP

forbes

was going thru the web and came across forbes: america's richest 400. these people have net worths of billions, in the running is william gates, net worth: $51 billion. what wld these people do with the money?? wonder if they would give away a million to me if i were to ask...hmmmmm. wonder how much do these people donate to the hurricane relief? it only states katrina hits the 400, but yet another article states billionaire opens their wallets. didnt know that oprah winfrey is a billionaire, wow...just by having a talk show?? where is letterman and jay leno then?? anyhow, i wonder if they would open their wallets to the roch foundation. money will be used to settle personal outstanding debts, an improved sound sytem in church, donate to s.c.s , renovate my room and invest! :) why scs? well, i grew up hanging out there, they kept us off the streets and bad companies but of course we still go around looking for fights. lol. ahhhhhh... those were the days of growing up in the seventies to the eighties in toa payoh. gang clashes were like an everyday affair in the seventies till the early eighties, but thats another story for another day.

last day...

an hour more to go before i outta here, and never coming back. yup, my last day at work, no more shifts and long hours. starting my new job on monday, wonder how's that gonna be. kinda looking forward to it but at the same time, having mix feelings about it. you know the whole sense of being afraid in a new environment and wondering if you are able to handle the stress, believe me there's gonna be a lots stress. but i guess its gonna be fun working with my ex-boss again, she rock! i remember when she told me when she hug me and told me she was leaving the company, i cried openly infront of my colleagues. she was like the best boss i have ever worked with and its gonna be my pleasure working with her again in a diff company that is. yea, i want her to pay back the tears i cried...hahahahahaha!! well, i can look forward to spending my evenings and weekends now. first stop will be mel's birthday next weekend @ east coast chalet.....not sure what to get for him yet. it's also gonna be dianna b'day on the 8th oct and my nephew b'day celebration this sunday. *sigh* $$..


okie, i'm outta here. wont be blogging as my home internet is down. so till next fri...

Rita changes course, may spare Houston area

Powerful hurricane roars toward Gulf Coast, but exact destination unclear

Houston Evacuees escape Hurricane Rita using Interstate 45. To speed the evacuation, the governor halted all southbound traffic into Houston and took the unprecedented step of opening all eight lanes to northbound traffic out of the city for 125 miles.

what if it was us...how will singapore react? probably a road rage will happen every two mins. also where are we to go? we do have bomb shelters but are they build to withstand hurricanes? if they are, why is houston evacuting the whole town? if we have too have to evacute, where would we go? malaysia? hahaha.. they will probably have to look into some old treaty first before they decide. another interesting fact from the net is the "national oceanic & atmospheric adminstration" or noaa.

"The emergence of new monster Hurricane Rita doesn’t rise to the level of a ‘top story’ on the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration’s home page, but visitors can find information on the storm if they know where to look"

"Despite seeing a four-fold increase in traffic in the weeks since Katrina slammed the Gulf Coast and with Rita threatening the region with fresh calamity, the top story Thursday on the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration’s Web site was the rescue of four dolphins washed into the Mississippi River by Hurricane Katrina. The storm topping NOAA’s National Hurricane Center Web site? Tropical Storm Philippe, a small system forecast to bypass the United States by more than 1,000 miles. "

"Flash back three weeks ago: As Katrina strengthened into a Category 5 monster and local and federal officials pleaded with Gulf Coast residents to take evacuation orders seriously, NOAA’s home page led with the story of how the agency’s historians had debunked a 142-year-old Civil War legend involving a cannon and a cat"

interesting isn't it, its like loggin to espn to see the results of last nights soccer match but getting american idol results instead. okie maybe thats too extreme but u get my drift.

hurricane experts predict years of more storms; atlantic in cycle of increased activity that may last 10-20 years. it also been said that katrina will not be last major hurricane to hit a vulnerable city.

"Mayfield predicted several more named tropical storms this year. The latest, Hurricane Rita, is the 17th named storm of the Atlantic hurricane season, which ends Nov. 1. Since record-keeping started in 1851, the record is 21 tropical storms, in 1933.

Mayfield also listed a number of cities and regions in addition to New Orleans he believes are “especially vulnerable” to damage from a major hurricane: Houston and Galveston, Texas; Tampa; southern Florida and the Florida Keys; New York City and Long Island; and New England.The center’s predictions on Katrina’s movements were more accurate than usual, but the storm grew more intense more quickly than expected as it moved through the Gulf of Mexico, he said. Three days before it made landfall on Aug. 29, computer models predicted it would hit near New Orleans."

another interesting read would be "Galveston and the ‘most horrible sights’ of 1900" In September 1900, a hurricane hit Galveston, Texas, killing more than 6,000 people. Sixty years later, Category 5 Hurricane Carla came ashore and caused more than $300 million in damage.

"The port city, then one of the wealthiest in America in terms of per capita income, lay in ruins; it would take decades to rebuild Galveston again although it never recovered its former glory. The remodeled Galveston would include a 7-mile, 17-foot foot seawall to protect against future storm surges.

More than 105 years later, the concrete barrier may be tested as the city on the tip of the Houston Channel anxiously awaits another ferocious blow. Hurricane Rita, measured as a Category 5 storm, is headed toward Galveston, located 40 miles southeast of Houston, and may hit as early as Saturday morning."

our prayers are with them, hope they ride this one out!

boredphucks

its just one of those days where i feel all alone... guess that age is really catching up with me. going thru life crisis again, soon i'll be forty and still stuck with nowhere to go. used to think that there's gonna be something big for me, but i was a fool to believe that. now i am in no man's land, and an uncertain future awaits for me. tmr will be my last day here, after which a whole new world awaits me on monday. but who cares, no one i guess. even the big guy is not sure what to do with me, he is too busy creating storms over the gulf coast. one day he will get around me, and when he does, he'll probably claims what is his. oh well, u win some, you lose some. ( i am freaking bored ). it seems that amongst my friends, girls seems to swear more on their blogs than guys do. there's more swear words on girls blogs than guys blogs, or is it just me? i am freaking bored n i am freaking broke. yes, the dream if winning the top lottery prize cross my mind many times. i wld renovate my hse n esp my room, get a maid, so that my mom can finally relax. get my sis married off and out of the house; and when everything is done and covered, i'll finally settled down with someone close to my heart. a dream start with a dream, but it never happens but still dreams are good

Hurricane Rita now Category 5

Hurricane Rita now Category 5

With winds at 175 mph, storm could be worst ever to hit Texas

GALVESTON, Texas - Gaining strength with frightening speed, Hurricane Rita swirled toward the Gulf Coast a Category 5, 175-mph monster Wednesday as more than 1.3 million people in Texas and Louisiana were sent packing on orders from authorities who learned a bitter lesson from Katrina.

Galveston, low-lying parts of Corpus Christi and Houston, and mostly emptied-out New Orleans were under mandatory evacuation orders as Rita sideswiped the Florida Keys and began drawing energy with terrifying efficiency from the warm waters of the Gulf of Mexico.

Forecasters said Rita could be the most intense hurricane on record ever to hit Texas, and easily one of the most powerful ever to plow into the U.S. mainland. Category 5 is the highest on the scale, and only three Category 5 hurricanes are known to have hit the U.S. mainland — most recently, Andrew, which smashed South Florida in 1992.

The U.S. mainland has never been hit by both a Category 4 and a Category 5 in the same season. Katrina, at one point became a Category 5 storm, weakened slightly to a Category 4 hurricane just before coming ashore.

Government officials eager to show they had learned their lessons from the sluggish response to Katrina sent in hundreds of buses to evacuate the poor, moved out hospital and nursing home patients, dispatched truckloads of water, ice and ready-made meals, and put rescue and medical teams on standby. An Army general in Texas was told to be ready to assume control of a military task force in Rita’s wake.

“We hope and pray that Hurricane Rita will not be a devastating storm, but we got to be ready for the worst,” President Bush said in Washington.

• Rita's path

Follow the progress of hurricanes past and present

coundown - 2 days

well, i was bored. nothing much happened today except work, work, work. another two more days and i'm outta here. i can still remember my first day here, and starting on my own on a weekend, wondering if i will be able to cope. wondering how things be, six months down the road. now ten months later, i can say that i have learned much since day one and i've proved myself. another two days more and i'll be leaving another good memory. till then, blog i will.

What Age Do You Act?

You Are 24 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

What's" Your Power Color?

Your Power Color Is Indigo

At Your Highest: You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you. At Your Lowest: You require a lot of attention and praise. In Love: You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are. How You're Attractive: You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic. Your Eternal Question: "Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"

What's" Your Power Color?

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational.You are also giving and kind - a great friend.You are easy going and trusting.However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birthdate: February 14

With a birthday on the 14th of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas, and you are also very good at organization and systematizing. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine, and rebel against it. You have a tendency to shirk responsibility.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Summer Ride is a Mustang Convertible

Your Summer Ride is a Mustang Convertible

You're out to experience the very best of summer.From the best beaches to the best tan, you want it all!

What's" Your Summer Ride?

Your Hidden Talent

Your Hidden Talent

You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system.And while this may not seem big, it can be.It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes.You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

respect the wind

First there was Hurricane Katrina, shortly after that Hurricane Ophelia followed although it didn't leave much impact as katrina. Now the gulf coast embraces for yet another hurricane, this time around its Hurricane Rita which forecasters predict will strengthen to category three when it reaches land. I believe Katrina was a category four hurricane, it was downgraded from a cat five. One can only imagine what wld have happened if was a cat five.

The interesting fact here is Hurricane Katrina which happened on late august was the No.12 hurricane of the year, Ophelia was No.16 and Rita is No.17. All the three hurricanes happened it a space of three weeks. acording to the hurricane centre, each year 21 common names are reserved for Atlantic Basin hurricanes, with the list arranged alphabetically and skipping certain letters. Rita is the 17th named storm in the Atlantic Basin this year. There are only four left. So what will officials do after tropical storm Wilma develops, assuming it does? Well, you might expect to see Hurricane Alpha to Omega, and including such names as Omicron and Upsilon.

You are able to track the hurricanes via this link, "Hurricane tracker".

new skin

another day, another skin. its 0400 hrs and i;m still up. next week onwards, i wont have the pleasure of staying up this late anymore. well, work for now starts in eleven hours which still gives me abt six to seven hrs of sleep... on a bright side of things, i finally am able to enjoy my weekend, starting this weekend. whatsmore, next weekend, there's a chalet/bbq. i am so looking forward to it... well, till then, i have to survive this week and next week. its gonna be quite scary, starting everything anew next week on my new job. good thing is i heard my ex-colleague is working there too, it will be good to catch up with him again. hope i'll be able to size up to my new boss expectations of me, i guess the pressure is all mine! well, will see how things go next week, for now, i guess i have to sleep...

blue monday

*sigh* in the end, it wasn't to be, the match ended in a goaless draw. which leaves liverpool, man u and chelsea still unbeaten in the premiership. can't wait for the match against chelsea infact; its gonna be a mid-week clash, sept 28. i wanna see liverpool end their winning streak.

its monday, hope its gonna be a good week!! had some interestingly weird dreams of late, the kind u know u dreamt but can't remember a thing of it, until it really happens!! the most weirdest deja vu i had was dreaming, a friend and i stumbled upon this castle and gave me this most creepy feeling. in 97, while we were in lourdes, france; for the world youth day, i stumbled upon the castle. everything was exactly the way that i dreamt it including my friend who was with me, tony! it was real freaky to be have dreamt of a place a thousand miles away... wats ur freakiest deja vu??

Behind the Name!

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ROCH
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French form of ROCCO

epl action

the countdown begins, 6 days to my 'ord'. today will be the last time i'll be working on a sunday. sure looking forward to lazing around on a sunday, chilling with my friends or spending some time with someone. right now i'm in the office blasting my music to the rooftop for one last time on a sunday. maybe thats what keep the spirits away when i'm working nights. have been here for the past ten months and i have not encountered anything, who knows that i might encounter one today.....yea, be my devil angel tonight! wuahahahahaha.....

tonight's the big match, liverpool vs man united. can't wait for the looney guy to get a red card again tonight along with rudd! hahahaha....won't be surprised if alex keeps looney on the bench for today's game. everything points to a liverpool win tonight. one of the reason, why benitez rested some key players during the champions league win over real betis. so its gonna be a craker of a game but it will be good to see, park ji-sung playing in midfield for united. yes yes, we are asians after all. for those females fans out there, just a bit of information, hidetoshi nakata is now playing for bolton wanderers in the e.p.l. bolton plays away at man city tonight. one have to give credit to this team who is seven on the table and a mid-week uefa (2-1) win against lokomotive plovdiv (bulgaria)- their first european outing after 131 years wait. it will be interesting to see how far they will get. boro also registered a uefa cup win (2-0) against fc xanti (greek) but none can't say the same for everton who lost (5-1) away to dinamo bucuresti (romania). enuff said for a team who bragged so much last season that they should be the rightful owners of the champions league spot and not liverpool. where are you now?? wuahahahahaha...

well, its gonna be a fantastic game and liverpool is gonna win it tonight! next stop chelsea on sept 28th.

someday i'll be saturday night!

its saturday and i'm feeling bored and empty. wish i had someone to spend my saturdays with. spend most of the morning not knowing what to do and now its two in the afternoon, gotta get ready for church. is this how its gonna be from next week onwards? not knowing what to do on a weekend... other than blogging, checking out 'my space' and surfing the web. thinking of who to call but realise that they might have got other plans. well, maybe, i should hit the gym from next weekend onwards. get myself back into shape for christmas and maybe i should stand some chance. for now though, i'll just be boring me and just fade into the background.

gonna spend the next five to six hours in church, yet i don't think my name is craved in heaven nor in santa's list. watever happened to santa anyways? he brings tidings and cheer only once a year, what happens to the rest of the eleven months? he eat pizzas, booze and enjoys the company of women? for kids below twenty-one, santa clause doesn't relate to santa. in yr world santa clause is still real, cause its stated in his clause. (watever!) come back when u're twenty-one. okie okie, santa has nothing to do with anything actually, just bored and filling up my blog. yes, x'mas is just three months away... have u been screwing around? i bet u have!! well, to make up for it, just get me a present!!! wauahahahahahahaaaa.... alright, i think better go before i make you feel dumb! :p enjoy ur weekend, whoever u maybe!

btw, hope u like the green day video, and the songs i've put up!

Misunderstood blue moon comes out tonight

nothing much to blog about actually...been busy at work the whole week, hardly had any life. well, a week more to go and i am back to ordinary working hours and weekends to enjoy. was on the phone with fiz just now, and she mentioned that sophie and her bf with their friends, are planning for a trip to malaysia this december. looks like i need this long deserved break. anyone wanna come along?? we could do our christmas shopping in malaysia. :p


during the week, fiz cousin needed someone to be the model for her and i asked joanne p on her behalf but joanne declined. so i asked rebekah and she accepted it. so i accompanied rebekah down to arab street, after searching for the plae for ten minutes, we found the place, a bridal shop along jln klapa. we were like half an hour late actually, coz our dear rebekah forgot that they change the time to five, but nonetheless, the cousin was cool about it and she went on to make up rebekha. there were another two more models and two other girls who have already started the make up class or watsoever. so i sat there not knowing what to do, it was close to six and the whole thing ends at eight. was playing with my handphone when fiz called, she was checking if everything was okie and all, and the sweet girl kept company for at least an hour. then i spend the next half an hr, sleeping uncomfortablely on the chair. woke up and saw rebekah almost done, she looked really beautiful all made up. went out got a drink for her and soon we were done. everybody liked her there, she warms to everybody easily. they compared her to a malaysian idol, jessica, coz of her resemblance. at the end of the day, rebekah made some earnings just being a model and she was so happy about it. they might be calling her back once her exams are over. in the event, i got to know rebekah a little better also.


well, tats about the only highlight of the week for me, sure hope the weekend is going to be better. yes, liverpool meets man u this sunday, and i am working in the afternoon, damn! well, lets see how things go!

the misunderstood blue moon makes an appearance tonight.

life

nothing much happened during the week, except for caroline's birthday at debz place. its was a nice small one, with the booze without the food. got a digital camera for caroline, and i am sure we'll more pics of her posted on her blog and friendster soon. *sigh* feeling hungry now. been working the morning shift, and its been really busy week and its not even the mid-week yet. another two more days, and i'm off again, then one full week to go before i leave this company. well, there will be a few tears shed as i did enjoy my time here; gonna miss them.

starting to feel more depressed these days, not sure why, maybe i'm having some mid-mid-life crisis. can't really relate to the younger ones as i used to do. yea, i may be young at heart as always, but most of the time, i do feel like a big loser, with no career and future. come forty, i'll still be single and be a butt of jokes of everybody. everybody wants me as friend and nothing more than that. no girl in her right mind would date me, let alone marry me. i'm the kinda guy that people will call when no one else is free, or when times are bad. like a friend of mine calls them, 'fair weathered friends'. maybe, it just me that i can't relate to anyone at the moment. no one really understands me,....i don't understand myself even. i hope its just phase i am going thru and things will look good next month and i hope the toothache will bloody go away.

well, life sucks at the moment and there's nothing good to shout about! except that liverpool is in the lead at the moment in the champions league match, against real betis!

yes, liverpool wins yet again! final score 2-1.

In Memory..

in memory of those who lost their life.

MYSTERY OBJECT CAUGHT ON TAPE MOMENTS AFTER SECOND TOWER HIT.

A flying mystery object was captured on video just moment after a second aircraft crashed into New York's World Trade Centre

Stills from a video taken by GAMMA PRESS USA -- showing the twin towers from an east angle -- clearly show an unknown object moving at a 90 degree angle to the second plane's flight path.

Was a military jet following the second plane? Is the object a radar-guided missile that was fired at the airliner -- but arrived seconds late? Is the object a post-event distortion by a GAMMA PRESS editor? Could the image be a giant piece of debris racing toward the horizon?

The mystery surrounding the video intensified in and out of official government over the weekend.

A close examination of the footage appears to first show the object flashed by sunlight -- above the left tower -- a full 10 seconds after impact of the second airliner. The mystery object quickly streaks across the the back of the right tower before swooping down at a rapid clip and out of the camera's frame.

The video featuring the mystery object has so far failed to catch the attention of the nation's main press.

It should be noted that no reports from countless bystanders or other video footage has backed up the GAMMA video, which is talked about here ....www.artbell.com or www.gpgwebdesign.com.au

dedicated to a special friend...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CAROLINE!

THANKS FOR THE WONDERFUL

YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP!

do u still believe in the tooth fairy?

in the end, debs place didn't happened as most people weren't free. so i went to bed early as i had a long day today, only to wake up again at three plus in the morning. its half pass four now, and i gotta get ready for work in like half an hour. another two weeks more only, gotta hold on.

so its saturday, after two days being off, its back to work again, but thankfully, i am doing morning shift on the weekends. at least i get the day to myself, working the afternoon shifts during the weekend is such a lonely feeling. damn, my toothache is really getting to me, i wish it wld just go away and never return. guess i gotta give the dentist some satisfaction of pulling out my tooth sooner or later. might visit the dentist i went a long time back, it was at adelphi. she did such a fine job, extracted two tooth, did a filling in one and i didnt knew what was going on, before u know it, it was all over; but the injection was a b.m.f. one, man, not to mention the sewing up the place where my wisdom tooth was. oh well, hope they have not close shop or anything, shld ask my ex-colleagues if they're still around. do u still believe in the tooth fairy?

to the people who visits my blog via googles and msn search, i am not sure who are you. but thank you! its either you are a friend, a colleague or someone just trying to fault me, hmmmmmm? anyways, i hope i have entertained you so far, and sorry i have a such a boring life with nothing much to juicy to share about. so if u got any ideas on how shld i improve me blog, please leave a tag or a comment. leaving ur name as anonymous will not to be entertained. time check, 0500hrs - time to get ready for work.

EPL action tonight as liverpool takes on spurs, but what happens when two of my fav teams meet? liverpool is my top fav eversince i was kid, second is spurs. caroline's birthday is tmr, and a plan just surfaced; shld talk to my partners in crime about this! *evil laughter* see if it works! oh yes, spoke to fiz today! :)

breaking news

SINGAPORE : Police have confirmed that a woman's head was found in a bag behind Orchard MRT station at ground level on Friday, 9 Sep 2005.

The blue sports bag also contained the victim's arms and legs, wrapped in separate trash bags. The grisly discovery was made by a cleaner near Orchard MRT, between a mosaic wall and a park. Police were alerted to the gruesome find at 1.40pm.

News of the find spread fast and two units of anti-riot police were dispatched at 4pm to control a swelling crowd of onlookers. Details of the woman's race or age have not been released. ASP Siow Cheng Cheng, Police spokesman, said: "Police immediately cordoned off the surrounding area and conducted a search. We are presently working towards establishing the identity of the victim. The search for further remains and evidence is on-going."

This is the second body parts case in less than three months - a grim reminder of the June 16 case where the body parts of China national Liu Hong Mei were found in the Kallang River. - CNA/de

i was a total nerd...

listening to 'luis miguel - un te amo'

have not heard from you today, guess you might are busy with your new house and stuffs. hope we cld see each other more often once you have settled down in your new house and me, in my new job. hope things will look brighter next month. maybe it will work out, maybe it won't but i hope we won't go on our separate ways if it doesn't, i would still wish to have you as a friend.

to my young padawan - yes, u're 16 only. u got your whole life ahead of you so don't waste it by worrying about some dumbass who knows shit about love at this age. all they want to do is to get in your pants, after that is done, they come with some lame excuses of breaking up. i could up with lots of lame excuses but i guess you have heard it already. you have lots of time for guys later on, my young padawan. they won't be disappearing from the face of the earth for next century or so. so chill with your friends and do he things you wanna do. enjoy life when it due to you! love ya lots gal, we will be here for you always! :)

guess i'll still be single till i die. just too lazy to go thru the whole cycle of getting to know someone. a gal once told me that when i told her that i was interested in her, but she was trying to work things out with her bf and don't want to go into the process again.well, the last i heard, things did work btwn them so thats good. i guess i did scare many gals away when i was young, i just didnt know how to approach them. my friend would tell me that they could smell it a mile away whenever i am interested in someone and it did freak the girl out and all the countless night i spent, crying in my sleep. life wasn't a bed of roses for me when i was young, i was too afraid to talk to the girls when i was young so i'll hang out with the guys which prompted one gal to ask me if i was gay! hell no!

i was a real late bloomer i guess. i was still getting the cane for coming home late after midnight till i was abt twnty-five. the thin ones are the bastards, they tear your skin open. the nights that i came home late was because of a gal that i was seeing, she was a child care teacher working part time at guardian pharmacy at the old yaohan orchard. she was introduced to me by my best friend. i wld hang around my work place till she ends at half past ten. pick her up, have dinner and send her home, we would spend some time at her void deck, sometimes way past the last trains; a cab ride was a common thing to me twice a week. then one fine day, she breaks the news that she still loves her bf who is in australia studying and she is waiting for him to come back. so yea, i saved on cab fares and got home early. the next gal i met thru a friend lived in toa payoh very near my old place, the ending was very much the same, she had a bf in the army but she still wanted me by her side; she also wanted a ring, a dress, and a skirt every month. so yea, i saved on handphone bills and cab rides home. oh yes, i had my first crush when i was ten and she was nine, she was in the same school bus as me. she was a convent gal and i, an anthonian. our school shared the same compound. she really looked like an angel to me and i would stammer everytime she spoke to me. once i couldn't really understand what she saying so i just smile but she got irratted and gave me a lashing; i remember i spend the next few days crying and never wanting to talk to her again.*sigh* and i was only ten. her name is lean pereira (not sure of the correct spelling though), she was living in amk back then. not really sure what became of her as i stop talking the school bus the following year. well, the story of my life...........so far.