the end of an era

well, the world has seen the last of saddam hussein who was executed yesterday; guess junior bush did something that his dad didn't accomplished, Beat Up Saddam Hussein!! now that that has been done, bring the troops back from iraq, georgie - enough damaged has been done!!! let their families have a reason to celebrate the new year!! Do the right thing, Be A MAN!!

the week so far

this is what happened during the week:

• sunday - christmas eve mass was good but we ended up at our fav prata shop after that, then proceeded to macs - send corrinne and julia home - back to coffeshop again - came back home @ 6am.
• monday - lunch @ crystal's place - dinner @ bro's place - back to crystal place for drinks and games - back home @ 3am.
• tuesday - overslept - reached work @ 10am - dinner @ jen's place - came back @ 1am.
• wednesday - work - briefing after work - dinner with colleague's - came back home - ended up @ fred's place courtesy of joanne n pat - came back home @ 2am.
• thursday - work - supposed to have a small company new year's celebration but the caterer screw up with the orders so dinner was cancelled - proceeded to JE for dinner with some of my colleagues - back home @ 1030pm.
• tmr - work - clubbing!!! lol

next stop - new year!!

wish

wish x'mas will just pass and 2007 will be a better year...
wish i was somewhere else; wish i was someone else

The Fart Button

Limited Gold Edition... LOL

caroling @ orchid country club - dec 17th

after a break of almost 5 years, i 'm back carolling and man, it was fun, though it was only @ one place. after caroling, we had dinner and drinks... yea, the table behind was ours. the funny part was we took pics before we started singing. after dinner, we headed to the pool room as it was raining heavily outside. we booked two tables and almost brought the place down. had more drinks courtesy of zab's dad (cool dude) and i was just not having a good game until i was sober - pat was like, 'why u so quiet?'.. hahaha. we left OCC and headed to our fav prata haunt for some coffee and more food. all in all, i had a great time and i'm glad that i came. next stop: christmas!!

there's something out there..

heard faint screams coming from afar, not sure if its of a woman then there was silence except for the rumbles of the clouds. then i heard another faint scream from a far, this time i'm not sure if it's of a man... now there's silence except the rumble of the clouds and lightnings. the night is too quiet and its giving me the creeps.

it brings to mind of an event which happened abt 30 years ago @ my old place in toa payoh. in the silence of the night, a dreadful scream pierce through the night and it was cut short, silence followed. my elder sis, bros & myself jumped out of bed and stared at the block where the screams came from; hoping to see some signs or hear a plea for help... there was nothing but dead silence. i never found out the faith of the woman but my bro's friend told him that it happened on the sixth floor center staircase; there was blood on the floor but the body was nowhere in sight. however, i didn't buy that story as it was from someone else but however i know this is for real... the staircase light on that paricular staircase never worked.

guess that spooked me more than the things that happened in my hse past and ...... present. it's two hours to dawn and i should get some sleep.

Why Teachers Weep

Then Jesus took his disciples up on the mountain and taught them, saying:

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, Blessed are the meek, Blessed are the merciful, Blessed are you who thirst for justice, Blessed are you who are persecuted, Blessed are the peacemakers . . ."

And Simon Peter said, "Do we have to write this stuff down?"

And Phillip said, "Will this be on the test?"

And John said, "I'm sorry. Would you mind repeating that?"

And Andrew said, "John the Baptist's disciples don't have to learn this stuff!"

And Matthew said, "Huh?"

And Judas said, "What does this have to do with real life?"

Then, one of the Pharisees, an expert in the law, said, "I don't see any of this in your syllabus. Do you have a lesson plan? Is there a summary? Where is the student guide? Will there be any follow-up assignments? How will this affect the bell curve?"

And Thomas, who had missed the sermon, came to Jesus privately and said, "Did we do anything important yesterday?"

And Jesus wept.

Quotables

BRITTANY (age 4) had an earache and wanted a painkiller. She tried in vain to take the lid off the bottle. Seeing her frustration, her Mom explained it was a childproof cap and she'd have to open it for her. Eyes wide with wonder, the little girl asked: "How does it know it's me?

JACK (age 3) was watching his Mom breast-feeding his new baby sister. After a while he asked: "Mom why have you got two? Is one for hot and one for cold milk?"

STEVEN (age 3) hugged and kissed his Mom goodnight. "I love you so much, that when you die I'm going to bury you outside my bedroom window."

Pope and the Lord's Prayer

After watching sales falling off for three straight months at Kentucky Fried Chicken, the Colonel calls up the Pope and asks for a favor.

The Pope says, "What can I do?

"The Colonel says, "I need you to change the Lord's prayer from, 'Give us this day our daily bread' to 'Give us this day our daily chicken'.

If you do it, I'll donate 10 Million Dollars to the Vatican." The Pope replies, "I am sorry. That is the Lord's prayer and I can not change the words." The Colonel hangs up.

After another month of dismal sales the Colonel panics and calls again. "Listen your Excellency. I really need your help. I'll donate $50 million dollars if you change the words of the daily prayer from 'Give us this day our daily bread' to 'Give us this day our daily chicken.'"

This time the Pope responds, "It is very tempting, Colonel Sanders. The church could do a lot of good with that much money. It would help us to support many charities. But again, I must decline. It is the Lord's prayer, and I can't change the words." The Colonel hangs up again.

After two more months of terrible sales the Colonel gets desperate and calls the Pope again. "This is my final offer your Excellency. If you change the words of the daily prayer from, 'Give us this day our daily bread' to 'Give us this day our daily chicken'

I will donate $100 million to the Vatican." The Pope replies, "Let me get back to you."

The next day, the Pope calls together all of his bishops and he says, "I have some good news and I have some bad news. The good news is that KFC is going to donate $100 million to the Vatican." The bishops rejoice at the news. Then one asks about the bad news.

The Pope replies, "The bad news is that we lost the Wonder Bread account."

tgif

alas the weekend is here... gonna do carolling @ orchid country club on sunday. wonder how its gonna be like as i've not been carolling for the past five years. so if anything goes wrong guys, just pretend that it wasn't me... ;p


project j was fun as usual... melanie thanks for the x'mas card, it's very sweet. i've not done anything as yet and it's only ten days left to christmas.

christmas

missing you

missing u

who ever u may be

where ever u may be

when ever it may be

how ever it may be

my other half....

Lost?

okie, the camp turned out well although there were some areas that cld be improved, like having more time for the leaders to relax and let the rest run the camp..hee.


i spend the first day of the camp practically outside the camp.. after setting up the sound system, father jj and me set out @ 1pm to get some items for the systems but ended up with a lot more things. we went to swee lee first, then to plaza singapura, sim lim square and lastly to paradize center to pick up adel and daphne. we came back at about 7 odd, did sound check and heave a sigh of relief when everything was working well. did a last minute checks on things and went for dinner with father, daphne and leslie @ a nearby kopitiam. after dinner, i was off again - tis time to pick up cristy from sembawang. came back at about ten and took a long deserved shower, the rest were still having their walk up the hill and i just chilled out with nico gab till it was lights out.


woke up at 5.45am, the guys were still asleep but some the girls at the next room were already awake as i told them to wake up at five. sorry, gals there was last minute changes - the guys were not informed but they still slept like a log and man, u should have seen their faces when they woke up - disorientated and blur... hahaha..


we walked up to mount faber where we had our morning reflections and breakfast. jamie told them that they are going to have an amazing race kinda game but it will be called stairway to heaven. they were told that there will be station masters at each checkpoints and they will also have to question ten strangers to find out what christmas meant to them. so off they went to orchard road, city hall and other areas in town to each stations finding their own ways and means to get there. while father, jamie, don & deb (both not feeling well), jessy and me headed back to camp.


back in camp, don took a power nap, jamie tried to but her phone rang every now and then, jessy was on the keyboards entertaining us while debs and i tried to solve the jigsaw puzzle which will have to be used later that night.. jessy later joined us and alas, we managed to solve it and debs numbered it correctly. (thanks debs & jessy for helping out!) we were still contemplating where to have lunch when jamie told us that lunch has to wait coz the first group just passed the last station. so we came down and waited for all the teams to arrive.. chels' team came in first coz they managed to squeeze five people in the car thus beating eugene's team. the next team to arrive was daffy's team and the last was leslie's team who took another route up to church while we waited for them at the front....hie!! anyways, chels' team won a $50 secret recipe voucher... *applause*.

wld like to blog more of the camp but u have to be there to experience it but i wld just like to add this:

- leslie, i know how stress u were when nobody listens to you and the pressure u got from us..but u managed it all well. you did well, kid and i guess u have matured during the camp. keep up the good work!!

- denise really impress some of us given that she's only eleven. once she came up to jamie and asked her if she could be a leader for the amazing race; and the other time she came up to a bunch of us and reminded us that we should be practising for the the skits and i think i was very brave of her considering the fact that she's the youngest in the camp.

- bell, thanks for helping out when we needed the extra hand and watching over denise.

- to everyone else... the fun has just begun... together we could make the youth group a driving force of our parish!!

so tis is christmas..

its been a tiring week and i just wanna take a break from everything.. from work, choir, friends and project j.. but with the camp just around the corner, i guess i have to hold on to that tot.


today, i wanted to do some x'mas shopping and also get somethings for the camp. but when i reached home, the skies open and it just dampen my spirits - so i wasn't very happy with the weather as it has been raining for the past few days.. mother nature has been having her way for the past few days. so here i was feeling sorry for myself n cursing my luck when i received a call from a friend who i knew was having problems back home but i didn't know what it was this time. as the conversation went by, i found out that this friend of mine was living w/o electricity as it was disconnected a few days ago. they are going thru a difficult period hence they have overlooked the payment which amounted to quite a bit and due to the current situation they are right now, they are paying it off slowly. which made me think that i take daily necessities for granted and feeling sorryfor myself for not being able to do my x'mas shopping.


i guess god made me realise that christmas is not about the gifts or clothes. its about reaching out to those who are less fortunate than us and let them feel the christmas spirit. a small gesture goes a long way and the true meaning of x'mas will be felt by everybody

I miss you

(I miss you miss you)

Hello there the angel from my nightmare

The shadow in backround of the morgue

The unsespecting victim of darkness in the valley

We can live like Jack and Sally if we want

Where you can always find me

And we'll have Halloween on Christmas

And in the night we'll wish this never ends

We'll wish this never end

come and see

the weekend

caught 'casino royale' on friday night with dq and it was worth the money; can't wait for the next one. sat was spent at east coast where i got to see the other side of my colleagues and we all had a pretty fun time playing games, eating and more games. we had 'water-bomb' games where instead of water, it was all kinds of liquid and god-knows-what. got bomb pretty badly - i wld prefer sea-water anytime, andy!! after everything, while waiting for our colleague's hubby to arrive to being back some of the times, there were two cans of carlsberg left - so we played seven-up... it was damn funny. to carrie, ricky, andy and kris - we will have our beer buffet soon again.

sunday, was spent in church helping to raise funds for our camp in dec and i guess we did pretty well today. can't wait for the camp, its dec 8 to 10; juz in case u wanna come; and yes, cristy - me won't leave u alone, me come fetch u!! hahaha... the camp's gonna be so fun, i just can't wait for it. anyways, had lunch with pat, debz, cristy & chels and we accompanied pat to the library after that but pat left first so we hung around for a while then made our way home.

with nothing much to do at home, i did some maintenance check on my comp by downloading ad ware and avast, my comp was unprotected for a while so i did expect to find some ad wares and spyware but didn't expect to find a trojan in my comp. have no idea where that came from. this avast software is kinda cool although i still a big fan of trend micro - norton is just not user-friendly and it does not protect ur comp fully. try trend micro pc-cillin 2007 against norton internet security 2007 and u'll see the diff.

anyways, it's another 10 days to pay day, 17 days to camp, 35 days to x'mas and 41 days new year - i should get back to my game now!! ;p

me

in the end its the circle of which i stand
with laughters all around

project j

the week passed by pretty fast as i had to train this guy for a day but he ended up being my understudy for the rest for the week. it was kinda fun actually and time really past by fast. hopefully he digested everything i've said otherwise i'll have to pack me bags.. haha.

went for project j(esus) ; we shared abt the end of the world or the second coming and how prepared are we. we had some deep answers from the young ones which makes u wonder, how prepared are we if god decides to call us tmr. well, from what i believe - we need not worry abt the sins we hve committed coz forgiveness was already given to us when HE died on the cross. we all journeying to our true home in heaven till then we will remain in purgatory right here on earth.

its the weekend again and i must say the week past by pretty fast, before u know it, its monday again... so make the weekend count, i'm going to bbq!!

to mel : see u dude on dec 9, have fun down under.

a life without limbs

Most of us live our lives complaining about all the things we haven’t got, the circumstances we were born into and lives we wished we had. I’ve been guilty of the above too. But reading about Nick’s story touched me. Here’s a man who’s got possibly a little bit more than most of us do. Nick’s a work of God, a gift of love. He’s truly an inspiration for me and for everyone else who doesn’t realize what this life’s about yet. You can read about Nick here.

a letter

A father passing by his teenage daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bed was nicely made and everything was neat and tidy. Then he saw an envelope propped up prominently on the center of the pillow. It was addressed - "Dad". With the worst premonition, he opened the envelope and read the letter with trembling hands:-

Dear Dad,

It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you, but I'm leaving home. I had to elope with my new boyfriend Randy because I wanted to avoid a scene with Mom and you. I've been finding real passion with Randy and he is so nice to me. I know when you meet him you'll like him too - even with all his piercing, tattoos, and motorcycle clothes.

But it's not only the passion Dad, I'm pregnant and Randy said that he wants me to have the kid and that we can be very happy together. Even though Randy is much older than me (anyway, 42 isn't so old these days isit?), and has no money, really these things shouldn't stand in the way ofour relationship, don't you agree?

Randy has a great CD collection; he already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. It's true he has other girlfriends as well but I know he'll be faithful to me in his own way. He wants to have many more children with me and that's now one of my dreams too.
Randy taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone and he'll be growing it for us and we'll trade it with our friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we'll pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so Randy can get better; he sure deserves it!!

Don't worry Dad, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself. Someday I'm sure we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grandchildren.

Your loving daughter, Rosie.

At the bottom of the page were the letters "PTO". Hands still trembling, her father turned the sheet, and read:

PS: Dad, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbor's house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that's in my desk centre drawer. Please sign it and call when it is safe for me to come home. I love you!

christmas is coming

if u hve not noticed it, let me bring it to attention.... we're just 50 days from 2007 and 44 days from christmas 2006. so have u been a good girl/boy? :p

smiles again

thanks for all your concern...... i'm back and all smiles again!!! :)

nightmare

i'm slowly fading back into depression and not sure why... its like the nightmare i had a few months back... there were thousand voices talking to me at the same time and single voice asking me to wake up... and the unexplained emptiness i felt inside me, after i woke up..., even though they were ppl ard.

i've made some wonderful new friends like cristy, chels, debra, bella, adel and reacquainted with some old ones like leslie, dom, jamie, sebastian, eugene and daphne. its great working with u guys n guess the bond is gettng stronger every day.

cisty - thanks for cracking me up every time!! u r going to the moon again... :p

chels - u r extremely sweet, really do appreciate ur kinds gestures. *hugs*

leslie - i've known u since u were a kid and u r definitely no loser!! u hve wonderful friend and a beautiful angel, cristy! so lets try turning those negative energy to positive energy.

dom - knew u the same time as leslie and i'm glad u guys turn out okie but u guys growing so tall aint part of the plan. :p i'm glad that u hve not given up on church after going thru a difficult period with the choir.

jamie - its great working with ya again after a loooooooong while... r.e.s.p.e.c.t to u!!

adel - u like jamie, are my inspirations.

eugene and daphne - u guys are beautiful, its my pleasure knowing u guys.

sebes - if only i knew how to play the guitar, i wld jam with ya!! :p

debra & bella - its my pleasure knowing u gals. (now go and drop me a testi :p)

to everyone else out there - its november, hve u bought ur christmas cards??

u-turn

it has not been a good week so far, maybe it's the mid-life crisis that i'm going thru. yes, i may look young n all, but i'm still three years shy of the big 40. so i guess i should shift the gear and take it easy..


last friday after the our regular session, something that jamie said stuck me... 'once u have found that intimacy with God, you'll never want to say that i don't need God anymore!' my first reaction was, 'hell no, i rather be intimate with an opp sex!' but then i thought to myself, what wld it be like to be on a level that u can't explain or to experience God like never before in your life. to tell u the truth, i find it a hard to raise my hands and do the lord of the dance.. but after talking to jame and adel, i found myself raising my hands up to him while listening to 'hands & feet - newsboys'. yes, let me be yr hands, let me be yr feet and go where u want me, go where u want me!!


not sure where he wants me go though!! to remain here and help out the church or to join the missionaries. i had two answers from two diff people who prac said the same thing, maybe my calling is not to join the missionary but to help out in the church, which is not easy thing to do. but then again, nothing is never easy. even He felt three times to save us, how much more must we fall to redeem ourselves. well, i guess it's abt time we stop being closet catholics and start to hunger for Him again!! Thru Him, everything is possible!!

The Bottom Line

aquarius


Instead of wasting time trying to encourage someone to grow up, go on without them.

Maturity is a possession, and unfortunately, someone you have to deal with today doesn't have it. . Instead of wasting your time encouraging them to grow up, leave them behind (if you can). Your leadership skills will come in hand if you must step in as the adult. Do not feel like you have to sugar coat your words.

you'll never walk alone

went to the docs this morning, had an x-ray done as he can't find anything wrong with my chest. everything is per normal.. so he gave something for the throat and the cough; to come back on monday to collect the x-ray result. i guess i'll know whats wrong with me only on monday, in the meantime, i'm gonna rest and relax at home - 2 days MC. guess we al need a break, once in a while.


thanks bro, ain't going anywhere till we visit anfield, yah!! YNWA!!

alive and coughing!!

the cough has just gotten from bad to worse... and my monitor is pretty screwed up. just when i though i had recovered ytd, but today - i am coughing and sneezing... sigh!! seems like my heart skips a beat everytime i cough, trying hard to catch me breath and thank god for a second chance. never have i been sick for this long or have been taking my medicines faithfully.. yes, i almost finishing it. well, if it happens, it happens... just hope i get a rocking send off..yeah!!

ministry of sound

before i blog, i wanna say thank you to those who have showed their concerns..really appreciate it. we don't need a lot of friends, just a few close ones will do coz u know that they'll be there with u forever.


got myself out of worried stage and went down to ministry of sound on saturday. seventeen ppl are going, mel told me , when was the last time this number. so i got off my sorry arse and went down to mos. found that the person that mel was liaising with was my ex-colleague. *it was good seeing you again, su* after getting all the details and numbers down, we were shown to our table, a real chill out area - sofas and pillows. as we settling down, the drinks just kept coming and it was a scary sight. what we had at the beginning was something one wld have half way thru the night where the table are full of drinks. we had two bottles of whiskey, one bottle of tequila, four jugs of mixers, and trays of shots. as usual we made new friends that night and met up with some old ones. after a while, i took a shut eye on the sofa.. and just snooze. as always, the night will always end with food - big breakfast @ macs before heading home sweet home not knowing when will be the next time we'll meet again. clubbing ytd was diff, i'm not sure why but i guess it'll be quite a while again till we step into one again.

big loser

question my faith today, i've spent two decades in the choir but nothing good was come out of it for me at least. i'm still single, no career and no future at all .. in short, i am just a big loser who have been blinded all this while.

signs of times

been coughing for more than a week now and it doesn't show signs of improvement. even the docs are puzzled with the symptoms as i did not have a fever or a cold prior to my cough... and i got it before the haze. what the docs did say that it's usually common among people with asthmatic history but i do not have an history or is it not to late to have one. I think what i have is asthmatic bronchitis (although i may be wrong), i do have difficulty breathing after coughing - i swallow my saliva just to clear my windpipe, just to be able to breathe again. for a few secs i am inbtwn life & death and its kinda scary;nope, i have not seen my life flashed before me.... at least not yet!! well, i hope it gets better soon.


oh yes, if u guys remember i wrote abt my little niece having a hole in her heart; well, it's not one but two holes in the heart. however, one hole has closed up and the other is slowly reducing in size. now, that's good news for everybody - miracles do happen!! :)

Foolish Heart

FOOLISH HEART
Steve Perry


I need a love that grows
I don't want it unless I've known
That each passing night
She'll want somehow
We'll be there read to share


I need a love that's strong
I'm so tired of being alone
But will my lonely heart
Play the part of the fool again
Before I begin


Foolish heart
Hear me calling
Stop before you stop falling
Foolish heart
Heed my longing
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore


Feeling that feeling again
I'm playing a game I can't win
There's knockin' at the door
My heart wants more
Think I'll let her in before I begin


Foolish heart
Hear me calling
Stop before you stop falling
Foolish heartHeed my longing
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore


Foolish heart
Foolish foolish heart
You've been wrong before


Foolish heart
Hear me calling
Stop before you stop falling
Foolish heart
Heed my longing
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore


Foolish heart
Oh, foolish heart
You've been wrong before
Foolish foolish heart

last rites

the calls have stopped, the sms have stoppped
back being all by myself again
good things never last or at least i tot it was
coughing like someone on a death bed
is it my time already?
is this how its suppose to end
i am not sure... but

i can feel that it will be soon......

Melvin's Birthday @ East Coast -30 Sept 2006

Melvin's Birthday @ East Coast -30 Sept 2006

the last plan

the plan was to celebrate melvin's b'day at east coast, what happened after that was all impromptu and everybody had a great time... i think!! well, i know the birthday boy did and thats all that matters.

Happy Birthday, bro!!

Lips of an Angel - Hinder

love this song by hinder, it just brought thoughts of someone not too long ago.

Lips of an Angel - Hinder

Honey why you calling me so late

It's kinda hard to talk right now

Honey why you crying is everything okay

I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight

And yes I dreamt of you too

And does he know you're talking to me

Will it start a fight

No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

(And I never wanna say goodbye)

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late

bored!

i'm bored.... really really bored!! stayed home the whole day... sucks!! have not been in touch with the girl of late. guess somethings have changed btwn us and it cant be brought back. think i should start dating again.. find a nice hot gal to fill up my weekends.

time will only tell

sat came and went - the only highlight was @ starbucks with andi....ah!! came back home pretty early on a sat night actually @ 9pm. come to think of it, i was out since 9am - had wedding in the morning then lunch reception; headed to starbucks to chill out; back to church again for choir prac; attended mass; dinner @ kopi tiam then headed to bk to meet the rest but they left soon after - each having their own plans and agenda, so i headed home. i really missed the old days in the choir - the unexplained bond that we all have, nothing can replace it.

something to ponder on

rod and i were having a conversation about 9/11 the other day and carol was trying to digest it. a lot of questions were left unanswered though like where were the fighter jets. i didn't think much of it earlier, but if memory serves me right, a commercial airline was shot down years ago because it had diverted off it course: - 1983 : Korean Airlines flight shot down by Soviet Union!

that was like 18 years prior to sept 11, 2001; and i believe techonology has advanced so much since then. so why was there no warnings given or any actions taken when four airliners have diverted from its original course. there are also reports indicating that flight 93 was actually shot down: - "DC Envoy Says Bush Ordered Flight 93 Shot Down" so was 9/11 a hidden agenda?? well, one day we'll know the truth behind the lies.

we went on talking about the violence in indonesia, 'when two tribes go to war' - dayaks and the Madurese. what rod told us made my hair really stand; we all knew that the dayaks went ard head hunting the madurese for diff reasons but there's more to what happened back there and maybe even now. things that made people question their own faith, is there greater god. the dark side it is not, its something much more deeper than that. so say yr prayers and believe in yr faith and religion - as long as it teaches u good, u're on the right path.

FEBRUARY SMARTS

FEBRUARY SMARTS

Abstract thoughts.

Loves reality and abstract.

Intelligent and clever.

Changing personality.

Attractive.

Sexiest out of everyone.

A real speed demon.

Has more than one best friend.

Temperamental.

Quiet, shy and humble.

Honest and loyal.

Determined to reach goals.

Loves freedom.

Rebellious when restricted.

Loves aggressiveness.

Too sensitive and easily hurt.

Gets angry really easily but does not show it.

Dislikes unnecessary things.

Loves making friends but rarely shows it.

Horny.

Daring and stubborn.

Ambitious.

Realizing dreams and hopes.

Sharp.

Loves entertainment and leisure.

Romantic on the inside not outside.

Superstitious and ludicrous.

Spendthrift.

Tries to learn to show emotions.

it's better to be burn in hell, than to fade away!!

back in '95, i was intro'd to J by a good friend, C. we became real close that i wld forget my good friend at times. i wld finish work at 5.30pm but wld wait for J to finish work at 10.30pm at yaohan orchard (now known as plaza singapura) @ guardian. she was doing part-time there - during the day she's a child care teacher. so we wld head back to bishan, have a late dinner and juz hang out under her block till abt 2am. wld take the cab back and get trashed by my late dad for coming home late but i'll always give work as an excuse - this would happened every tues and thurs.

then one day we attended a dinner and dance by some community we were actively involved - a ballroom filled with indians. so we were liked a couple or thats wat she made it seemed to everyone else. she wld hug me tight, lean on me and act all mushy mushy. when i offered to dance with her, she looked at me shock amazement - wat wld the older folks think of us. n she happily went off to danced with some other guys; leaving all the uncles and aunties from other tables, looking at me with that 'isnt she yr girlfriend' kinda look. right, she isn't offically my gf so i had no right to tell her off. when everything was over, the four of us - C & J & another guy friend and me, spent the night at my good friend's place. no people, we didnt have any mass orgy. just remembered my good friend doing a slow dance with her crush and it was really beautiful.

anyways, the next morning, whilst sending J in a cab back home, i asked her if we could take a step further, and be serious abt each other. that's when she told me that she was still very much in love with her bf - she's just waiting for him to come back from his studies. so that was it, i told her the guy she was looking for was long gone one day ... the calls soon died after that. i remember crying in my workplace when no one was around. fast forward to yrs later, i met another girl but it ended the same way. her bf was in the army and i was a fill in whenever her bf was away. it doesn't end there, she still expects a ring, dress n shoes every month. i ended it there and then. a friend told me that i shld have at least bang them - looking back now i wonder why was i so naive. sigh...

back to the future, it just the same story all over again. of all the things i've said and done, it just meant nothing to you. words are easier said than meant. yes, i made u and many other girls realise that nice guys do exist but that's abt it. no more will i be a believer of love and everything that surrounds it. being used and trashed one too many times isn't my idea of a relationship nor friendship. girls still prefer the bad boys that wld provide them with wild sex, drugs & the rock n rolls of life!! so why be the nice guy when it's so much more fun being the bad guy. it's better to be burn in hell, than to fade away!!

another lost

there is one thing that will be on the minds of many liverpool fans - why can't liverpool beat chelsea in the premiership?? yes, we lost again but its okie, its still too early in the season and besides portsmouth is on top of the table. the retired club, as mel puts it. :p

guess my lung infection is about to make a return, could feel it whenever i cough. it seems like age is really catching up with me. gotta take things slow and easy.

i have ice cube on my mind

the good thing about having friends around is always the last minute plans that we make up. so last night i ended up @ minds cafe with - up, soffie, andi, mel, carol & me @ prinsep street. we had loads of fun acting up the charades and created our own rules as we went by. we left at 2am. up & soffie headed home; the remaining four didn't have any clue of what to do so we headed towards chijmes. soon we found ourselves infront of ice cube, met amanda & nicole there. didn't enjoy myself there though, was tired, the lights were playing tricks on my eye and the music was just too loud. left the place like 4am and slept in the cab ride home. spent the rest of sunday catching up on my sleep and woke up at 4pm.

gotta go out again soon to my bro's place and after that to melvin's place to watch the big game. its gonna be another entertaining night. you will never walk alone!!

weekend

i got my i-pod shuffle working finally, limeware here i come. :p anyways, i've watched russel peters 'show me the funny' and i must say that it wasn't as funny as the previous ones but stll enjoyable to watch.

it's another weekend with nothing much in store except work & church on sat and the big game on sunday - chelsea vs liverpool. its the game to watch.

but for now, it's bedtime and back to work in 7hrs time.

good night

my site!

for the records i hve not watched tokyo drift, the song juz reminds me of a special moment last weekend. hope u guys like the rest of the songs & maybe let me know what u wanna hear on hear on my site!! cool, eh!!

Fragile Life

before i go on, i just wanna highlight one thing - i only received monday sms @ 2am this morning, hence why i never replied. so @ 2am in the morning, i received an sms that sent @ 9am informing me that a friend's wife had passed away. i was like it couldn't be cause i juz saw them like last month n she was good. learnt later today that she had breasts cancer and it all happened rather quickly. went for the wake today alone ; my friend who was putting a brave front and his little daughter was mixing ard with her little cousins. i could still remember at easter, his daughter was asking the mother how come she never married me, infront of the father and we all had a very good laugh. never crossed anybody's mind that the Lord will take her away so soon - leaving behind her husband and 7 yr old daughter. do keep her and her family in our prayers.

weekend with carol

glad that carol's surprise 21st birthday turned out better than expected. the plan was to go to harry's @ esplande - one night stand and gotham after that, was totally impromptu. well, like they say, impromptu sessions always turns out memorable. Happy 21st Birthday, Caroline!!

It's a boy after four decades!!

Japan’s Princess Kiko has given birth to a baby boy, the first male heir in more than 40 years. If you take a minute and think abt it, a male heir after 40 years....that's something ain't it, a history in the making and we're part of it. Not sure why but I do feel happy for the Royal Family and if I were them, I would declare a holiday!! My heartfelt congrats to Prince Akishino and Princess Kiko.

radio blog

juz finished uploading the songs, well some of it as the site is undergoing maintenace now. oh, well, do check back for more songs tmr. oh yes, the jay chou's song is not a mistake - simply love the song. ;p

Respect

RESPECT

Steve Irwin

1962 - 2006

Rest In Peace

welcome to the world

born: 14 Aug 2006
Introducing Ms Micaela Belleza Carvhalo, daughter of Mr & Mrs Carvhalo; better known to us as Delvin & Debbie. Isn't she beautiful. :)

who's that girl?

met up with the girl ytd in yishun, was surprised that she came down to see me. we spoke quite a fair bit and also cleared some issues, so that we understand each other better. i never had someone loving and missing me at the same time even though its from a friend, and the girl and me are the best of friends.

whats the story morning glory

not sure what i want in life as i know i have nothing in life that i can offer. it may be the reason why i am still single.. afraid to be committed, afraid that i can't support my second half. deep down i know i am loser at my age, no career, no life and no one to call my own. which gal would fall for a guy like me who is never himself, masking his own true feelings and intentions. i am not perfect, no one is and everyone of us has skeletons stuck somewhere in our closets hoping that it will never come out as we hope to change our ways. deep down i just afraid of the future and where it's gonna bring me but i masked with a smile and a laugh, thinking everything will be alright - helping others be somebody someday as i couldn't help myself. not sure if its the right thing to do.not sure of anything anymore, not sure who are my friends anymore, friends who claimed they will be there for anything but never was. guess they're just busy with their own lifes and that i'm not worth returning an sms but i do hve true friends whom i know will be there till the very end.

saturday

it's sat and i'm bored @ home!! people juz dont reply to sms - they might have more important friends.. oh well. will be catching soccer at hutton's place later but thats like midnight. not sure what to do btwn now & then, and thats like 7 hours..........sigh!! shld i go for a jog, watch a movie or juz sleep at home - but i'm hungry.

these are the days of our live!

just finished editing the pics on my friendster profile - thanks to the good people @ rockyou.com. i guess the song by queen just captures the whole mood abt it. - love u guys!!

for the records

its 10 mins before ten on a saturday night and i'm gonna do something that i have never done before on saturday night. as long as i can remember, it's never been done. so today, i'm gonna create histoy and it will be remembered for a looooooooooonnnnnnng time....until next sat that is. tonight, ladies & gentlemen, i am going to.................................................................................sleep early!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

friends will be friends

i was having problems wif the girl of late and i've been hearing advises from all sides, each of it was telling me diff things. at the office today, i tot to myself, who's gonna with me in the end, friends offer advises but they wont stick ard long and they already found the one they love, while i'll be no one in the end. then out of nowhere, in my head queen reminded this:

Friends will be friends

When you're in need of love they give you care and attention

Friends will be friends

When you're through with life and all hope is lost

Hold out your hands 'cos right till the end-

Friends will be friends..

strange but true friends will be there right till the end and i would like to thank carole & rod for being my support, love u guys loads. (side track - i knew brian may had a solo career but i didn't know roger taylor had a side project too... did u know that rob?) anyways, when i was going to church ytd, i search my feelings and realised that i am not in love with the girl but appreciate her as a friend. so everythings cleared up now, we have acknowledge our faults and shortcomings; we're gonna take things slow and see where it takes us!!

Pluto demoted

This lineup shows the 12 planets that were proposed last week, with a wedge of the sun at far left. Ceres, Pluto, Charon and 2003 UB313 are barely visible. Now Charon will continue to be considered Pluto's satellite, and the three other worlds will be dubbed "dwarf planets" rather than full-fledged planets. The planets are drawn to scale, but without correct relative distances

let the music play!

after the recent events of the singapore idol, i will not be surprised if u find twohill & jasmine in the finals. in fact the ppl left in the idols are not worth to be idols. are singaporens just biased or tone deaf?? i wld think both. i wld assume that most of these voters are below 21, still very much in their teens and worship the grounds the idols walk on. to them, it doesnt matter if they can sing, they just look cute on their wall. now u know why elections are for 21 and above!!


anyways, last weekend @ the chalet was a blast!! a big thank you to mel's folks for inviting us and to andi - we wldn't have had so much fun without u, dude!! just remember the absolut vodka the next time. :p next stop will be a bbq next weekend, i think. details are still thin and in two weeks, its carole's b'day!! its gonna be a good mth!

The Bottom Line

Today it may be hard to get an overview of life -- don't obsess about little things.

Right now it might be hard to get a clear view of your life -- so don't obsess about getting a big-picture perspective on every little thing. You're in the thick of the action, doing your thing and feeling more capable than ever. Just keep your head down and keep going. To stop and pull back now might be tempting, but it will interrupt your flow and won't gain you any edge. Now isn't the time to analyze things, so you're better off just letting them be.

Horoscope for August 24, 2006

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)

Transformers

July 4th, 2007

when there's death, there's new life!!

somehow i believe that whenever there's death, there's new life. my niece was born a mth after my dad had passed away, there was 8 yrs ago. this mth saw the passing of a good friend, deangelo and i just received new from mitsuye that mrs carvhalo has given birth (14 AUG 2006) to a adorable baby girl,. Ms Micaela Belleza Carvhalo. got confirmation from caroline that 'micaela' is michelle in portugese after dal's mom and 'belleza' means beauty in portugese. now how's that for a name... :)

today during lunch with my colleagues, one of them asked me since i was single, wld i be interested to know her friend who is single, japanese and will prefer to settle down in japan.[flashback - 'a friend recently read my palm and told me that i will be work overseas and i will get married!! she added, who knows, ur wife-to-be is not local'. somehow, i always had the same feelin' too.] so i told my colleague, sure why not, i would be interested to know her. okie before u guys start speculating our age to be a vast diffrence, well, i have to agree with you..*sigh*....five years is such a vast difference......got ya!! well, see how this one goes.

don't u feel that time is just whizzing by??? don't you wish u would be able to control time?? make time stop while we sleep so that we can have AMPLE sleep and make the weekends last till we are SATISFIED! like this weekend, where we've been invited by mel's folks to a chalet @ changi. a perfect time to de-stress and space out. away from the OFFICE, the BOSS, REPORTS & DATELINES, SALES TARGETS, ETC... 'AiGhT?! kNo' WhAt AhM sAyIn'. ( hahaha... juz had to do that!!) oh yes, fiz might be coming to the chalet IF her fishing plans get cancelled.

crossing my fingers that she can make it. :)

Mono with ME2

'The 9': Animated U2 sings children's rhyme.

Head, Shoulders, Knees & Toes

Watch 'THE 9'

of friends and liverpool!

once again, we denied chelsea of yet another silverware, and it goes to show that money can't buy u everything, jose!! during the game, i told rod during the game that cardriff felt like anfield. it was a fantastic game and a start of a fantastic season. after the game, we (mits & hutton, carol & rod, andi, mel & me) chill out at mel's room. not sure why but it's always a nice feeling to meet up with the old mates and just chill out even though it was just a short time. guess we'll be doing this on sat again @ the changi chalet, we'll be looking forward to it and hope she can make it too.

hope?

waiting for a call or an sms but i guess it will never come. u did wish us good luck in finding the right partner.. and i think i have found someone who fits right in.. so are we to go our separate ways or juz remains as friends. i guess love's never been my good point and i think i am gonna screw this up too.....missing you!

Fragile - Sting

If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one

Drying in the colour of the evening sun

Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away

But something in our minds will always stay

Perhaps this final act was meant

To clinch a lifetime's argument

That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could

For all those born beneath an angry star

Lest we forget how fragile we are

On and on the rain will fall

Like tears from a star, like tears from a star

On and on the rain will say

How fragile we are, how fragile we are

On and on the rain will fall

Like tears from a star, like tears from a star

On and on the rain will say

How fragile we are, how fragile we are

How fragile we are, how fragile we are

In Memory

Best of Friends Forever

(from left)

angelo, rene & caroline

in memory of angelo

1985 - 2006

thanks of the memories

who would stay awake beside u when u're gone?

as we left the wake and met carol & rene along the way. carol told me that they're gonna keep angelo company and let his mom rest. which made me realise that we are so caught up in our own agendas that we forget to take the time off for ourselves and friends. we always thought that time was always on our side but angelo proved it otherwise. so let us not take things for granted and treasure the friends we have and the moment spend. i'm glad angelo have friends like rene and carol, who would stay awake beside him to keep him company. which brings me to the question...

'who would stay awake beside u when u're gone?'

Planet Mars

Planet Mars will be the brightest in the night sky starting August.
It will look as large as the full moon to the naked eye.
This will cultimate on Aug. 27th when Mars comes within 34.65M miles of earth.

Be sure to watch the sky on Aug. 27th 12:30 A.M. Singapore time.

It will look like the earth has 2 moons.
The next time Mars may come this close is in 2287.

Share this with ur friends as NO ONE ALIVE TODAY will ever see it again.

rip

got a call ytd morning, that a friend had been admitted to the hospital and i thought to myself that he will be out in no time n so i went back to sleep. three hours later, the call came - he passed away. i juz couldn't believe it when i heard the news, my mind just went blank and i kept repeating 'wtf!'. just three months ago, when joan passed away, we talked about how life can be so fragile and although we didn't know joan, we could feel she has touched many out there. i guess God has other plans for then when he takes them away at a young age.

so for all those who know de angelo, may he live in our hearts and the memories will never fade.

CONFIDENCE

Once all village people decided to pray for rain.

On the day of prayer all people gathered and only one boy came with an umbrella.

That's confidence!!

too fast too furious

juz caught '2 fast 2 furious' on vcd and i muz say, i still prefer the first but nonetheless it won't stop me from catching 'tokyo drift' next weekend. ;p

now here's a mr bean moment for you.. after dinner with the choir mates, i made way home with chris.as i walking pass the bus stop near 7-11, i received an sms from rodney. i had earlier msge him abt when shall the council meet? so rod replied,

"A dark night, i bid thee, O Great One.

We Shall meet at the next full moon,

past the tenth day, of the 8th month,

where.....BANG!!

thats when i walked straight into a pole while reading the sms. my phone drop and i could feel the blood rush to the front of my head. chris was shell shocked for awhile but laughed when i did. felt my forehead and there was blood, got worried at first but chris said it was a small cut, gave me a tissue and we went our separate ways. Thats when i called rod, told him everything that happened and he couldn't believe it. there i was holding a tissue to my head, talking to rod and making my way back. we were cracking up... like i message crystal on msn, how often u get to bang into a pole. :p anyways, the blood dried up when i got home and the swelling went down overnight.. now i got a scar on me forehead. hee hee....

anyways, we're having a dinner thingi on tues as robin will be going off on wed, venue will prob be at 925 as some of us will be coming from work and school, so it will be convienent. so let me noe if u can make it or have any other ideas of a venue that will be convienent. (note: i'll be finishing work at 8pm as i've got a comm session after work).

The 10 best U.S. cities for singles

Still single? Maybe you should move. Here are the top hot spots if you're looking for love -- or
at least someone to like.

Unlucky in love? Stop beating yourself up -- and think about moving. Maybe to Denver. After all, it is the best city for singles.
For the third consecutive year, Denver-Boulder is the top metro area on our annual ranking of The Best Cities For Singles.


Denver here I come!!

10th And Wolf

10th + Wolf!

Gangsters incorporated - The Philadelphia Crime Family

love is dead

all this talk abt roch being a nice guy and make a perfect boyfriend etc, is juz bullshit. girls do not settle for nice guys first hand. they would prefer a caveman to whack them over their head and drag them home to have 'discovery channel' sex. they would wanna have sex with the rest of the world first before finally settling down with a decent guy; but by then they would like "Big Momma"! yes love sucks and its freaking dead!!

so guys stop wishing for that girl u love coz she prob be fucking ur best friend right now coz u're juz too much of a wimp. so get out there and spread the fucking love with a thousand smiles but do use protection at all times, if requested! ;p love sucks and its freaking dead!!

in the end

another weekend gone and its back to work again.. nothing pretty much happened over the weekend xcept the dinner thingi we had at the prata shop located at 126 Casuarina Road (Opening Hours : Mon - Thurs, 6am - 12am: Fri - Sat, 6am - 2am). i guess it has been a long time since the bunch of us met up and have a good time together, hence it was one of the moments that we all will remember and maybe make our way back there again next month. thanks to gab & chris who suggested the place. maybe we cld make a monthly affair. ;)


well, another month coming to an end and i'm pretty sure that we are not really sure why we are here. the poor and average people might be thinking if they would be rich, all their worries would be solved and life would be a bed of roses. ask the rich, and they would tell u life is a bed of roses but there's still something missing. why are we here? we all have religions hence we know whats gonna happened in the end but till then, why are we here. should we all go on our everyday routine and just wait for something to happened. i guess that there are some of us out there who knows that something big is gonna happened to us but we do not know when and how its gonna happen. we're just waiting for the moment to come. we believe that if it happens, we will be involved in it - be it good or bad. till then, we're just your average joes down the block. life's boring!

change

as u can see i am bored again hence the blogskin change. will update another day.

letting go..

met up with u today but things were just not right. we had a quiet dinner as conversation were kept short. not sure what to say to you as there's something on yr mind which kept u distracted. maybe, i'm just hoping for the best but not expecting the worst... it will never work out between us. we'll just remain the best of friends and hope that we'l find the right person.

bitch weather

the weather being a bitch again, it's so damn warm and i can't sleep!!

16 july 2006

16 July 2006


a year ago this day, i met a girl named fiza at obar but only had the courage to talk to her at china black. as the music was loud & thumbing, we switch our means of conversation thru hp and that's how i asked her for her number. now a year later, i am glad that i did that as she is my best friend and confidant now. so we spent our '1st anniversary' today visiting changi hospital as she couldn't stand the pain everytime she coughs. we spent like three hours at the hospital, seeing one doctor after another, getting her blood & urine samples, x-ray taken and all that jazz. but thank god, she came out of it okie, it was chests infections. lots of rest and medications will do the trick.


we celebrated our one yr at breeks, it was juz a nice & simple dinner which she paid for in appreciation for me coming down all the way to keep her company at the hospital, felt touch actually.


soon it was time to go on our separate ways n not sure why i really felt like crying as i didnt want to leave her. i wanna continue to hold her hand, see her smile and hear her laughter. wished that time would just freeze whenever i am with her, hence i was a lonely ride home from tampines but i know that i will see her soon again.


i did a reality check recently and the emptiness in my heart is no longer there.

is this love, that i'm feeling
is this the love that i've been looking
coz its really got a hold on me happy one year annivesary dear**************************************************

the weekend round up

okie here's a round up of the weekend.


fri: celebrated my manda's 21st birthday @ zouk, realised that daryl can dance and they look so good together. make it last guys all the way through the altar! :)it was good to see gracinia after so long (missed u gal) and seeing her dance was a rare sight, haha.. and of course, when grass, mits and manda, get their thing going - guys just stop. hee hee...but it was nothing compared to the girls me & lucas saw at obar 2 weeks ago. what do u expect when two les get down n dirty on the dance floor - a NC-18 rating...there were really hot. well, i guess we will bump into them next time again at obar. ;p


sorry, where was i, oh yea, mits & grass left early; gab, chris & me followed suit soon afer leaving manda with daryl and we headed to balestier for some 'bak kuh teh'. for some strange reason, i will only eat it after a night of clubbing n actually had two servings. i guess it settles down nicely admist the alcohol and other stuff. we were tempted to walk pass some of the hotels there and check the china girls there, the spirit was willing but the flesh was weak, so we hail a cab to home sweet home. met up with robin back home and crash @ 0430hrs.


sat: woke up 4 hours later only to realised that i was supposed to meet andy for breakfast at tanjong pagar as we had to go to work pass service center(wpsc)to see how things are run there. it kinda like a 'work excursion' on our sat off. sms andy to start off without me, got myself ready and took a cab down to tanjong pagar complex just in time. we had a 'tour' of the place to see how work permits were issued and the process which they go through, so that we can have a clearer pic when we advise customers. after which it was off to MOM for another 'tour of duty'. on the way there just before havelock road, i saw a stree sign which read as 'cumming street', i leave the rest to yr imagination. ;p after the tour we had lunch and i went back home only to leave for church later. nothin much happened at church and so finally made it home for a good night sleep.

world cup

the funny thing abt blogging is; when u r away from it u have lots of things to write abt but when u sign in, your mind goes blank. sigh...


alas, its over!! i guess no one expected italy & france to be in the finals. everybody was expecting brazil to win the cup once again but as i said, they won't. ronaldo should just retire and brazil will be more complete, trust me. there'll always be someone even better than him, so pls go back to brazil!!


i was watching a commercial during half-time abt ppl guessing who win the world cup, one guy actually said checz republic. not sure if he did his homework there. well, my fav team lost to germany due to the coach tatics and of course, he resigned soon after. he shld have put kept his playmaker and put in messi, it will be a diff ball game all together. the same goes as england, they should hve put in walcott or jenas and go for the win. but strangely enough, u do not know whats going on thru their minds. so it will poor decisions made and they paid the price. whatsmore, i think france threw again the game when they replace henry with wiltord, knowing that it will be going into penalty kicks, and zidan had to blew it all, or was it all plan?? as part of the on going scandal back in italy. italy wins the cup, the teams dont get relegated??


My Team +10

spiderman 3

the wait

had dinner with you today and it was just nice although u made me wait for an hour. but it the end, its was all worth it and its funny how ur hand fits mine nicely. :) looking forward to seeing u again this weekend!

a new chapter

been a long day, slept late, went to church, and then to the airport to see my mom off. took more pic of m beautiful nieces and nephew. received a msg from andy that we have to be in by 8am tmr, as there's gonna be a morning briefing abt some changes that will take effect tmr. sigh, that means i got to get up at six or half past six. oh well, i gotta get some sleep soon. a new mth with new possibilites n also a whole mth without my mommy! *sob sob* so if i need a little tlc, i will let u know. good night! .......................i'm hungry! ;(

world cup

didn't meet up with fiz after all, ended up at mel's place to catch the england & portugal game, and as always, england gets kicked out at this stages. still dont understand why, eriksson keep playing a lone striker up front when he had walcott at his disposal and with pace of rooney & walcott, and the introduction of lennon wld hve created havoc for the portugese side.the thing is that england don't have a playmaker like gazza, so they run of ideas fast. i feel a playmaker is what they need, and thats the same reason why france knocked brazil out of the world up because of one person, zidane! this guy was instrumental in france win. brazil was over confident and took things lightly and hence they paid the price. yes, like i've said before, brazil will not win the world cup but it was sad to see argentina bow out too. well, the ball is round and anything can happen!


so it could be anybody game now, with the fav already out! germany, italy, portugal or france. my guess is, it might be a germany vs france in the finals. if thats the case, the odds will be at germany side, due to the homegrown advantage but i wish to see france break the german hearts!! now to get some sleep.

fuck up saturday!

life is so fucked up! had arranged to have dinner with fiz today but wot happens. my bro had to call my mom this morning that we'll be a having family dinner tonight. its like so last minute and i ws wondering how i could tell fiz as we were both looking forward to today. while at northpoint, fiz called to tell me that there has been a slight change of plans. her god-bro had also asked her out for dinner, and he wanted to have steamboat dinner. she told him that she was supposed to meet me today and so to cut the long story short, we are supposed to have steamboat dinner at marina bay with her god-bro. i was feeling a slight pinch of hurt there, as here i have not seen her since feb and never got a chance to meet her and the favor goes to her god-bro who just got out of the army and have been craving for seafood. i told her also that there has been last minute changes to my part also. i was feeling slightly hurt but at the same time, gald that she was still having dinner and her day will be be spoilt.


back at home, there was a arguement on dinner, my mom wanted to have dinner outside while my bro wanted to have home cooked food. so we're were to have dinner at home now. so my mom went out to buy chicken and ingredients, and started to prepare for dinner . then a call from my bro, saying that my sis-in-law is having a high fever and that they wont be able to make it. its like what the hell, u cal in the morning, ruin all my plans and now u say that u're not coming at all and my mom has prepared everything, thats just great right.


now i am home and its 8pm, feeling pissed and shitty... my other bro just arrived at the door. calling fiz now and she's not answering. thank you very much for fucking up my saturday.


updated:
dinner is done and i'm outta here!! and yes, i gonna meet fiz!

superman returns

to all die hard superman fans out there, go and watch superman returns. it just brings back memories and brings out the boy in you, if you know what i mean. this movie does justice to superman and it will make christopher reeves proud. the opening sequence reminded us (rob & me) of xanadu. only those in the 80's era wld understand. :) i guess superman can run rings ard batman anytime. ;p

fragile

was reading a friends blog a while ago; she had a nightmare abt a death in the family and how she was so affected in the dream but was relief it was a dream...two days later, she received a call from a friend. his elder brother had just passed away, he was only 24 yrs old - motorbike accident. not sure if the dreams are connected but its kinda sad. to lose someone in ya family or a friend. it makes u realise how fragile life is. to all those who have to be on the roads like 24/7, do take care of yourself and others on the roads - life is precious!!


its the weekend! got a dinner & dance tmr at double O, or shld i say later tonight and might be catching 'superman returns' after that. tmr is also the last days or miao, li yin and doreen (i think), kinda gonna miss them. well, i'm glad that our paths crossed and i've got two new friends. :) listening to jay chou & jolin among the rest.. yes, i am slowly losing my 'religion'! :p good night world!! peace out!

high on fiz

was talking to fiz last night and somehow i guess we have grown even closer to each other. not sure why but with her i feel so comfortable and i could come up with all these wise crack and make her laugh... like it when she laughs. ;) going out for dinner with her this weekend and i hope everything will be perfect. we're not expecting anything to happen between us but if it does, it will be btwn us! ;p but for now i guess we do like each other. yes, pat we do and i'm still high on her; i'm happy for u too. :) *hugs*


i'm listening to jay chou's 'yi lu xiang bei' from the initial d sountrack as i blog. yes, i do have this identity crissi once in awhile. i used to go karaoke with my colleagues and they intro'd me to the chinese pop world. i do have to admit that some songs are okie but the ballads just tear ur heart apart. anyway, if u do know of any nice chinese song, do let me know, wanna add it to my collection which i have started five mins ago. ;p


now here's the irony, i'm an indian guy who likes a malay girl and listens to chinese songs! sometimes, i just forget my roots and culture. hahahaha.. 2 days to the weekend, yipppe!! hugs to pat & nessa!

why

Why are we rushing for things which eventually won't be ours for eternity.

ibp

i dedicate this post to all the freaking indians nationality who board the IBP bus at JE. in case u hve missed it, mumbai has been voted the rudest city on planet earth but that doesn't mean u hve to bring ur freaking bad manners into singapore. u r the ones that shld be packed like sardines on a lorry and be send to work every morning for i believe the odd labourers from ur hometown has better manners. tell me why the fucking hell do u hve to push ur way thru to board the bus everyday?? would u disintergrate if u miss the bus? i wld be real glad if u wld, one less asshole. its good thing we dont carry guns here if not i wld hve turn ard and blow ur freaking brains away. if it wasn't me, it wld be the lady with her little kid whom u were pushing too.. tell me what's ur fucking problem....is it against ur freaking religion miss the bus?? or are u wanna using this opportunity to molest ur way thru?? come to think of it, maybe u ARE using this opportunity to molest the girls who board the bus!! just like how a colleague of mine got molested a mth back.


u are such a disgrace to ur homeland and others who strive hard to make ppl respect them. but i guess it doesnt matter coz u guys are fucking self-centred. there's nothing more i can say.

author is an indian whose parents were from india.

the start of the week.

monday was a drag, not sure how i managed to stay awake at work. after work, i found my way to my bro's place to pick up some stuffs. my little niece was asleep when i arrived, while the older one was having her dinner and watching tv; sad thing that she is having chicken pox but she is braved as ever.


came back, put the stuffs at home and went to church to meet nico gab to discuss the fun walk to be held in sept. everything got settled within an hr or so with the help of juliana, whom i hve not seen in my life. but its good to see new faces coming out, (youth group included) and doing something for the church. so if u got nothing to do this friday, come on down and check us out.


before i go, let me intro u to a beauty i just set my eyes on. guess, u will fall in love with her too!! ;)

a lazy sunday afternoon

was suppose to help out in church today, youth canteen but i just couldn't wake up. considering the fact that i've been out late the whole week, if it ain't work; its church. so finally i managed to get a good sleep and i feel good. its looks like a stay home sunday but i have to travel down to clementi to collect some stuff frommy bro later. not sure how to get there; just thinking shld i go down during the week instead since i am closer to clementi from my work place. see wot my mom thinks abt the idea, its sunday and i'm too lazy to make the trip and the weather isn't good too. will see how..


spoke to fiz last night, juz before bed, we were talking abt having dinner and she suggested 'bernie's bfd' at east coast while i suggested 'the altivo bar' at mount faber. but since she so much wants me to check out 'bernie's bfd', we'll go there. i guess it's the best i could as a belated birthday gift to her and i hope it will be something that we'll remember for a long time. if u ask if we're together, i would say that we are not; we like things the way they are. we will find our own partners one day and we'll remain the best of friends still. i am glad that i have her in my life. :)

boring sunday

why do i feel my heart sink when i see u talking to him, why do i wish it was me hugging you , why do i wish that i was with you tonight. why do my heart feel for you when we are like so different.


its saturday and i'm home early and it really sucks. not sure i'll be going out later and juz sleep and wait for sunday. life sucks!!!

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bored

it 's been a long week and i'm freaking tired yet bored. juz came back from work and i'm still undecided if i shld go for choir later or juz sleep. still gotta wake up early tmr ... sigh!! such is life!!

world cup

well, ppl now will stand up and take notice of Argentina. like i've said, they will win the World Cup!!

Argentina 6-0 Serbia & Montenegro

fiza

wot wld u feel when someone replies u back that she doesn't want anything for her birthday, cause she's glad that she have u...and thats all that matters.


well, i'm not sure abt you but i'm feeling like kanya west - top of the world, baby!! :) so i would like to take this opportunity to wish fiza, a very happy birthday. wished i could spent time with u today like u did on my birthday when u brought me out fishing but work got me tied up.


so let me bring u out, we'll check out the restaurant u hve been talking abt at east coast soon. chill out at the beach after that and enjoy each other's company....it'll be just beautiful.


i'm so glad that i have you too, my friend. *hugs*

nessa!!

once in a while, a friend brings a smile into ur life, love and lots of hugs!!!

a friend who knows when u r down or out

or juz plain crazy

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to

-nessa-

thanks for the love and hugs

-roch-

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Nelly Furtado

Promiscuous girl

Wherever you are

I'm all alone

And it's you that want

Promiscuous boy

You already know

That i'm all yours

What you waiting for?

Promiscuous girl

You're teasing me

You know what I want

And I got what you need

Promiscuous boy

Let's get to the point

Cause we're on a roll

Are you ready?

I-POD

i would like to give a shoutout to the following people who gave me an iPod shuffle for my birthday present.

gab, damien, chris,

j sandhu, sarah, hatsuee,

crystal, melvin and robin.

well, this is most awesome b'day present i have received so far, its really worth waiting five months for it. yes, my b'day was actually in feb. but in this fast pace world, we hardly got a chance to meet up. so thanks to sarah who wrap the present and everyone else for it. if i did miss anyone, do let me know. now to upgrade my pc to windows 2000 or XP in order to use it. :p or anyone care to let me use their comp?? :D

manda the panda

manda the panda

This is a good friend who was interviewed by On The Haus, a publication done by the Nafa's very own students. She has been featured in Blank Magazine (Spain) and a featured Artist in Peelzine Magazine (USA) (Issue 6).

She will also be featured in an upcoming local showcase @ red dot design museum, so do support the cause and spread the love.

world cup fever

ytd was really a long day... went for debz wedding which was really beautiful; still can't believe that she is married. hope that they have a great time in Goa. after debz wedding, we had reception which started off with buffet..., drinks buffet. nothing beats having a cold draft beer in the afternoon and to top it off, we also had wine. so there were drinks, good food and eye candies. and after all that, we had to begin prac for mass. its been a long time i sang and it really showed, while my parner in crime - melvin, took a nap. i joined him soon later. as i said, nothing beats having three glasses of draft beer and wine in the afternoon. luckily we were quite awake during mass. felt good singing again...

after mass, met up with hutton, had dinner and proceeded to mel's place to catch the world cup. miss the england goal. i guess which was the only highlight of the game. england got a lot to do, if they're thinking of getting to the next round coz the match btwn sweden vs trinidad and tobago was awesome. sweden threw everthing they had at them, and yet they held on, all thanks to their goalkeeper, shaka hislop - who plays his football @ west ham. he came on when their first choice goalkeeper had an injury ten mins before the game. i guess they are thanking the heavens. the game ended, 0-0 and the t&t fans celebrated as if they had won the game. so england tops the table. the next game btwn argentina & ivory coast was even better. ivory coast like t&t being in the world cup for the first time, displayed their skills and techniques on the field. it was only their finishing up front that let them down, if not they could have won the game; but i have to give it to argentina too, jaun roman riquelme is the man to look out for. oh yes, drogba managed to pull one back and the game ended @ 2-1. i guess, ivory coast will cost holland a lot of problems. for more info, please click here.