stuck in moment you can get out

what happens when members of blur, the verve and the clash come together?? well, you get 'the good, the bad and the queen'. bought the album last night along with akon's 'konvicted' and u2's '18 singles'. yes, i actually bought cds after so long. :p

well, the weekend ended on a sweet note...well almost. went down to eastpoint to meet fiz @ starbucks where i was intro'd to her friend, alexis. so we chilled at starbucks and later had dinner @ tampines. went shopping after dinner and that is when i got my cds. not wanting to go back yet, we grab a drink each and went to a nearby playground. the funny thing is that alexis reminds me abit of debbie and andi; an interesting gal actually.

after everything, we walked alexis home where we saw accident on the other side of the road (it was on those small roads). at first we thought it was argument between the drivers as we saw a pick up truck and a car behind; but as we drew closer, we saw an old man crying beside a woman who laid motionless just behind the truck. two cars were parked just after the truck and a shirtless guy was directing traffic. then another car pulled up, a teenage gal got out & ran towards the body crying, MA!! (mother, in dialect). just about then, the ambulance arrived and the paramedics took out the stretcher. it was the same time also that we have to take a turn into the blocks.

all this happen within 5 mins while we were walking pass the accident towards alexis' place and we were all shaken by it but it affected us differently. for me, the thought for losing her mom at a young age is almost unbearable...the cry is still ringing in my ears. guess we should never take anyone for granted cause life is so fragile.

please keep the family in your prayers and give ur mom a big hug.

angina pectoris

woke up today with chest pains, went to work nonetheless but couldn't take it. so i went to see the doc who couldn't tell the cause of it; he gave me some painkillers and told me if it gets worse to go to A&E. well, he did a ECG on me and the heart beats are regular, so no cause for alarm yet. took a day's MC and rested @ home. thought by getting some sleep, the pain would go away but it didn't. sigh! can't take any deep breaths, cough, laugh, sneeze, burp or have any hiccups at the moment cause its gonna hurt.

it says in the website that angina pectoris (angina pectoris derives from latin and translates as 'tight chest') is often brought on by physical exercise, psychological stress, extreme cold or a heavy meal. all i had last night was noodles at marina centre with andy after the IT Fair. Hmmm, maybe it was it the IT Fair 2007; the psychological stress when stalls were reducing the prices at the eleventh hour. the physical exercise of pushing my way thru the crowds and the extreme cold of the air cons at the food court. yup, that could be the cause! :p

anyways, my NEC N411i died on me over the weekend.. so i lost all my contacts. so please do let me have ur contacts again.. the number is still the same. got myself a nokia 5300 xpress music on sunday and it just awesome... still getting use to the functions. ;p now i can upload my nieces and nephew pics. :)

my mom was talking earlier today about selling the house and moving to punggol. why punggol?? if it happens, i'm going to get my own place here in yishun!! there's no way that i'm going to travel from punggol to jurong for work everyday and i've just renewed my contract.

just took my medications and feeling the effects of it already. one of the tablets is the size of a 50 cent coin, no joke!! good thing is, i dun have to swallow it - juz dissolve into water and drink it. hmmm.... it taste like 100 plus!! lol. well, i gonna hit the bed soon as the head is spinning. hopefully, i'll be better tmr.

the pursuit of happyness

caught the movie, the pursuit of happyness over the weekend and it did bring back some memories for myself. i guess it was december 2005, when i was at the lowest point of my life. i remembered walking home in the rain one day thinking there was no future for me. i was without a job and completely broke. ever since i quit my job of 12 years in 2002, i couldn't hold on to a job for a least a year. the jobs that were offered to me were all contract jobs. i did roadshows, telemarketing & door to door sales and i realised something - i was not cut out for sales; but it did give me the opportunity to work with some big companies, which i've gained alot from (and it does looks good on the resume too :p).

it was during one of those roadshows in dec 2002, where i met my wld be financial advisor who an agent with a mutli-national insurance company. she was fresh out of university and i've just quit my stable job of 12 years to go into a commission based company. not sure why i trusted this 'newbie' but i did. how many agents have u met, told u that u have too many policys that u can handle and even considered dropping a few unnecessary ones so that you will be able to tie up your loose ends. well, this one did and she got me dumbfounded. so in jan 2003, i invested my cpf with her and its bearing its fruits now. i've included bric into my portfolio after reviewing my investment with her over lunch last month and no, she still has not asked me to get a policy from her.

its mar 07 now, i've lasted a year in my current job and i've just renewed it for another year. with an increased in salary and bonus in the bank, i was thinking how i was going to spend it. this is when chris gardener brought me to reality. i don't wanna be crying in the rain again with only a dollar to my name. i've come this far and i'm not going to throw it all away again.

the village

just got back from fisherman's village after having dinner and drinks there with the gal. its such a nice way to end the weekend. going to be back there again next weekend for a birthday celebration!! it's going to be a weekend to remember..

Hell is a place called home

Little Ericka is 11 years old
She's steady tryna figure out why the world is so cold
So she pops X to get rid of all the pain
Plus she's having sex with a boy who's sixteen
Emotions run deep and she thinks she's in love
So there's no protection he's using no glove
Never thinkin' bout the conceqences of her actions
Livin' for today and not tomorrow's satisfaction
The days go by and her belly gets big
The father bails out he ain't ready for a kid
Knowin' her mama would blow it all out of proportion
cause she lives poor so no money for abortion
Ericka's stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that Hell is a place called home
Nothin' else to do but get her clothes and pack
She says she's bout to run away and never come back

untitled!

found a few things during our friday youth session like how long it took to write the bible, who was the one that decided which books shld be compiled in the bible and during which period was the bible written, also the history of the church which was quite interesting. it was things that i never knew before and never thought much about untill now. well, if u wanna find out more, come and see!!

after the friday session, hang out with del & jamie till 3am - okie i was trying to keep myself awake till i gave in and shut my eyes and that was time we decided to leave. :p but it was fun hanging out wif u gals... next week we'll do it again. :)

it's a saturday, the big match later and move after that!! it's going to be a long night again.. hee!! have a great weekend.

last man standing

1 year ago today, i made two friends, chee xiang and mazlina. we were the newbies in the company, not knowing what we were getting into or will we survive one year in this company. 1 year on, i must say that it has been a hell of a ride. only wished that chee xiang has stayed on to enjoy the ride. well, i am looking forward (i think so i am) to another year of craziness and fun :p

to all my colleagues (past and present) - u guys are the best!! keep the laughters coming.

to mazlina - it has been great knowing and working with you. it's gonna be different without you around but life still has to go on, yah! all the best and hope u'll come back one day!! :) luv ya, sis!!