Wednesday, October 25, 2006

u-turn

it has not been a good week so far, maybe it's the mid-life crisis that i'm going thru. yes, i may look young n all, but i'm still three years shy of the big 40. so i guess i should shift the gear and take it easy..


last friday after the our regular session, something that jamie said stuck me... 'once u have found that intimacy with God, you'll never want to say that i don't need God anymore!' my first reaction was, 'hell no, i rather be intimate with an opp sex!' but then i thought to myself, what wld it be like to be on a level that u can't explain or to experience God like never before in your life. to tell u the truth, i find it a hard to raise my hands and do the lord of the dance.. but after talking to jame and adel, i found myself raising my hands up to him while listening to 'hands & feet - newsboys'. yes, let me be yr hands, let me be yr feet and go where u want me, go where u want me!!


not sure where he wants me go though!! to remain here and help out the church or to join the missionaries. i had two answers from two diff people who prac said the same thing, maybe my calling is not to join the missionary but to help out in the church, which is not easy thing to do. but then again, nothing is never easy. even He felt three times to save us, how much more must we fall to redeem ourselves. well, i guess it's abt time we stop being closet catholics and start to hunger for Him again!! Thru Him, everything is possible!!

Monday, October 23, 2006

The Bottom Line

aquarius


Instead of wasting time trying to encourage someone to grow up, go on without them.

Maturity is a possession, and unfortunately, someone you have to deal with today doesn't have it. . Instead of wasting your time encouraging them to grow up, leave them behind (if you can). Your leadership skills will come in hand if you must step in as the adult. Do not feel like you have to sugar coat your words.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

you'll never walk alone

went to the docs this morning, had an x-ray done as he can't find anything wrong with my chest. everything is per normal.. so he gave something for the throat and the cough; to come back on monday to collect the x-ray result. i guess i'll know whats wrong with me only on monday, in the meantime, i'm gonna rest and relax at home - 2 days MC. guess we al need a break, once in a while.


thanks bro, ain't going anywhere till we visit anfield, yah!! YNWA!!

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

alive and coughing!!

the cough has just gotten from bad to worse... and my monitor is pretty screwed up. just when i though i had recovered ytd, but today - i am coughing and sneezing... sigh!! seems like my heart skips a beat everytime i cough, trying hard to catch me breath and thank god for a second chance. never have i been sick for this long or have been taking my medicines faithfully.. yes, i almost finishing it. well, if it happens, it happens... just hope i get a rocking send off..yeah!!

Monday, October 16, 2006

ministry of sound

before i blog, i wanna say thank you to those who have showed their concerns..really appreciate it. we don't need a lot of friends, just a few close ones will do coz u know that they'll be there with u forever.


got myself out of worried stage and went down to ministry of sound on saturday. seventeen ppl are going, mel told me , when was the last time this number. so i got off my sorry arse and went down to mos. found that the person that mel was liaising with was my ex-colleague. *it was good seeing you again, su* after getting all the details and numbers down, we were shown to our table, a real chill out area - sofas and pillows. as we settling down, the drinks just kept coming and it was a scary sight. what we had at the beginning was something one wld have half way thru the night where the table are full of drinks. we had two bottles of whiskey, one bottle of tequila, four jugs of mixers, and trays of shots. as usual we made new friends that night and met up with some old ones. after a while, i took a shut eye on the sofa.. and just snooze. as always, the night will always end with food - big breakfast @ macs before heading home sweet home not knowing when will be the next time we'll meet again. clubbing ytd was diff, i'm not sure why but i guess it'll be quite a while again till we step into one again.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

big loser

question my faith today, i've spent two decades in the choir but nothing good was come out of it for me at least. i'm still single, no career and no future at all .. in short, i am just a big loser who have been blinded all this while.

Monday, October 09, 2006

signs of times

been coughing for more than a week now and it doesn't show signs of improvement. even the docs are puzzled with the symptoms as i did not have a fever or a cold prior to my cough... and i got it before the haze. what the docs did say that it's usually common among people with asthmatic history but i do not have an history or is it not to late to have one. I think what i have is asthmatic bronchitis (although i may be wrong), i do have difficulty breathing after coughing - i swallow my saliva just to clear my windpipe, just to be able to breathe again. for a few secs i am inbtwn life & death and its kinda scary;nope, i have not seen my life flashed before me.... at least not yet!! well, i hope it gets better soon.


oh yes, if u guys remember i wrote abt my little niece having a hole in her heart; well, it's not one but two holes in the heart. however, one hole has closed up and the other is slowly reducing in size. now, that's good news for everybody - miracles do happen!! :)

Friday, October 06, 2006

Foolish Heart

FOOLISH HEART
Steve Perry


I need a love that grows
I don't want it unless I've known
That each passing night
She'll want somehow
We'll be there read to share


I need a love that's strong
I'm so tired of being alone
But will my lonely heart
Play the part of the fool again
Before I begin


Foolish heart
Hear me calling
Stop before you stop falling
Foolish heart
Heed my longing
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore



Feeling that feeling again
I'm playing a game I can't win
There's knockin' at the door
My heart wants more
Think I'll let her in before I begin


Foolish heart
Hear me calling
Stop before you stop falling
Foolish heartHeed my longing
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore


Foolish heart
Foolish foolish heart
You've been wrong before



Foolish heart
Hear me calling
Stop before you stop falling
Foolish heart
Heed my longing
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore


Foolish heart
Oh, foolish heart
You've been wrong before
Foolish foolish heart

Thursday, October 05, 2006

last rites

the calls have stopped, the sms have stoppped
back being all by myself again
good things never last or at least i tot it was
coughing like someone on a death bed
is it my time already?
is this how its suppose to end
i am not sure... but
i can feel that it will be soon......

Sunday, October 01, 2006

the last plan

the plan was to celebrate melvin's b'day at east coast, what happened after that was all impromptu and everybody had a great time... i think!! well, i know the birthday boy did and thats all that matters.


Happy Birthday, bro!!