wants a beak from everything.... even from you

you never took the time to know me

never took the time to understand

guess i'm not good enough to be in your world

guess my reality is always a blistered one.

Here today, gone tomorrow

"I’m just so fucking depressed
I just can’t seem to get out of this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump
I don’t know how or why or when
I ended up being in the position I’m in
I’m starting to feel distant again "

The Way I Am Feeling right now

Song lyrics | Beautiful lyrics

3 Oct 2009

Cooking Event @ Ang Mo Kio Hub

Did an cooking event on 3 Oct 2009 @ AMK Hub. The setup consist of a fender mixer, 1 handheld & 1 wireless with two fender speakers. It was my first event in public and I was doing it alone. I was there at 8.30am but I guess my cousin was there way earlier coz everything was already set up. So got myself familiar with the area and what i was suppose to do. My coz went to another event while i went for breakfast @ macs. (Yes we do eat..... ) The cooking event was split into two parts and it ended at 2pm. Hope to do it again next week. :)

= + =

After packing up everything, we left @ 3pm. I headed to Cine Leisure K-Box to celebrate xin lan's birthday. It was only like ytd that we celebrated her 21st birthday & now she's 23. The celebration went well and i guess Jenny went to some length organising it. I didn't do anything much and I don't feel good about it. But I was glad to see my niece again after so long. Am happy that everything went well and she enjoyed herself. Didn't join them for dinner & clubbing after as I only had three hours of sleep. So I headed back home to get a good rest.

Mel's Place

Melvin's 27 birthday on 25 Sept '09 @ Mel's place.

We celebrated Smelly's birthday @ Mel's Place located @ 2A Kuo Chuan Avenue. Love the music, the ambiance and people that turned up. Esp the girl that kept sticking her tongue out at almost every photos. That beautiful girl is non other than Corrinne's best friend since time began. If you wish to know more details about her please do realise that it's a blog and not a social dating service. =p

Moving on..... I would like to wish my bro, Melvin Wong a Happy 27th Birthday on Wednesday. Damn has it been 13 years already since we've know each other?? I remembered I was 27th when I first got to know you guys. Man, time flies yeah. Hard to believe that u guys would be hitting 30 soon. Yes, I could almost hear you say, 'do remind me'...hahaha.

Well, it has been a great 13 years and cheers to more good years ahead!! And to my dear friend A, yes I've known not grown since the last time you saw me and given my age, I don't think I will. =p But nonetheless, I will still send your feedback to my mom and I will let you know the next time I meet up with you. =p In the meantime, take care. :)

Lamborghini Reventon Roadster

hungry-confused-upset.

yes, i was hurt today..... seems like i am not worth your precious time. i am just a nobody in your eyes... a useless old man. no one gives two fucks about me. i am just destined to be hurt and be a fool. will try to erase u from my memory s l o w l y coz the futher you are, the lesser hurt it will be.

R.I.P PATRICK SWAYZE

what have I been up too.......part 2

@ City Space, Equinox

Outside Central @ Clark Quay

Chatterbox, Meritus Mandarin Singapore

Birthday Cake

what have I been up too...

well, i'm back after a long absence.... my computer was down and i was too lazy to get it fixed. the guys at a certain computer shop didn't do a good job at fixing my comp too. they just got it working again but never saw the root of the problem. so hence why it kept crashing. so i decided to bring it to a small computer shop and he did a fair better job than an established computer shop. so here i am again... and here's what i've been up to recently.

celebrated jenny's birthday

with sweet amanda d.s. @ obar

my first Rebel experience

catching with ol'friends @ esplande

@ wala wala with the temps

more to come....

Michael Joseph Jackson (August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009)

The Off The Wall album was my first introduction to MJ and that i believe was somewhere in 1979 or 1980. I was like 10 or 11 then and i would dance to his songs @ some house parties that we would always have. The two songs i still love from the album is 'Off the Wall' and 'Rock With You' which i recently tried to sing with my friend Rob. The song still rocks. Of course, the Thriller album just blew everyone away and five years later, he released Bad!! After which, the whole black or white thingi came and i guess I didn't really dig him that much after that.


But still the man will be missed by myself and millions across the globe. The man is a legend and no one will come close. The music these days just don't add to what it used to be. So thanks for the music, moonwalk and everything else!! Rest In Peace!!

Transformers 2

I watched Transformers 2 twice and counting... It's such an awesome movie that u just wanna watch over and over again; and the soundtrack rocks, and of course there's always Megan Fox!!!!




I never thought much about Optimus Prime but after this movie I am like whoa!! This is Prime at his best!!!! So go and catch it, it's worth your every dollar!!!!

Pieces - Sum 41

I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy, but no one believes me
I meant all the things I said.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me,
But it's the only thing that I have.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.

On my own.

Ahh!

I tried to be perfect it just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.

live and let die...

found out something over the weekend that made me realize that i have been a fool all along. why must everything so right just turned out wrong. guess what i wished for will never happen.. not in this life. yes, i'll be alone as always. . . . i am just getting old and i should just fade away. live and let die...

AF 447

"Millvina Dean, the last remaining survivor of the sinking of the Titanic in 1912, died in a care home in England, media reports said. She was 97. Elizabeth Gladys Dean, known to friends as Millvina, was only nine weeks old when the liner hit an iceberg in the Atlantic Ocean on the night of April 14, 1912, and sank killing 1,500 people.


Born on February 12, 1912, Dean was the youngest passenger on board. At the time, RMS Titanic was the most luxurious, most technically advanced and largest passenger liner in the world.She was dubbed "unsinkable", but it took just two hours and 40 minutes for her to disappear into the icy waters of the Atlantic after striking an iceberg at 11:40 pm on April 14."


Well, a day after the last titantic survivor dies in England, an Air France flight AF 447 goes missing. And it's strange coz even with the state of the art equipments that we have now, the plane is nowhere to be found. The pilot is an experience one and the plane is built to withstand the heaviest storm, so what might have happened to the plane is still a misery. My only guess is it may have drifted way off course. . . all we need now is a miracle and everyone is still safe. In GOD we trust!!!

Pesach IV

we had pesach iv on saturday and i guess it was the best of the three years, considering the fact the sound was still in a mess the day before and the day itself; but thanks to eugene and sebastian for helping out otherwise things wouldn't have gone smoothly. also thanks to jamie who brought to mind that technicalities do happen so what we have is what we gonna work with. so in the end, it worked well.... and it was 90 mins of pure energy from project jesus and the combined choir.


i was in two minds about helping out in the sound aspect of it as i felt that i have lost touched and the hang of it. working on a 24 channel 'tecman' and 16 channel 'yamaha' was nerve wrecking at first when the monitors speakers keeping creating feedbacks that almost blew our eardrums. i would like confess that i never good at monitor speakers hence i took a back seat while sebastian helped to sort out the monitors problems and it worked. eugene sorted ut the wireless problems and it worked. so during the performances, i was praying hard that i won't screw anything up and let everybody down.


but thank god, everything went well and everyone was happy!!! thanks again to eugene, sebastian, jr and jamie for helping me out; not forgetting dominiq for sorting the organ problem out. .. oh yes, i got a momentum from pesach iv, a bruise on my right arm... knocked my arm against one of the pews and the scar is still there. =p


i guess i would officially retire from sound as the heart can't take the pressure and stress level. i would like to apologies to my friends if i was a bit cranky. it was a difficult week for me and this foolish heart of mine has started playing games with me again but that's another story. =p

I can't make you love me

realised that i shouldn't have . . . should have just locked my heart away!!

Victoria Secret Sales starting May 2009

Helping out an ex-colleague who is going to bring Victoria Secrets Bags and other items into Singapore. So if u are interested, please do visit Victoria's Secret Bags Instock and place ur orders.

nowhere fast

time to take a step back and analyze things all over again...
not gonna blog coz there's nothing much to blog about.....

onli use when required....

was hurt today, like always.

alone in the dark

it's march 2009 and everything is just not going really good. . . ever since i lost my wallet and phone, everything went downhill and it's good to know who your real friends are. . . things are not looking up yet and with my mom being admitted to hospital ytd, things went further downhill..... not sure when i would see the light but i guess i have to go through this alone coz i've always have.... 2009 has been sucky so far!!!

Cookie the lost puppy..

cookie the lost puppy, has been found. . . !!! =)

i don't know why

the heart is breaking up and i don't know why....

feeling so alone and i don't know why...

feel like crying and i don't know why....

it hurts and i don't know why...

~~~~~~~~~~~ " ~~~~~~~~~~~

a weekend of losses

okie first things first... please help to look out for a friend's puppy who went missing whilst in care of another friend in yishun. so if anyone have seen cookie, please do let crystal or me know... thanks!!!

secondly, i lost my wallet and phone @ attica whilst celebrating greg's birthday. i pray for the soul of the person who took it coz u have been cursed to the ends of the universe... good luck to ya. ;)

anyways, i have got my cards replaced and prob get a new phone over the weekend hopefully, now really sure what phone to get though. well, if everything else fails i just get back the same model, nokia 5300. =p

well, its gonna be another weekend, but this time its work and training the whole day.. *sianz*. might be going for drinks after work, but see how. till then, have a good weekend.

Lost Puppy

Name : Cookie

Breed : Mongrel

Gender : Male

Last seen on 12 Feb Midnight @ Block 702 Yishun Ave 5.

If found please contact: crystalshong@hotmail.com

And You Tell Me - A-HA

Please don't hurt me
I have told you
All my love is all i've got
And tomorrow is the day
When I for your sake
I'm coming back

And you tell me
That i don't love you

I'm trying hard to make you jealous
Trying harder to make you stay
Days are longer
Night are crazy
It's so strange when you're away

And you tell me
That i don't love you
Please
Let me come to you
And stay this time

And you tell me
That i don't love you
Oh you know
That it's just not true

juz tot of the song today and so i blogged.

pictures of things so far..

evangeline's farewell @ zouk

with friends at gotham penthouse

with melissa @ cafe domus

my birthday celebration at lunar with me dear colleagues

The Feb month.... so far.

it's been an eventful month so far, started off with farewell party at debz & fer's place on 31 Jan to 1 Feb 09. it was really nice and enjoyable, made friends. hmmm...i just realised that carol has not uploaded the pictures as yet. . then me, rod and carol send debz and fer to the airport. really sad seeing them off, esp debz whom i known she was a little girl....sigh. but i still have faith in the girl that one day, she'll make it big time. love u debz and hope to see u again one day. =)

next stop was evangeline's farewell party at zouk with andy, jason, andrea and jasmine along with evan's friends on 6th Feb... gotham on 7th Feb to celebrate my advance birthday. which was fun thanks to rodney. i 'owe' you one big time, dude!!! we saw evangeline off at the airport on 10th Feb and i really did tear... really gonna miss that girl. love u gal!!!

on 13th feb, went down to cafe domus to watch corrinne & robin performed. it was nice seeing sarah, joanne, arvin, mellisa, audrey han and of course, amanda again along with andi, jude and melvin. countdown to my birthday on cafe domus and thanks rob for the bucket of tiger!! sorry that i couldn't finished all by myself, that why amanda helped me. i was really tired and could have slept at domus itself. thanks to mel for sending me back, i was really really tired. not really sure why.

on 14th feb itself, i celebrated my birthday with my colleagues @ lunar. was surprised that they played house music during the band breaks. i must say that the live band there are awesome.. that's why i didn't mind going there on my birthday. caroline and rodney was around clark quay too celebrating with their own friends. thanks for the nike t-shirt and the top up cards guys. each of them are actually valued at $100 and i got six of them.. so i am covered for life.. =p

i would like to thank everyone for their birthday wishes which i received so many via sms and facebook. sorry that i couldn't reply to everyone but i do appreciate it, thanks once again. it's funny that amidst everything, i do feel lonely. yes, still waiting for the special girl to fill that void.

anyways, with everything aside i realised something on friday that i guess will have to be looked over.... not gonna say what but in time people will realised. . . nights!!

invisible

suddenly everything seems to crashing down and i don't think i will be able to take it. . . another when u really get to the bottom of it. . . life sucks big time at the moment. . . and i wish i could disappear.

give me something to believe in.....

gonna take a step back and look at things all over again.... realised that somethings needs to be re-evaluated.... realised that i'm not interesting enough to some people....... please give me something to believe in.

ASOT

went to zouk on friday with caroline to catch armin van buuren and he was awesome. . i almost gave the whole event a missed becoz of something that happened but i thought i could feel miserable or i could have the time of my life with beautiful people. so i met up with carol n met manda, daryl and friends and the rest as they say was history being made. hahaha.. we however didnt stay till the end, as tiredness got the better of us, so carol n me headed home; not before getting a long sweet hug from amanda dear... lubb u!! =) didn't get to see debz, fer, nicole or cillin when we were inside... but we all had a helluva time. anyways, me and carol headed back to yishun and had the usual, supper @ 848. then it was a long walk home for me after walking carol home... it was a memorable night.. wonder if dj tiesto would head this way??? haha

anyways, met up with huirong on sat evening after having dinner with joanne p, pat & angela after church. huirong's bf was held up so we went to burger king, yishun to have a bite. she was fun to be with and freaking funny. the nicest thing abt it is that it was comfortable being with her... this gal is after very down to earth and it was nice catching up with her. found out that her bf used to live in yishun too.

anyways, finally finish downloading a rpg game recommended by taufiq 'phoenix dynasty online' so yea, i started to play this afternoon till i was quite bored with it. haha... guess i'll stick to 'mass effect'. =)

wish everyday was like new year's eve!!

saying farewell to 2008 @ helipad

welcoming 2009 @ Le Noir

it was my first time clubbing on new year's eve. . previous new years were spend in church or around yishun. so this year, i wanted it to be different & special; and man, it was a helluva time!! never had we had so much fun just being ourselves. like mel put it 'wish everyday was like new year's eve!' well, it was a great start to the new year, so i hope it stays that way although i foresee some rocky times ahead soon ... oh well, just have to face it and see where it goes. in the meantime, happy new year to everyone!!