more than meets the eye!!

watched Transformers over the weekend and it was AWESOME!!! definetly going to watch it again... next stop would be Die Hard 4.0.

well, its july and the heat is defintely on!!

random thoughts

random thoughts


hope the week will pass me by
hope that you'll forget me
hope happiness will find its way back
hope i'll stop feeling this way soon

time will only tell

asugetoldernoonereallycaresaboutyounoonewillrealisethatyouaregonetillitstoolate.

tears don't fall

"Your tears don't fall they crash around me
Her concious calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall they crash around me
Her concious calls the guilty to come home"

outta my system

When I'm with Somebody
All I think bout is you
When I'm all alone
Thats all I wanna do
I miss the smiley faces in my sidekick
Outta town visits
All the time we spend together
Makes it hard to get you
Outta my system
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand
Damn
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you
Outta my system

the pieces don't fit anymore

monday blues

but work kept me from thinking about you

guess i no longer linger on your mind

soon u'll forget u had a friend...

and even if we meet it wont be the same

coz the pieces just don't fit anymore

keep your hands off my girl

met the girl last night @ 2300hrs
we hanged at a void deck near her place
we chatted till the sun came up and
till streets were filled with people again
hurrying to work or for breakfast
but never failed to give us a stare
walked the girl home n we said our goodbyes
took a long bus ride home knowing
things won't be the same again.......

Hits

10,000 hits

a big thank you to friends, fellow bloggers, strangers and you!!

will continue to keep you entertained

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birthday

its the girl's birthday tmr.

happy birthday dear..

:)

born 2 rock

Born To Rock

This classic rock performance proves you’re never too young to shred.

>> Watch guitar prodigy

friday

i must say that i have not had so much fun for a long time esp after a tiring week.

first off, it was dinner or rather 'tea' wif my colleagues - andy, shao xuan, carrie wif special guests appearance by clarence. we went to coffee club @ IMM so i decided to have a $9.90 jamacian coffee or something like that. the $9.90 coffee tasted like kopi-si and i assure the kopi tiams still deliver good coffees than some coffee outlets here. kudos to them!! shall fall back on my 3 in 1 coffee the next time.

came back to yishun, met up wif corrinne and we went for the youth meet. it was our 1 yr anniversary, didn't know we've come this far. we had KFC after our session.. yummy!! we packed up and headed to a street soccer ground near by. i juz wanted to watch but i got drag into it. it's been a long time since i've kicked a ball hence why i cldnt go any shots on target. but i really had fun even though eugene who accidentally kicked my shin. it still hurts, but i had so much fun today...thanks guys!!!

the door closes as soon as it opens..

here i am, back where i started

going to lock myself up and

forget the world outside..

gave love a chance but

it proved me wrong

had a friend who almost took his life

locked himself up and

forgot the world outside..

alcohol and pills

was the new way to go but

it didn't prove a thing

my heart

the door closes for good.

way back into love

"All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end"

the last two lines says it all...

i am going to give a chance

i'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

"I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction

And I'm open to your suggestions"

congrats to ac milan

congrats to kaka & company, they took their chances well. we've have lots to learn from the champs and kaka is juz amazing to watch. well, we'll be looking forward to next season and another final.

y.n.w.a.

spiderman 3

went to watch spidey today.......... again (for the third time). tis time wif my colleagues.. the company booked the whole cinema @ orchard cine leisure juz for the staffs. so why not!! hahaa..

abt 3hrs more to kick off, abt five hours more to glory!! It's going to be more exciting than Istanbul. To Chelsea and Man United - sit back, relax and watch how a final should be played. And at end of 90 mins, we're gonna be Champions of Europe for the 6th time, equalling Milan's record.

where are u, Chelsea FC?? even (Nottingham) Forest have won it twice. :p

-Y.N.W.A-

GIRLS...What you should know about

GIRLS...What you should know about Guys..

1. Guys hate sluts.
2. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
3. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
4. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
5. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
6. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.
7. Guys get jealous easily.
8. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.
9. Givinga guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
10. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
11. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
12. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
13. Any guy could write out a rule book or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.
14. Try to be as straightforward as possible.
15. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
16. Guys don't really have final decisions.
17. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
18. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
19. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
20. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

" 5 cents TOO MUCH!" - IT WILL MAKE YOU THINK!!

A priest moved to a new parish and some weeks after he arrived, he had occasion to ride the bus from his home to the city.

When he sat down, he discovered that the driver had accidentally given him a 5 cents too much change.

As he considered what to do, he thought to himself, "You'd better give the 5 cents back. It would be wrong to keep it." Then he thought, "Oh, forget it, it's only 5 cents. Who would worry about this little amount? Anyway, the bus company gets too much fare; they will never miss it. Accept it as a 'gift from God' and keep quiet."

When his stop came, he paused momentarily at the door, then he handed the 5 cents to the driver and said, "Here, you gave me too much change."

The driver with a smile replied, "Aren't you the new priest in my parish? I have been thinking lately about going to mass. I just wanted to see what you would do if I gave you too much change. I'll see you at church on Sunday"

When the priest stepped off of the bus, he literally grabbed the nearest lamp post, held on, and said, "Oh God, I almost sold your Son for 5 cents."

Our lives are the only Bible some people will ever read.

This is a really scary example of how much people watch us as Catholics and will put us to the test! Always remember (as I try to remember) that you carry the name of Christ on your shoulders when you call yourself "Catholic."

Watch your thoughts; they become words.

Watch your words; they become actions.

Watch your actions; they become habits.

Watch your habits; they become character.

Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

the weekend

well, the weekend was swell!!

went to work on sat, then straight to church for a wedding mass as the choir was singing. didn't know it was a friend's sisters' wedding, i was really not dress for the occasion. everything went well. after wedding mass, came back home and got ready for dinner but i was running late. was suppose to be at little india @ seven, i left home @ seven. was caught in traffic jam and only arrived an hr later.. my family had finished dinner and they'd packet the food for me.. the cab fare was $20. so yea, it was wasted trip. took the bus home and feast on my dinner. at this point i was still unsure, if i shld head down to obar.

so after a few phone calls, i decided to go. met up wif gab n joanne at yishun n headed down to obar. good thing there wasn't a long queue. i must say that the crowd have changed so much.. it used to be fun place, where ppl come to just chill out and party... the atmoshere was juz great!! all is gone now ... sigh, good things never last. can't say i really enjoyed myself, someguy pissed me off and really wanted to lay one on him but i didn't and the tot juz ruined my night. sigh! :p

anyways, everything else went on fine.. corrinne had her time of her life dancing like she's never done before, while mel n me kept a look out for vultures. ;p seriously if i had a gf, she's not gonna be dancing like corrinne, she's gonna give me a heart attack doing so. I am getting too old for this kinda shit. :p all in all, it was a beautiful night!!

sunday was spend with the gal. :)

love and hate collide

i find myself withdrawing from the crowd

into my own circle i find my comfort zone

away from love, hate and superficial people

into my own circle i heal myself

when love and hate collide

and in my own circle

i find myself ...

withdrawn

09 May 07

a picture tells a thousand words.

bored...

bored!!

missed u today although i know that we can never be together.

YNWA

Yes, it's gonna be an exciting evening on May 23 @ Athens, even UEFA President Michel Platini agrees. Platini is hoping for a repeat of the epic final between the two sides in Istanbul when they go head to head once again in Athens on May 23.

"Along with every other football fan across the world, I am looking forward to the final. Two clubs who have won the trophy eleven times between them will meet for the second time in two years. On the last occasion in Istanbul in 2005, Liverpool and Milan produced a match that occupies a special place in European football history."

"I am sure that the two teams will be striving to make this year's final an equally memorable occasion at the splendid Athens Olympic Stadium." (do check out the stadium, it's awesome!!)

You'll Never Walk Alone!!

champions league semi-final

was having drinks with my colleagues on monday night when one of them told me that man united will be winning the champions league this year and told me not to dream abt liverpool winning it. before i could say anything, my colleague shot back, 'it's not a dream, its a reality!'.

last night liverpool played chelsea at anfield but i went to bed knowing that we will be in the finals and true enough, liverpool beat chelsea 4-1 on penalty kicks. so to my good ol'colleague of mine, see you in the finals on May 23rd... if u can make it there.

It's the simple things in life we forget....

caught spiderman 3 @ gv plaza singapura, 1830hrs yesterday but i'm not going to spoil it for you. don't expect much, just sit back and enjoy the ride, after all it is adapted from a comic book. but there was something from the movie that hit me later on...

just as the movie ended, i received an sms from a colleague, one of her close friends had passed away due to chest pains. she had met him earlier in the day and of all the days she chose not to speak to him today although she sensed something was wrong. a few hours later, he passed away and it has left my friend devastated. she was in the hospital when she messaged me.

It's the simple things in life we forget....

simple things

Simple Things - Usher

Yeah, uhh
They say money can't buy you love
They say money can't buy you love
They never seem to listen
I'm all ears

Just copped your girl a brand new Rolex
But you can never find the time to spend at home
Thinkin' it's gon' keep her happy
When time is all she wanted all along

[Chorus]
It's the simple things in life we forget
You hear her talkin' but don't hear what she said
Why do you make something so easy so complicated
Searching for what's right in front of your face
But you can't see it

So you think that you know what's important
Steady chasin' your fame and your fortune
But you don't know
You're chasing a dime losin' a treasure
Those dollars don't make sense to me at all
Ooh, it goes

Duh da duh da
You give her spending money
Duh da duh da
But all she wanna spend is time alone (tonight)
Keep givin' her
The finer things but
But she don't really need that
If you don't stop you're
You're gonna end up alone (alone)
The world without love (duh duh da duh da)
Why would you do it

[Chorus x2]
It's the simple things in life we forget
You hear her talkin' but don't hear what she said
Why do you make something so easy so complicated
Searching for what's right in front of your face
But you can't see it

It's the simple things in life we forget
You hear her talkin' but don't hear what she said
Why do you make something so easy so complicated
Searching for what's right in front of your face
But you can't see it (listen)

Stop tryna buy her love
'cuz you won't ever have enough
There's always someone with more than you
You need to pay her attention
Give her what she needs
Do the simple things
Before you lose your girl to me
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeeah
Yeeeah yeah
Play on playa
Yeah
Your girl comin' wit' me shorty, haha
I'm tellin' you man
'cuz u know

[Chorus]
It's the simple things in life we forget
You hear her talkin' but don't hear what she said
Why do you make something so easy so complicated
Searching for what's right in front of your face
But you can't see it

You better look out
I hear you talkin', i hear you talkin' (ha)
But what are you saying
Oh hoo oh hooo
Don't be a fool
You got a good thing
Man are you blind
Stupid or crazy?
You got a good thing (uh)
You got a good thing
If that's your lady
You better hold on
And give her what she want
Before she move on
Man I tell you cars, clothes, and fancy things don't mean a damn thing
If you ain't kickin it baby

[Chorus]
It's the simple things in life we forget
You hear her talkin' but don't hear what she said
Why do you make something so easy so complicated
Searching for whats right in front of your face
But you can't see it

[Fade]
Don't let this be the thing you'll always regret, no
It's right there, it's right there

spiderman

spiderman 3

someone

wished that i someone that i could call my own

wished that i had someone who misses me

wished that i had someone to fill up this loneliness

better than me

I told myself I wouldn't miss you

But I remembered

What it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

downtown east

the weekend was a blast.. catch up wif some ol'friends on friday at downtown east chalet. it was crazy, we finished all the drinks on friday itself and were dicussing abt investment plans @ 3am in the morning. why shld ppl diversify their investments and shld we go into wine investments. it was fun and it was crazy, never laughed so much. it was great catching up with ol'friends after a long while. will post pics soon.. if i get hold of it.


next sat, another chalet! ;p

the innocence of life

the innocence of life

live for the moment

Dance like nobody's watching.

Sing like nobody's listening.

Work like you don't need the money.

Love like you've never been hurt!

A Piece of True Love and Humanity

A Piece of True Love and Humanity

Got this off a friend's blog.

Life is not always about winning but a lot of time, it is about bringing a piece of true love and humanity into this world. This is what the boys in the story did; they had put aside winning in that moment. Certainly something which we all need to learn and constantly remind ourselves. What would you do?….you make the choice. Don’t look for a punch line, there isn’t one. Read it anyway.

My question is: Would you have made the same choice? At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning-disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:

“When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?”

The audience was stilled by the query. The father continued.

“I believe that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.”

Then he told the following story:

Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, “Do you think they’ll let me play?” Shay’s father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.

Shay’s father approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and said, “We’re losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we’ll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.” Shay struggled over to the team’s bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt. His Father watched with a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father’s joy at his son being accepted.

In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay’s team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands.

In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay’s team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat. At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn’t even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball. However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay’s life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact.

The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher. The game would now be over. The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game. Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman’s head, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, “Shay, run to first! Run to first!”

Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled. Everyone yelled, “Run to second, run to second!” Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball, the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher’s intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman’s head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.

All were screaming, “Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay”. Shay reached third base because the opposing short stop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, “Run to third! Shay, run to third!” As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, “Shay, run home! Run home!” Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team.

“That day”, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, “the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world”. Shay didn’t make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his father so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!

easter

its been a long tiring weekend which was spend practically in church - thurs to sunday. of course, i had fun inbtwn whenever i can. it didn't rain this yr on good friday, i wonder why but it did pour on sat afternoon. guess 'el nino' is really having a ball of a time tis year...sigh! hanged out wif gab, pat n joanne at the 'windy' block with some drinks and chips on friday night!! went for easter vigil mass on sat, two and half hour the mass was but it rocked, guess the choir made a diff to the mass this year. all that endless sunday afternoon practise finally paid off!!

after mass, took cab down to liquid kitchen @ bukit timah to meet my colleagues for drinks. watched man united lose to portsmouth - courtesy of rio!! guess he got paid off by roman :p well, the upside of it, it was good to see man u lose - the downside of it, it gave hope to chelsea who are juz three pts away but man united has a game in hand. it will be nice though to see man united and chelsea being dumped out of the champions league tmr and liverpool sweep aside psv at anfield on tues!! so its going to be valencia, roma, liverpool n bayern munich semi-final. wanted to go ac milan but bayern has the away goal advantage but then again anything can happen. wld love to see a liverpool and roma final but i guess we wld meet in the semi final, so i guess it liverpool and valencia finals... rafa's old club. now here's the irony, morientes is the leading scorer for valencia.

anyways, the birthday gal, carrie, just got her day ruined by man united but we all had a good time. as the place were closing, the idea of heading to east coast was drop by andy as our other colleagues were spending the night there. it was supposed to be andy and me but the b'day gal joined us too. took a cab from bukit timah to east coast, reached there abt half pass three. jumnah, aisya n wati was still up and was sweet enough to heat up the pit so that we cld bbq. carrie stayed wif us for an hr or so before going back while the rest of us stayed till 7am before heading home. the whole time we were there, not a single leave moved.. the night was so still. shared a cab wif jumnah back to yishun and i went straight back to church again to help out the choir. came back home at abt 10am and finally crashed at 12pm.

the weather is still freaking hot and the fan is not helping much. got an ucler on my inner lip and my cough is back .. it hurts even more now. i'm 38 but i look a decade younger but when i cough, i feel twice my age. gonna take a shower again and crashed.. hop i'll feel better tmr.

AQUARIUS

AQUARIUS

Does it in the water.

Trustworthy.

Sexy.

Great kisser.

One of a kind.

Loves being in long-term relationships.

Extremely energetic.

Unpredictable.

Will exceed your expectations.

Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.

Amazing in bed, THE BEST LOVERS BETTER THAN EVERYONE

stuck in moment you can get out

what happens when members of blur, the verve and the clash come together?? well, you get 'the good, the bad and the queen'. bought the album last night along with akon's 'konvicted' and u2's '18 singles'. yes, i actually bought cds after so long. :p

well, the weekend ended on a sweet note...well almost. went down to eastpoint to meet fiz @ starbucks where i was intro'd to her friend, alexis. so we chilled at starbucks and later had dinner @ tampines. went shopping after dinner and that is when i got my cds. not wanting to go back yet, we grab a drink each and went to a nearby playground. the funny thing is that alexis reminds me abit of debbie and andi; an interesting gal actually.

after everything, we walked alexis home where we saw accident on the other side of the road (it was on those small roads). at first we thought it was argument between the drivers as we saw a pick up truck and a car behind; but as we drew closer, we saw an old man crying beside a woman who laid motionless just behind the truck. two cars were parked just after the truck and a shirtless guy was directing traffic. then another car pulled up, a teenage gal got out & ran towards the body crying, MA!! (mother, in dialect). just about then, the ambulance arrived and the paramedics took out the stretcher. it was the same time also that we have to take a turn into the blocks.

all this happen within 5 mins while we were walking pass the accident towards alexis' place and we were all shaken by it but it affected us differently. for me, the thought for losing her mom at a young age is almost unbearable...the cry is still ringing in my ears. guess we should never take anyone for granted cause life is so fragile.

please keep the family in your prayers and give ur mom a big hug.

angina pectoris

woke up today with chest pains, went to work nonetheless but couldn't take it. so i went to see the doc who couldn't tell the cause of it; he gave me some painkillers and told me if it gets worse to go to A&E. well, he did a ECG on me and the heart beats are regular, so no cause for alarm yet. took a day's MC and rested @ home. thought by getting some sleep, the pain would go away but it didn't. sigh! can't take any deep breaths, cough, laugh, sneeze, burp or have any hiccups at the moment cause its gonna hurt.

it says in the website that angina pectoris (angina pectoris derives from latin and translates as 'tight chest') is often brought on by physical exercise, psychological stress, extreme cold or a heavy meal. all i had last night was noodles at marina centre with andy after the IT Fair. Hmmm, maybe it was it the IT Fair 2007; the psychological stress when stalls were reducing the prices at the eleventh hour. the physical exercise of pushing my way thru the crowds and the extreme cold of the air cons at the food court. yup, that could be the cause! :p

anyways, my NEC N411i died on me over the weekend.. so i lost all my contacts. so please do let me have ur contacts again.. the number is still the same. got myself a nokia 5300 xpress music on sunday and it just awesome... still getting use to the functions. ;p now i can upload my nieces and nephew pics. :)

my mom was talking earlier today about selling the house and moving to punggol. why punggol?? if it happens, i'm going to get my own place here in yishun!! there's no way that i'm going to travel from punggol to jurong for work everyday and i've just renewed my contract.

just took my medications and feeling the effects of it already. one of the tablets is the size of a 50 cent coin, no joke!! good thing is, i dun have to swallow it - juz dissolve into water and drink it. hmmm.... it taste like 100 plus!! lol. well, i gonna hit the bed soon as the head is spinning. hopefully, i'll be better tmr.

the pursuit of happyness

caught the movie, the pursuit of happyness over the weekend and it did bring back some memories for myself. i guess it was december 2005, when i was at the lowest point of my life. i remembered walking home in the rain one day thinking there was no future for me. i was without a job and completely broke. ever since i quit my job of 12 years in 2002, i couldn't hold on to a job for a least a year. the jobs that were offered to me were all contract jobs. i did roadshows, telemarketing & door to door sales and i realised something - i was not cut out for sales; but it did give me the opportunity to work with some big companies, which i've gained alot from (and it does looks good on the resume too :p).

it was during one of those roadshows in dec 2002, where i met my wld be financial advisor who an agent with a mutli-national insurance company. she was fresh out of university and i've just quit my stable job of 12 years to go into a commission based company. not sure why i trusted this 'newbie' but i did. how many agents have u met, told u that u have too many policys that u can handle and even considered dropping a few unnecessary ones so that you will be able to tie up your loose ends. well, this one did and she got me dumbfounded. so in jan 2003, i invested my cpf with her and its bearing its fruits now. i've included bric into my portfolio after reviewing my investment with her over lunch last month and no, she still has not asked me to get a policy from her.

its mar 07 now, i've lasted a year in my current job and i've just renewed it for another year. with an increased in salary and bonus in the bank, i was thinking how i was going to spend it. this is when chris gardener brought me to reality. i don't wanna be crying in the rain again with only a dollar to my name. i've come this far and i'm not going to throw it all away again.

the village

just got back from fisherman's village after having dinner and drinks there with the gal. its such a nice way to end the weekend. going to be back there again next weekend for a birthday celebration!! it's going to be a weekend to remember..

Hell is a place called home

Little Ericka is 11 years old
She's steady tryna figure out why the world is so cold
So she pops X to get rid of all the pain
Plus she's having sex with a boy who's sixteen
Emotions run deep and she thinks she's in love
So there's no protection he's using no glove
Never thinkin' bout the conceqences of her actions
Livin' for today and not tomorrow's satisfaction
The days go by and her belly gets big
The father bails out he ain't ready for a kid
Knowin' her mama would blow it all out of proportion
cause she lives poor so no money for abortion
Ericka's stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that Hell is a place called home
Nothin' else to do but get her clothes and pack
She says she's bout to run away and never come back

untitled!

found a few things during our friday youth session like how long it took to write the bible, who was the one that decided which books shld be compiled in the bible and during which period was the bible written, also the history of the church which was quite interesting. it was things that i never knew before and never thought much about untill now. well, if u wanna find out more, come and see!!

after the friday session, hang out with del & jamie till 3am - okie i was trying to keep myself awake till i gave in and shut my eyes and that was time we decided to leave. :p but it was fun hanging out wif u gals... next week we'll do it again. :)

it's a saturday, the big match later and move after that!! it's going to be a long night again.. hee!! have a great weekend.

last man standing

1 year ago today, i made two friends, chee xiang and mazlina. we were the newbies in the company, not knowing what we were getting into or will we survive one year in this company. 1 year on, i must say that it has been a hell of a ride. only wished that chee xiang has stayed on to enjoy the ride. well, i am looking forward (i think so i am) to another year of craziness and fun :p

to all my colleagues (past and present) - u guys are the best!! keep the laughters coming.

to mazlina - it has been great knowing and working with you. it's gonna be different without you around but life still has to go on, yah! all the best and hope u'll come back one day!! :) luv ya, sis!!

the end of a new beginning

i am a guy whose is nearing 40's and still single.

i am a guy who stammers.

i am your friend when no one else is free to keep you company

i am someone without confidence.

i am someone without a future or drive.

i am someone you see as a friend and nothing more.

i am someone who once believed, who once cared.

but not anymore

All Good Things Come To An End

Mazlina

My Colleague

My Buddy

My Sister

It's been fun working with you. All the best in your future endeavours.

I got this icebox where my heart used to be

Why cant I get it right, just cant let it go
I opened up, she let me down, I wont feel that no more
I got memories, this is crazy
She ain't nothing like the girl I used to know
I don't mean to take it out on you baby but I cant help it
Cause my heart is in the same ol' condition that baby left it
And I, I apologize, for makin' you cry
Look me in my eye and promise you won't do me the same

weekend

it's saturday, the eve of chinese new year but i'm working today, sigh!! got the long weekend to look forward though, gonna catch up on my sleep. nothing planned so far except going for mass later today and visiting a close friend in hospital on monday. she punctured her lungs during badminton, not sure how it happened but i received an sms from her @ 4am that she is still alive and everything is well. to vanessa, do get better and take care of yourself!! :)

well, three hours more to go and i'm outta here to enjoy the long weekend. to all my chinese friends, readers, secret admirers and fans, a very happy and prosperous new year to you!! ~gong xi fa cai~

it's al about me!!

thanks for all the calls and birthday wishes :)

had dinner with my colleagues on my birthday as i didn't have any plans. dinner was at pizza hut @ je. they even bought me a gift, a goldlion wallet and key pouch...sweet!! after dinner we went back home. a simple yet memorable birthday for me.....thanks guys!!!

alas, the weekend is here and chinese new year.... a long deserved weekend!! have a prosperous new year.

mr valentino!!

38 years ago on this very day, yours truly was born!~

saturday

its a stay home saturday!! wwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......... not feeling too well thats why.... got 4 vcds to keep me entertained. enjoy your weekend!!

TgiF

wanted to change my blogskin but decided not to. guess i'll juz add some colors to it and bring some life to it!!


TGIF - but still got training after work, sigh...really looking forward to sleeping in on sat!! the youth rally is on sat @ cjc, if u can make it please do come and support the youths!! anybody got any plans after that?? :p hmmm... maybe i'll juz join fiz for steamboat at marina after the rally, see how.


a going to renew my contract, so i guess i'll be here for another year.. hope to see new faces come in, add some colors and life into the office -but for now, i'll juz retire for the day!! oh yes, i met someone on friendster. :)

a weekend to remember!!

ytd was crazy.. never been too so many places in a single day. first stop was of course - work!! maintened a service level of 100!! gonna repeat the feat tmr which will be a big challenge coz its a monday!! a thought juz occured to me, since everybody hates monday can we just do our own things - forget abt calling, sending or replying an email or hold any meetings coz nothing goes through!! we wanna recover from the weekend.. ;p


anyways, i went to seoul garden @ taka for lunch with my colleagues not expecting anything, all i knew it was a belated birthday for my colleague. this people also celebrated my birthday along with other jan/feb babies. they even got us a balloon.. that explains why i was carrying 'patrick' (from sponge bob) all around ytd. so after eating ur fill, they brought out the cake and i wondered how i manged three slices of it. nonetheless, it was vey sweet of us guys.. thanks very much! :)


after lunch, the gals did abit of shopping at taka n centrepoint before walking down to the esplanade. its was a long walk indeed that they had to stop to get a drink at 7-11. :p upon reaching the esplanade, we went our separate ways.. went to find the gang but bump into chole n tim instead. then i saw tony & angie with the kids - was surprised to see them there actually. finally found mel and the rest. spoke to camra for awhile, its been a long time since i last met them. the gig was great - really liked their version of 'enjoy the silence', it was loud!! haha.. applause guys!!


after the second set, we sat down at harry's for a while before joanne had to leave for sentosa, cafe del mar. so mel drove us all the way to sentosa and just for the records, its been a freaking long time since i step into sentosa and i was practically excited..haha. oh yes, i hve not been to vivo city..i've only passed by it like three times only. so yea.. this is what happens when i work at the other side of the island. hahaha...


anyways, after dropping joanne off at sentosa.. mel dropped mary anne and myself at river valley and off to gotham penthouse we went. she was certainly in for a treat as four hunks clad n briefs only started dancing on the stage and all the gals were juz screaming. after showtime, we went to another location, as the gal wanted rnb music, so we entered attica,paid $28 for each and left without getting ourselves a drink. that plac is cetainly a ripoff. the freaking area was so small and cram and certainly not worth the $28 bucks. so yes, i blew $56 just like that. we went back to gotham and remain there till 5am. for $15 each, gotham was certainly worth it.. met two friends there infact and i must say i shld come down to gotham more often, lots of pretty gals not just that, pretty indian gals too!! hahaa... took the cab home and for once, a gal sent me back home.. :) its was indeed a weekend to remember!! cheers!!

church bells will be ringing

yes, the boy has proposed to the girl and it was just too sweet that it almost brought me to tears!! to dwayne and christine, congratulations!! God Bless the both of you!!

TGIF

finally the weekend is here, guess we all need the break!! it's been a tiring week and we got another five days more to go. let's ride this tide together... jia you!!

'The Story of 8 Monkeys'

(This is based on an actual experiment conducted in the UK) :

Put eight monkeys in a room. In the middle of the room is a ladder, leading to a bunch of bananas hanging from a hook on the ceiling.

Each time a monkey tries to climb the ladder, all the monkeys are sprayed with ice water, which makes them miserable. Soon enough, whenever a monkey attempts to climb the ladder, all of the other monkeys, not wanting to be sprayed, set upon him and beat him up.

Soon, none of the eight monkeys ever attempts to climb the ladder.

Then one of the original monkeys is then removed, and a new monkey is put in the room. Seeing the bananas and the ladder, he wonders why none of the other monkeys are doing the obvious. But undaunted, he immediately begins to climb the ladder.

All the other monkeys fall upon him and beat him silly. He has no idea why. however, he no longer attempts to climb the ladder.

A second original monkey is removed and replaced. The newcomer again attempts to climb the ladder, but all the other monkeys hammer the crap out of him.

This includes the previous new monkey, who, grateful that he's not on the receiving end this time, participates in the beating because all the other monkeys are doing it. However, he has no idea why he's attacking the new monkey.

One by one, all the original monkeys are replaced. Eight new monkeys are now in the room. None of them have ever been sprayed by ice water.

None of them attempt to climb the ladder. All of them will enthusiastically beat up any new monkey who tries, without having any idea why.

*..................and that is how most companies' policies get established.*

Sometimes, it feels like this at the workplace. Employees just do certain procedures because others are doing the same....without knowing why they do them and whether what they have been doing all along can be improved or changed. They say its the policy. At times, it feels it's just the standard practices that have been passed down from employee to employee.
Nothing else.

hearts on fire: now is the time!

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a nighout

been staying back after work like the whole week and we hardly gor any life.. so on friday after ending at eight, my colleagues suggested dinner in town. after much hesitation, i joined them. but instead of dinner, we ended up @ the loof! - a rooftop bar at odeon towers, a cool chill out place. the kinda of place where u will find a nice blend of people. after the loof, we went to paulaner bräuhaus at millenia walk, it offers freshly-brewed german beer on the premises. guess we got to know each other better at millenia walk n i was a bit high. oh yes, the live band rocks! next stop -st james power station. anyone interested? ;p

went for the youth rally ytd at risen christ, it did touched me somehow and i hope the next rally session will be just as good.

Only the lonely

We walked the loneliest mile

We smiled without any style

We kiss altogether wrong

No intention

We lied about each others drinks

We lived without each other thinkin'

What anyone would do

Without me and you

Chorus:

It's like I told you

Only the lonely can play

So hold on here we go

Hold on to nothin' we know

I feel so lonely way up here

We mention the time we were together

So long ago, well I don't remember

All I know is that it makes me feel good now

life is art without an eraser

somethin a friend said today brought me back to reality and it really did hurt as i was moving away from something i believe in. guess, i really have some soul searching to do.. need to find myself again.

the weekend!!

caught the match against the blues and its always sweet when we beat the blues. i guess when money gets in the way, it ain't football anymore. can see the jose was sending a message to the boardroom and thats a whole diff ball game. oh well, who's complaning!! Bring on Barca!!

tired

had a not too bad sat although i had work today and work is actually fun when u minus out the callers, scoldings, complains and what not.. what counts is the colleagues i have and they are the wackiest colleagues i ever had.

use the call force!!

its gonna be a busy week with work and more work.. might be going to MOS with my colleagues on feb 2nd - now that's something to look forward to.. yes, i do have some cool colleagues to chill out with....well, its the mid week..hope the rest of the days will be great and the weekend will be eventful, i hope.

thanks jamie i will bear that in mind .. *hugs*

Reality Has Its Own Middle Finger

sunday afternoon - no one is online now - freaking bored!!

update
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well, its the second week of 2007 and i'll prob take the week to decide if i wanna stay in choir or leave for good, two decades is way too long to be in one place. besides, i'm involved with project j now and i guess i would be more happier there now. maybe, with the youth rally and retreat coming up, i'll be able to make a decision. till then, i hope to have a great week ahead. the weekend has been super boring... sometimes, i have a feeling of being used but i'll save that for another day. sleep beckons - good night!!

sugar sweetness

my dearest friend, vanessa or nessa!!

someday i'll be satuday night

home on a saturday night and it sucks!! guess things are not going good lately. gotta have a life and places to go. turning 38 next month and i'm feeling depressed... i may be young at heart but age is catching on.. i'll be 40 in 2009 and god knows, where i'll be... prob dead and buried!!

just wanna get away from everything and from superficial friends.. i'm not the life of the party and i'm not the joker - i'm juz me, if u don't like having me around - juz let me know, i won't be around to bore you, in fact, i'll juz stay away from you. dun tell me, u understand what i'm going through, coz u don't and never will until u are 38, single and without a freaking life!!

juz wanna get away from everything and everyone and i know i will be missed - only for a moment.

"the ones who are furthest are the one closest to you..."

liverpool lost to arsenal yet again... guess it just sums up my day.

twenty o'7

here's the first post for 2007.

well, i had a quiet new year celebration at Mel's place with a couple of friends. we toasted to the new year and played cards = loser drink. we had loads of drinks; enough to last the rest of the epl season. ;p

never been out much except playing pool .. its been a boring weekend and i hope its not gonna be a sign of the things to come. i know I'm turning 38 next mth but i juz don't wanna slow down .. not juz yet.

new year resolutions
* to be early for work
* be less temperamental
* goal driven
* save
* find a gf

the end of an era

well, the world has seen the last of saddam hussein who was executed yesterday; guess junior bush did something that his dad didn't accomplished, Beat Up Saddam Hussein!! now that that has been done, bring the troops back from iraq, georgie - enough damaged has been done!!! let their families have a reason to celebrate the new year!! Do the right thing, Be A MAN!!

the week so far

this is what happened during the week:

• sunday - christmas eve mass was good but we ended up at our fav prata shop after that, then proceeded to macs - send corrinne and julia home - back to coffeshop again - came back home @ 6am.
• monday - lunch @ crystal's place - dinner @ bro's place - back to crystal place for drinks and games - back home @ 3am.
• tuesday - overslept - reached work @ 10am - dinner @ jen's place - came back @ 1am.
• wednesday - work - briefing after work - dinner with colleague's - came back home - ended up @ fred's place courtesy of joanne n pat - came back home @ 2am.
• thursday - work - supposed to have a small company new year's celebration but the caterer screw up with the orders so dinner was cancelled - proceeded to JE for dinner with some of my colleagues - back home @ 1030pm.
• tmr - work - clubbing!!! lol

next stop - new year!!

wish

wish x'mas will just pass and 2007 will be a better year...
wish i was somewhere else; wish i was someone else

The Fart Button

Limited Gold Edition... LOL

caroling @ orchid country club - dec 17th

after a break of almost 5 years, i 'm back carolling and man, it was fun, though it was only @ one place. after caroling, we had dinner and drinks... yea, the table behind was ours. the funny part was we took pics before we started singing. after dinner, we headed to the pool room as it was raining heavily outside. we booked two tables and almost brought the place down. had more drinks courtesy of zab's dad (cool dude) and i was just not having a good game until i was sober - pat was like, 'why u so quiet?'.. hahaha. we left OCC and headed to our fav prata haunt for some coffee and more food. all in all, i had a great time and i'm glad that i came. next stop: christmas!!

there's something out there..

heard faint screams coming from afar, not sure if its of a woman then there was silence except for the rumbles of the clouds. then i heard another faint scream from a far, this time i'm not sure if it's of a man... now there's silence except the rumble of the clouds and lightnings. the night is too quiet and its giving me the creeps.

it brings to mind of an event which happened abt 30 years ago @ my old place in toa payoh. in the silence of the night, a dreadful scream pierce through the night and it was cut short, silence followed. my elder sis, bros & myself jumped out of bed and stared at the block where the screams came from; hoping to see some signs or hear a plea for help... there was nothing but dead silence. i never found out the faith of the woman but my bro's friend told him that it happened on the sixth floor center staircase; there was blood on the floor but the body was nowhere in sight. however, i didn't buy that story as it was from someone else but however i know this is for real... the staircase light on that paricular staircase never worked.

guess that spooked me more than the things that happened in my hse past and ...... present. it's two hours to dawn and i should get some sleep.

Why Teachers Weep

Then Jesus took his disciples up on the mountain and taught them, saying:

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, Blessed are the meek, Blessed are the merciful, Blessed are you who thirst for justice, Blessed are you who are persecuted, Blessed are the peacemakers . . ."

And Simon Peter said, "Do we have to write this stuff down?"

And Phillip said, "Will this be on the test?"

And John said, "I'm sorry. Would you mind repeating that?"

And Andrew said, "John the Baptist's disciples don't have to learn this stuff!"

And Matthew said, "Huh?"

And Judas said, "What does this have to do with real life?"

Then, one of the Pharisees, an expert in the law, said, "I don't see any of this in your syllabus. Do you have a lesson plan? Is there a summary? Where is the student guide? Will there be any follow-up assignments? How will this affect the bell curve?"

And Thomas, who had missed the sermon, came to Jesus privately and said, "Did we do anything important yesterday?"

And Jesus wept.

Quotables

BRITTANY (age 4) had an earache and wanted a painkiller. She tried in vain to take the lid off the bottle. Seeing her frustration, her Mom explained it was a childproof cap and she'd have to open it for her. Eyes wide with wonder, the little girl asked: "How does it know it's me?

JACK (age 3) was watching his Mom breast-feeding his new baby sister. After a while he asked: "Mom why have you got two? Is one for hot and one for cold milk?"

STEVEN (age 3) hugged and kissed his Mom goodnight. "I love you so much, that when you die I'm going to bury you outside my bedroom window."

Pope and the Lord's Prayer

After watching sales falling off for three straight months at Kentucky Fried Chicken, the Colonel calls up the Pope and asks for a favor.

The Pope says, "What can I do?

"The Colonel says, "I need you to change the Lord's prayer from, 'Give us this day our daily bread' to 'Give us this day our daily chicken'.

If you do it, I'll donate 10 Million Dollars to the Vatican." The Pope replies, "I am sorry. That is the Lord's prayer and I can not change the words." The Colonel hangs up.

After another month of dismal sales the Colonel panics and calls again. "Listen your Excellency. I really need your help. I'll donate $50 million dollars if you change the words of the daily prayer from 'Give us this day our daily bread' to 'Give us this day our daily chicken.'"

This time the Pope responds, "It is very tempting, Colonel Sanders. The church could do a lot of good with that much money. It would help us to support many charities. But again, I must decline. It is the Lord's prayer, and I can't change the words." The Colonel hangs up again.

After two more months of terrible sales the Colonel gets desperate and calls the Pope again. "This is my final offer your Excellency. If you change the words of the daily prayer from, 'Give us this day our daily bread' to 'Give us this day our daily chicken'

I will donate $100 million to the Vatican." The Pope replies, "Let me get back to you."

The next day, the Pope calls together all of his bishops and he says, "I have some good news and I have some bad news. The good news is that KFC is going to donate $100 million to the Vatican." The bishops rejoice at the news. Then one asks about the bad news.

The Pope replies, "The bad news is that we lost the Wonder Bread account."

tgif

alas the weekend is here... gonna do carolling @ orchid country club on sunday. wonder how its gonna be like as i've not been carolling for the past five years. so if anything goes wrong guys, just pretend that it wasn't me... ;p


project j was fun as usual... melanie thanks for the x'mas card, it's very sweet. i've not done anything as yet and it's only ten days left to christmas.

christmas

missing you

missing u

who ever u may be

where ever u may be

when ever it may be

how ever it may be

my other half....

Lost?

okie, the camp turned out well although there were some areas that cld be improved, like having more time for the leaders to relax and let the rest run the camp..hee.


i spend the first day of the camp practically outside the camp.. after setting up the sound system, father jj and me set out @ 1pm to get some items for the systems but ended up with a lot more things. we went to swee lee first, then to plaza singapura, sim lim square and lastly to paradize center to pick up adel and daphne. we came back at about 7 odd, did sound check and heave a sigh of relief when everything was working well. did a last minute checks on things and went for dinner with father, daphne and leslie @ a nearby kopitiam. after dinner, i was off again - tis time to pick up cristy from sembawang. came back at about ten and took a long deserved shower, the rest were still having their walk up the hill and i just chilled out with nico gab till it was lights out.


woke up at 5.45am, the guys were still asleep but some the girls at the next room were already awake as i told them to wake up at five. sorry, gals there was last minute changes - the guys were not informed but they still slept like a log and man, u should have seen their faces when they woke up - disorientated and blur... hahaha..


we walked up to mount faber where we had our morning reflections and breakfast. jamie told them that they are going to have an amazing race kinda game but it will be called stairway to heaven. they were told that there will be station masters at each checkpoints and they will also have to question ten strangers to find out what christmas meant to them. so off they went to orchard road, city hall and other areas in town to each stations finding their own ways and means to get there. while father, jamie, don & deb (both not feeling well), jessy and me headed back to camp.


back in camp, don took a power nap, jamie tried to but her phone rang every now and then, jessy was on the keyboards entertaining us while debs and i tried to solve the jigsaw puzzle which will have to be used later that night.. jessy later joined us and alas, we managed to solve it and debs numbered it correctly. (thanks debs & jessy for helping out!) we were still contemplating where to have lunch when jamie told us that lunch has to wait coz the first group just passed the last station. so we came down and waited for all the teams to arrive.. chels' team came in first coz they managed to squeeze five people in the car thus beating eugene's team. the next team to arrive was daffy's team and the last was leslie's team who took another route up to church while we waited for them at the front....hie!! anyways, chels' team won a $50 secret recipe voucher... *applause*.

wld like to blog more of the camp but u have to be there to experience it but i wld just like to add this:

- leslie, i know how stress u were when nobody listens to you and the pressure u got from us..but u managed it all well. you did well, kid and i guess u have matured during the camp. keep up the good work!!

- denise really impress some of us given that she's only eleven. once she came up to jamie and asked her if she could be a leader for the amazing race; and the other time she came up to a bunch of us and reminded us that we should be practising for the the skits and i think i was very brave of her considering the fact that she's the youngest in the camp.

- bell, thanks for helping out when we needed the extra hand and watching over denise.

- to everyone else... the fun has just begun... together we could make the youth group a driving force of our parish!!

so tis is christmas..

its been a tiring week and i just wanna take a break from everything.. from work, choir, friends and project j.. but with the camp just around the corner, i guess i have to hold on to that tot.


today, i wanted to do some x'mas shopping and also get somethings for the camp. but when i reached home, the skies open and it just dampen my spirits - so i wasn't very happy with the weather as it has been raining for the past few days.. mother nature has been having her way for the past few days. so here i was feeling sorry for myself n cursing my luck when i received a call from a friend who i knew was having problems back home but i didn't know what it was this time. as the conversation went by, i found out that this friend of mine was living w/o electricity as it was disconnected a few days ago. they are going thru a difficult period hence they have overlooked the payment which amounted to quite a bit and due to the current situation they are right now, they are paying it off slowly. which made me think that i take daily necessities for granted and feeling sorryfor myself for not being able to do my x'mas shopping.


i guess god made me realise that christmas is not about the gifts or clothes. its about reaching out to those who are less fortunate than us and let them feel the christmas spirit. a small gesture goes a long way and the true meaning of x'mas will be felt by everybody

I miss you

(I miss you miss you)

Hello there the angel from my nightmare

The shadow in backround of the morgue

The unsespecting victim of darkness in the valley

We can live like Jack and Sally if we want

Where you can always find me

And we'll have Halloween on Christmas

And in the night we'll wish this never ends

We'll wish this never end

come and see

the weekend

caught 'casino royale' on friday night with dq and it was worth the money; can't wait for the next one. sat was spent at east coast where i got to see the other side of my colleagues and we all had a pretty fun time playing games, eating and more games. we had 'water-bomb' games where instead of water, it was all kinds of liquid and god-knows-what. got bomb pretty badly - i wld prefer sea-water anytime, andy!! after everything, while waiting for our colleague's hubby to arrive to being back some of the times, there were two cans of carlsberg left - so we played seven-up... it was damn funny. to carrie, ricky, andy and kris - we will have our beer buffet soon again.

sunday, was spent in church helping to raise funds for our camp in dec and i guess we did pretty well today. can't wait for the camp, its dec 8 to 10; juz in case u wanna come; and yes, cristy - me won't leave u alone, me come fetch u!! hahaha... the camp's gonna be so fun, i just can't wait for it. anyways, had lunch with pat, debz, cristy & chels and we accompanied pat to the library after that but pat left first so we hung around for a while then made our way home.

with nothing much to do at home, i did some maintenance check on my comp by downloading ad ware and avast, my comp was unprotected for a while so i did expect to find some ad wares and spyware but didn't expect to find a trojan in my comp. have no idea where that came from. this avast software is kinda cool although i still a big fan of trend micro - norton is just not user-friendly and it does not protect ur comp fully. try trend micro pc-cillin 2007 against norton internet security 2007 and u'll see the diff.

anyways, it's another 10 days to pay day, 17 days to camp, 35 days to x'mas and 41 days new year - i should get back to my game now!! ;p

me

in the end its the circle of which i stand
with laughters all around

project j

the week passed by pretty fast as i had to train this guy for a day but he ended up being my understudy for the rest for the week. it was kinda fun actually and time really past by fast. hopefully he digested everything i've said otherwise i'll have to pack me bags.. haha.

went for project j(esus) ; we shared abt the end of the world or the second coming and how prepared are we. we had some deep answers from the young ones which makes u wonder, how prepared are we if god decides to call us tmr. well, from what i believe - we need not worry abt the sins we hve committed coz forgiveness was already given to us when HE died on the cross. we all journeying to our true home in heaven till then we will remain in purgatory right here on earth.

its the weekend again and i must say the week past by pretty fast, before u know it, its monday again... so make the weekend count, i'm going to bbq!!

to mel : see u dude on dec 9, have fun down under.

a life without limbs

Most of us live our lives complaining about all the things we haven’t got, the circumstances we were born into and lives we wished we had. I’ve been guilty of the above too. But reading about Nick’s story touched me. Here’s a man who’s got possibly a little bit more than most of us do. Nick’s a work of God, a gift of love. He’s truly an inspiration for me and for everyone else who doesn’t realize what this life’s about yet. You can read about Nick here.

a letter

A father passing by his teenage daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bed was nicely made and everything was neat and tidy. Then he saw an envelope propped up prominently on the center of the pillow. It was addressed - "Dad". With the worst premonition, he opened the envelope and read the letter with trembling hands:-

Dear Dad,

It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you, but I'm leaving home. I had to elope with my new boyfriend Randy because I wanted to avoid a scene with Mom and you. I've been finding real passion with Randy and he is so nice to me. I know when you meet him you'll like him too - even with all his piercing, tattoos, and motorcycle clothes.

But it's not only the passion Dad, I'm pregnant and Randy said that he wants me to have the kid and that we can be very happy together. Even though Randy is much older than me (anyway, 42 isn't so old these days isit?), and has no money, really these things shouldn't stand in the way ofour relationship, don't you agree?

Randy has a great CD collection; he already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. It's true he has other girlfriends as well but I know he'll be faithful to me in his own way. He wants to have many more children with me and that's now one of my dreams too.
Randy taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone and he'll be growing it for us and we'll trade it with our friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we'll pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so Randy can get better; he sure deserves it!!

Don't worry Dad, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself. Someday I'm sure we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grandchildren.

Your loving daughter, Rosie.

At the bottom of the page were the letters "PTO". Hands still trembling, her father turned the sheet, and read:

PS: Dad, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbor's house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that's in my desk centre drawer. Please sign it and call when it is safe for me to come home. I love you!

christmas is coming

if u hve not noticed it, let me bring it to attention.... we're just 50 days from 2007 and 44 days from christmas 2006. so have u been a good girl/boy? :p

smiles again

thanks for all your concern...... i'm back and all smiles again!!! :)

nightmare

i'm slowly fading back into depression and not sure why... its like the nightmare i had a few months back... there were thousand voices talking to me at the same time and single voice asking me to wake up... and the unexplained emptiness i felt inside me, after i woke up..., even though they were ppl ard.

i've made some wonderful new friends like cristy, chels, debra, bella, adel and reacquainted with some old ones like leslie, dom, jamie, sebastian, eugene and daphne. its great working with u guys n guess the bond is gettng stronger every day.

cisty - thanks for cracking me up every time!! u r going to the moon again... :p

chels - u r extremely sweet, really do appreciate ur kinds gestures. *hugs*

leslie - i've known u since u were a kid and u r definitely no loser!! u hve wonderful friend and a beautiful angel, cristy! so lets try turning those negative energy to positive energy.

dom - knew u the same time as leslie and i'm glad u guys turn out okie but u guys growing so tall aint part of the plan. :p i'm glad that u hve not given up on church after going thru a difficult period with the choir.

jamie - its great working with ya again after a loooooooong while... r.e.s.p.e.c.t to u!!

adel - u like jamie, are my inspirations.

eugene and daphne - u guys are beautiful, its my pleasure knowing u guys.

sebes - if only i knew how to play the guitar, i wld jam with ya!! :p

debra & bella - its my pleasure knowing u gals. (now go and drop me a testi :p)

to everyone else out there - its november, hve u bought ur christmas cards??

u-turn

it has not been a good week so far, maybe it's the mid-life crisis that i'm going thru. yes, i may look young n all, but i'm still three years shy of the big 40. so i guess i should shift the gear and take it easy..


last friday after the our regular session, something that jamie said stuck me... 'once u have found that intimacy with God, you'll never want to say that i don't need God anymore!' my first reaction was, 'hell no, i rather be intimate with an opp sex!' but then i thought to myself, what wld it be like to be on a level that u can't explain or to experience God like never before in your life. to tell u the truth, i find it a hard to raise my hands and do the lord of the dance.. but after talking to jame and adel, i found myself raising my hands up to him while listening to 'hands & feet - newsboys'. yes, let me be yr hands, let me be yr feet and go where u want me, go where u want me!!


not sure where he wants me go though!! to remain here and help out the church or to join the missionaries. i had two answers from two diff people who prac said the same thing, maybe my calling is not to join the missionary but to help out in the church, which is not easy thing to do. but then again, nothing is never easy. even He felt three times to save us, how much more must we fall to redeem ourselves. well, i guess it's abt time we stop being closet catholics and start to hunger for Him again!! Thru Him, everything is possible!!

The Bottom Line

aquarius


Instead of wasting time trying to encourage someone to grow up, go on without them.

Maturity is a possession, and unfortunately, someone you have to deal with today doesn't have it. . Instead of wasting your time encouraging them to grow up, leave them behind (if you can). Your leadership skills will come in hand if you must step in as the adult. Do not feel like you have to sugar coat your words.

you'll never walk alone

went to the docs this morning, had an x-ray done as he can't find anything wrong with my chest. everything is per normal.. so he gave something for the throat and the cough; to come back on monday to collect the x-ray result. i guess i'll know whats wrong with me only on monday, in the meantime, i'm gonna rest and relax at home - 2 days MC. guess we al need a break, once in a while.


thanks bro, ain't going anywhere till we visit anfield, yah!! YNWA!!

alive and coughing!!

the cough has just gotten from bad to worse... and my monitor is pretty screwed up. just when i though i had recovered ytd, but today - i am coughing and sneezing... sigh!! seems like my heart skips a beat everytime i cough, trying hard to catch me breath and thank god for a second chance. never have i been sick for this long or have been taking my medicines faithfully.. yes, i almost finishing it. well, if it happens, it happens... just hope i get a rocking send off..yeah!!

ministry of sound

before i blog, i wanna say thank you to those who have showed their concerns..really appreciate it. we don't need a lot of friends, just a few close ones will do coz u know that they'll be there with u forever.


got myself out of worried stage and went down to ministry of sound on saturday. seventeen ppl are going, mel told me , when was the last time this number. so i got off my sorry arse and went down to mos. found that the person that mel was liaising with was my ex-colleague. *it was good seeing you again, su* after getting all the details and numbers down, we were shown to our table, a real chill out area - sofas and pillows. as we settling down, the drinks just kept coming and it was a scary sight. what we had at the beginning was something one wld have half way thru the night where the table are full of drinks. we had two bottles of whiskey, one bottle of tequila, four jugs of mixers, and trays of shots. as usual we made new friends that night and met up with some old ones. after a while, i took a shut eye on the sofa.. and just snooze. as always, the night will always end with food - big breakfast @ macs before heading home sweet home not knowing when will be the next time we'll meet again. clubbing ytd was diff, i'm not sure why but i guess it'll be quite a while again till we step into one again.

big loser

question my faith today, i've spent two decades in the choir but nothing good was come out of it for me at least. i'm still single, no career and no future at all .. in short, i am just a big loser who have been blinded all this while.

signs of times

been coughing for more than a week now and it doesn't show signs of improvement. even the docs are puzzled with the symptoms as i did not have a fever or a cold prior to my cough... and i got it before the haze. what the docs did say that it's usually common among people with asthmatic history but i do not have an history or is it not to late to have one. I think what i have is asthmatic bronchitis (although i may be wrong), i do have difficulty breathing after coughing - i swallow my saliva just to clear my windpipe, just to be able to breathe again. for a few secs i am inbtwn life & death and its kinda scary;nope, i have not seen my life flashed before me.... at least not yet!! well, i hope it gets better soon.


oh yes, if u guys remember i wrote abt my little niece having a hole in her heart; well, it's not one but two holes in the heart. however, one hole has closed up and the other is slowly reducing in size. now, that's good news for everybody - miracles do happen!! :)

Foolish Heart

FOOLISH HEART
Steve Perry


I need a love that grows
I don't want it unless I've known
That each passing night
She'll want somehow
We'll be there read to share


I need a love that's strong
I'm so tired of being alone
But will my lonely heart
Play the part of the fool again
Before I begin


Foolish heart
Hear me calling
Stop before you stop falling
Foolish heart
Heed my longing
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore


Feeling that feeling again
I'm playing a game I can't win
There's knockin' at the door
My heart wants more
Think I'll let her in before I begin


Foolish heart
Hear me calling
Stop before you stop falling
Foolish heartHeed my longing
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore


Foolish heart
Foolish foolish heart
You've been wrong before


Foolish heart
Hear me calling
Stop before you stop falling
Foolish heart
Heed my longing
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore


Foolish heart
Oh, foolish heart
You've been wrong before
Foolish foolish heart

last rites

the calls have stopped, the sms have stoppped
back being all by myself again
good things never last or at least i tot it was
coughing like someone on a death bed
is it my time already?
is this how its suppose to end
i am not sure... but

i can feel that it will be soon......

Melvin's Birthday @ East Coast -30 Sept 2006

Melvin's Birthday @ East Coast -30 Sept 2006

the last plan

the plan was to celebrate melvin's b'day at east coast, what happened after that was all impromptu and everybody had a great time... i think!! well, i know the birthday boy did and thats all that matters.

Happy Birthday, bro!!