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the weekend

caught 'casino royale' on friday night with dq and it was worth the money; can't wait for the next one. sat was spent at east coast where i got to see the other side of my colleagues and we all had a pretty fun time playing games, eating and more games. we had 'water-bomb' games where instead of water, it was all kinds of liquid and god-knows-what. got bomb pretty badly - i wld prefer sea-water anytime, andy!! after everything, while waiting for our colleague's hubby to arrive to being back some of the times, there were two cans of carlsberg left - so we played seven-up... it was damn funny. to carrie, ricky, andy and kris - we will have our beer buffet soon again.

sunday, was spent in church helping to raise funds for our camp in dec and i guess we did pretty well today. can't wait for the camp, its dec 8 to 10; juz in case u wanna come; and yes, cristy - me won't leave u alone, me come fetch u!! hahaha... the camp's gonna be so fun, i just can't wait for it. anyways, had lunch with pat, debz, cristy & chels and we accompanied pat to the library after that but pat left first so we hung around for a while then made our way home.

with nothing much to do at home, i did some maintenance check on my comp by downloading ad ware and avast, my comp was unprotected for a while so i did expect to find some ad wares and spyware but didn't expect to find a trojan in my comp. have no idea where that came from. this avast software is kinda cool although i still a big fan of trend micro - norton is just not user-friendly and it does not protect ur comp fully. try trend micro pc-cillin 2007 against norton internet security 2007 and u'll see the diff.

anyways, it's another 10 days to pay day, 17 days to camp, 35 days to x'mas and 41 days new year - i should get back to my game now!! ;p

me

in the end its the circle of which i stand
with laughters all around

project j

the week passed by pretty fast as i had to train this guy for a day but he ended up being my understudy for the rest for the week. it was kinda fun actually and time really past by fast. hopefully he digested everything i've said otherwise i'll have to pack me bags.. haha.

went for project j(esus) ; we shared abt the end of the world or the second coming and how prepared are we. we had some deep answers from the young ones which makes u wonder, how prepared are we if god decides to call us tmr. well, from what i believe - we need not worry abt the sins we hve committed coz forgiveness was already given to us when HE died on the cross. we all journeying to our true home in heaven till then we will remain in purgatory right here on earth.

its the weekend again and i must say the week past by pretty fast, before u know it, its monday again... so make the weekend count, i'm going to bbq!!

to mel : see u dude on dec 9, have fun down under.

a life without limbs

Most of us live our lives complaining about all the things we haven’t got, the circumstances we were born into and lives we wished we had. I’ve been guilty of the above too. But reading about Nick’s story touched me. Here’s a man who’s got possibly a little bit more than most of us do. Nick’s a work of God, a gift of love. He’s truly an inspiration for me and for everyone else who doesn’t realize what this life’s about yet. You can read about Nick here.

a letter

A father passing by his teenage daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bed was nicely made and everything was neat and tidy. Then he saw an envelope propped up prominently on the center of the pillow. It was addressed - "Dad". With the worst premonition, he opened the envelope and read the letter with trembling hands:-

Dear Dad,

It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you, but I'm leaving home. I had to elope with my new boyfriend Randy because I wanted to avoid a scene with Mom and you. I've been finding real passion with Randy and he is so nice to me. I know when you meet him you'll like him too - even with all his piercing, tattoos, and motorcycle clothes.

But it's not only the passion Dad, I'm pregnant and Randy said that he wants me to have the kid and that we can be very happy together. Even though Randy is much older than me (anyway, 42 isn't so old these days isit?), and has no money, really these things shouldn't stand in the way ofour relationship, don't you agree?

Randy has a great CD collection; he already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. It's true he has other girlfriends as well but I know he'll be faithful to me in his own way. He wants to have many more children with me and that's now one of my dreams too.
Randy taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone and he'll be growing it for us and we'll trade it with our friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we'll pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so Randy can get better; he sure deserves it!!

Don't worry Dad, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself. Someday I'm sure we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grandchildren.

Your loving daughter, Rosie.

At the bottom of the page were the letters "PTO". Hands still trembling, her father turned the sheet, and read:

PS: Dad, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbor's house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that's in my desk centre drawer. Please sign it and call when it is safe for me to come home. I love you!

christmas is coming

if u hve not noticed it, let me bring it to attention.... we're just 50 days from 2007 and 44 days from christmas 2006. so have u been a good girl/boy? :p

smiles again

thanks for all your concern...... i'm back and all smiles again!!! :)

nightmare

i'm slowly fading back into depression and not sure why... its like the nightmare i had a few months back... there were thousand voices talking to me at the same time and single voice asking me to wake up... and the unexplained emptiness i felt inside me, after i woke up..., even though they were ppl ard.

i've made some wonderful new friends like cristy, chels, debra, bella, adel and reacquainted with some old ones like leslie, dom, jamie, sebastian, eugene and daphne. its great working with u guys n guess the bond is gettng stronger every day.

cisty - thanks for cracking me up every time!! u r going to the moon again... :p

chels - u r extremely sweet, really do appreciate ur kinds gestures. *hugs*

leslie - i've known u since u were a kid and u r definitely no loser!! u hve wonderful friend and a beautiful angel, cristy! so lets try turning those negative energy to positive energy.

dom - knew u the same time as leslie and i'm glad u guys turn out okie but u guys growing so tall aint part of the plan. :p i'm glad that u hve not given up on church after going thru a difficult period with the choir.

jamie - its great working with ya again after a loooooooong while... r.e.s.p.e.c.t to u!!

adel - u like jamie, are my inspirations.

eugene and daphne - u guys are beautiful, its my pleasure knowing u guys.

sebes - if only i knew how to play the guitar, i wld jam with ya!! :p

debra & bella - its my pleasure knowing u gals. (now go and drop me a testi :p)

to everyone else out there - its november, hve u bought ur christmas cards??

u-turn

it has not been a good week so far, maybe it's the mid-life crisis that i'm going thru. yes, i may look young n all, but i'm still three years shy of the big 40. so i guess i should shift the gear and take it easy..


last friday after the our regular session, something that jamie said stuck me... 'once u have found that intimacy with God, you'll never want to say that i don't need God anymore!' my first reaction was, 'hell no, i rather be intimate with an opp sex!' but then i thought to myself, what wld it be like to be on a level that u can't explain or to experience God like never before in your life. to tell u the truth, i find it a hard to raise my hands and do the lord of the dance.. but after talking to jame and adel, i found myself raising my hands up to him while listening to 'hands & feet - newsboys'. yes, let me be yr hands, let me be yr feet and go where u want me, go where u want me!!


not sure where he wants me go though!! to remain here and help out the church or to join the missionaries. i had two answers from two diff people who prac said the same thing, maybe my calling is not to join the missionary but to help out in the church, which is not easy thing to do. but then again, nothing is never easy. even He felt three times to save us, how much more must we fall to redeem ourselves. well, i guess it's abt time we stop being closet catholics and start to hunger for Him again!! Thru Him, everything is possible!!

The Bottom Line

aquarius


Instead of wasting time trying to encourage someone to grow up, go on without them.

Maturity is a possession, and unfortunately, someone you have to deal with today doesn't have it. . Instead of wasting your time encouraging them to grow up, leave them behind (if you can). Your leadership skills will come in hand if you must step in as the adult. Do not feel like you have to sugar coat your words.

you'll never walk alone

went to the docs this morning, had an x-ray done as he can't find anything wrong with my chest. everything is per normal.. so he gave something for the throat and the cough; to come back on monday to collect the x-ray result. i guess i'll know whats wrong with me only on monday, in the meantime, i'm gonna rest and relax at home - 2 days MC. guess we al need a break, once in a while.


thanks bro, ain't going anywhere till we visit anfield, yah!! YNWA!!

alive and coughing!!

the cough has just gotten from bad to worse... and my monitor is pretty screwed up. just when i though i had recovered ytd, but today - i am coughing and sneezing... sigh!! seems like my heart skips a beat everytime i cough, trying hard to catch me breath and thank god for a second chance. never have i been sick for this long or have been taking my medicines faithfully.. yes, i almost finishing it. well, if it happens, it happens... just hope i get a rocking send off..yeah!!

ministry of sound

before i blog, i wanna say thank you to those who have showed their concerns..really appreciate it. we don't need a lot of friends, just a few close ones will do coz u know that they'll be there with u forever.


got myself out of worried stage and went down to ministry of sound on saturday. seventeen ppl are going, mel told me , when was the last time this number. so i got off my sorry arse and went down to mos. found that the person that mel was liaising with was my ex-colleague. *it was good seeing you again, su* after getting all the details and numbers down, we were shown to our table, a real chill out area - sofas and pillows. as we settling down, the drinks just kept coming and it was a scary sight. what we had at the beginning was something one wld have half way thru the night where the table are full of drinks. we had two bottles of whiskey, one bottle of tequila, four jugs of mixers, and trays of shots. as usual we made new friends that night and met up with some old ones. after a while, i took a shut eye on the sofa.. and just snooze. as always, the night will always end with food - big breakfast @ macs before heading home sweet home not knowing when will be the next time we'll meet again. clubbing ytd was diff, i'm not sure why but i guess it'll be quite a while again till we step into one again.

big loser

question my faith today, i've spent two decades in the choir but nothing good was come out of it for me at least. i'm still single, no career and no future at all .. in short, i am just a big loser who have been blinded all this while.

signs of times

been coughing for more than a week now and it doesn't show signs of improvement. even the docs are puzzled with the symptoms as i did not have a fever or a cold prior to my cough... and i got it before the haze. what the docs did say that it's usually common among people with asthmatic history but i do not have an history or is it not to late to have one. I think what i have is asthmatic bronchitis (although i may be wrong), i do have difficulty breathing after coughing - i swallow my saliva just to clear my windpipe, just to be able to breathe again. for a few secs i am inbtwn life & death and its kinda scary;nope, i have not seen my life flashed before me.... at least not yet!! well, i hope it gets better soon.


oh yes, if u guys remember i wrote abt my little niece having a hole in her heart; well, it's not one but two holes in the heart. however, one hole has closed up and the other is slowly reducing in size. now, that's good news for everybody - miracles do happen!! :)

Foolish Heart

FOOLISH HEART
Steve Perry


I need a love that grows
I don't want it unless I've known
That each passing night
She'll want somehow
We'll be there read to share


I need a love that's strong
I'm so tired of being alone
But will my lonely heart
Play the part of the fool again
Before I begin


Foolish heart
Hear me calling
Stop before you stop falling
Foolish heart
Heed my longing
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore


Feeling that feeling again
I'm playing a game I can't win
There's knockin' at the door
My heart wants more
Think I'll let her in before I begin


Foolish heart
Hear me calling
Stop before you stop falling
Foolish heartHeed my longing
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore


Foolish heart
Foolish foolish heart
You've been wrong before


Foolish heart
Hear me calling
Stop before you stop falling
Foolish heart
Heed my longing
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore


Foolish heart
Oh, foolish heart
You've been wrong before
Foolish foolish heart

last rites

the calls have stopped, the sms have stoppped
back being all by myself again
good things never last or at least i tot it was
coughing like someone on a death bed
is it my time already?
is this how its suppose to end
i am not sure... but

i can feel that it will be soon......

Melvin's Birthday @ East Coast -30 Sept 2006

Melvin's Birthday @ East Coast -30 Sept 2006

the last plan

the plan was to celebrate melvin's b'day at east coast, what happened after that was all impromptu and everybody had a great time... i think!! well, i know the birthday boy did and thats all that matters.

Happy Birthday, bro!!