how do you deal

"How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebdoy else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how to I live...how do I deal without you"

just how i feel right now but i guess as days go by, it gets better. well, thats how life is, you win some, u lose some. anyways, ladies and gentlemen, today after more than ten years, yours truly went jogging. it was something that i was thinking of eversince the start of the year but laziness is my best friend. so today, while laziness slept in, i went joggin in the morning @ 0700hrs. at first i decided to take the short route, around my area only as i have not jogged or done any excercise for a long time. but somehow i decided to jog the long route, thinking i still have in me. barely 800 meters, i was panting already... lol. so i came up to avenue 2 leading to sembawang road after the ind park, i saw a jogging track beside the canal. figuring it will end up near the police station and the park, i took it. it was more like half jog and walk most of it. hahaha.. did u know that there is a fire station in yishun, i just knew. anyways, i kept walking n tried jogging every few times. somehow the end was never near, i knew i was lost..there was nothing in sight.
just forest inbtwn me and a canal. ocassionaly there wld be some cyclist and some ppl walking in the oop direction of me.

looking at the cut off on the pathway, it read i've come 1000 metres, still 1800 metres to go. i knew its not gonna end anywhere near the stn or park, but i kept on walking. then upon a turn, it was a straight path, and the scenery was beautiful. msg a friend that after living in yishun for 20 yrs, i tot i knew yishun very well, but i never knew this side of yishun existed, the scenery is beautiful even though i am lost. hahaha.. up in the distance i saw the canal opening up to a sea, i told myself, it couldnt be.... i was thinking that i have ended up at sembawang beach. upon reaching the end, i realised it wasnt anyway near sembawang beach but right next to the yatch club. the place was beautiful, johor was so close. sembawang shipyard was on my right. spent abt ten to fifteen mins admiring the scenery then i headed back. i saw a road leading out and i tot of taking the road route back. then i go my bearings and decided against the idea, the yatch club was just beside my former camp and its a long way from home by that route. i didnt take my wallet out too, all i had was my phone. so back to the path i went, it was eight am already. looked down at the yellow marking, 2800 meters it read. oh well, gotta be sooner or later... so i jogged 200m and walked 2002m and so on, until i gave up and walked the rest of the journey. i reached the end sonner than expected and walked all the way back. my legs and body were aching already.

so finally i reached home, had my shower and breakfast and wanted to crash but never came around it. message my Financial Advisor and met up with her, in the afternoon. my cpf investments did good in the market and we discuss abt other stuffs. i must she is looking good every time we meet. anwyways, goona meet up with tania later today after dinner. right now just lazing around and listening to 98.7 playing 80's music. just the other day i heard "sweet child of mine" and "song 2", i tot i got the wrong channel. whats the world coming to...i hear the mark richmond is the new boss of perfect ten..like i ask whats the world coming to... hahahaha! to all those who are reading this, thanks for your precious time reading this. now back to your regular programme. :p