another blogskin

Preview

the above is a preview of the original blogskin which i've downloaded. i did a few changes, played around with the font colors and came out with this; but still credits to the original maker of this blog. well, hit me back and let me know what do u think of this new blogskin. - tks!!

wishing it was you

think i've found something new but ...

why do i wish it was you..

don't want to be hurt,

all over again.

rememberin' oct 13 1998

it almost slipped my mind that Oct 13th was my dad's 9th year death anniversary and it will be 10 years next year. so how did i pull through for the past 9 years. well, for a start, i wasn't close to my dad... his drinking habits and pride made me lost my respect for him.

it happened 21 years ago, when i was waiting to get enlisted into the army. we were all invited to a wedding @ selegie road, some relative that i do not know. as usual, my dad had drank more than he should and everyone else who was drinking with him didn't help. i remembered at the end of the dinner, my dad couldn't walk straight but he was still saying some things to the whole lot as we were leaving. my dad had though they were laughing with him but actually they were laughing at him. finally we got him out and was about to take the bus but my dad wanted to take a cab. since he had no cash with him, he yelled back to us to wait for him while he go and withdraw at the atm. he crossed the road when it was red man and was almost knocked down by car. the driver was quick to react and i thought that would have jolted my dad a bit but it didn't, he just went on walking. i remembered i was crying at the bus-stop urging my mom to leave the place and my dad behind, not wanting my mom or my younger sister to take anymore embarrassments, in front of a packed bus-stop. in the end, we took the bus back, while my elder bro and an uncle went after my dad. after which, i can't recall no more.

apart from everything that happened, my dad continued drinking and treated his 'friends' whenever he was paid. there was late nights arguments and fights in the family. there was once i had to stop my eldest bro and my drunken dad, didn't know how i had the strength to pull them apart and make it end there & then. the final straw came, when we had a call from a taxi driver, he had found my dad lying by the drain @ serangoon road, dead drunk. the taxi driver carried my dad into the cab and drove him back. my second elder bro had to help the taxi driver bring my dad up. my dad had passed out and slightly bleeding from the head. after everything the good Samaritan taxi driver had not charge anything for bringing my dad home.

later did we find out that my dad had gone to drinking with some 'buddies' at a coffee shop. as usual he would treat everyone and they drank till closing time. knowing my dad was not in a stable condition and when he passed out nearby, hitting his head on the kerb. they just left him there and went off, not giving a damn. all except the chinese taxi driver who witnessed everything n brought my dad safely back home.

so yea, my dad had too much pride and failed to see his own faults. he passed away finally in oct 13, 1998 due to some complications, he was a diabetic.

well, if u have to drink, do drink but make sure u have friends who would take the trouble to send u back home.

Holiday

The World's Cheapest Destinations

$10 Beach Bungalows, anyone???

my new cup

accidentally broke my old cup while washing it,

so a friend helped me get a new cup!

she thought this cup suited me... and i'm not sure why?? hehe

anyways, to all muslims around the world

Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri Maaf Zahir & Batin.

xin lan's birthday

celebrated xin lan's 21st over the weekend and my only regret was.. not being there on friday night when they gave her the birthday gift... it was a kodak moment from what i heard from jenny. sigh.. would give anything to be there and cherish that moment.

love and cherish you lots my sweet niece!

Happy 21st Birthday! :)

memories

Invasion!!

carrie in the light

together again

chitty chitty bang bang

pictures taken using nokia 5300

october

its a friday october morning and i'm still up when i shld be catching up on my much deserved sleep. oh well, i make full use of the days since time is passing so fast nowadays. anyways, its been a busy week with plans happening at the last moment.. here's a blast from the past :p

celebrated melvin's birthday at east coast last saturday, it was good to see everybody again after a long time. of course, we had the usual company of vodkas, carlsbergs and the game master. we had a crazy time, doing crazy things but it was hell of a fun!! got abt seven in the morning and crashed till noon. with a real hangover, i was helping my eldest scrub the walls of my hall. its was really no joke, climbing up and down the ladder. after 6 hours or so, we were done.. rest for a while before heading down to ice cold beer to mary anne & her 'soon-to-be' fiance, good thing that melvin came along. otherwise, it would be quite ackward. well, the guy is cool and yes - we accepted him into the family. anybody who has a problem with that could see me or mel. we'll be happy to clear any doubts or anyone. lol.

okie moving on, had dinner on monday after work @ bugis with andy, ricky, xin lan & jenny. after dinner, did a little of 'shopping' n bought a very nice shawl for my sista, lina - a real belated b'day gift. then we headed to the arcade where we had so much fun.. playing some shooting game.. forgot was it called. will remember the next time ard.

on tuesday, had rosary at my house.. sms some people from the choir but only jo-n came.. after everything, we met jen & pat for supper. kept jen company till she completed her 'homework' and we all had a fun time reading her homework. we were all tired but we had a very good laugh. went out on wed again to clark quay for dinner & drinks @ pump room with andy, ricky, linus & carrie. we met up with our ex-colleagues, nick & wendy. it was good catching up with them and also knowing that linus & carrie are together again.. however, the bill really killed us. lesson learnt, have our dinner somewhere else.

i had nothing plan for thursday so i stayed back in the office to help out doing some stuffs. what is it, won't be able to leak any secrets at the moment as there are prize money involved for the team. so stay tuned!! ;p

the weekend is finally here.. will update the events as i go by.. in the meantime, watch this :-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA

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guess who's back!!

Finally got my comp up and running again, thanks to ADRC tech resource site & my bro, melvin!!

time to upgrade my comp sooon!!

night watch

"do demon like creatures exists??

tot i just heard one tat woke me up"

random pictures

jo & pat

andy

shao xuan

carrie

random pictures taken from my nokia 5300

random pictures II

my desk

lunch time reflections

jumnah @ aisyah

dian

the birthday day gal, watie

random pictures taken from my nokia 5300

singapore the fine city

singapore, the fine city

took this picture at an underpass @ clark quay

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all by myself

didn't go for a reason today

don't think i'll be going tmr too

it's nothing more than a number game

i know that i wasn't missed today

cause i am just another face in the crowd

guess i need a break from everyone

and from myself too

my neck hurts

and i'm hungry

went to doctor abt two weeks back... was told of my medical conditions that made realise that i should go easy on myself. somehow i don't see myself living at a ripe old age.. tat tot has never occurred to me.. maybe the most in my 50's and tats 12 yrs from now. don't see myself getting married too, guess i am not supposed too. i came into tis world alone, and i guess i'll be leaving it the same way.

this is between me and myself, we got some straightening out to do.

nameless

i'm just another face in the crowd

nameless as i can be

forgotten and not cared for

wish i could just disappear

and leave eveything behind

left alone to my own devices

i probably would

~*~

sat!@work

alas....its the weekend!!


its time to rest and relax!!

sunday afternoon

sunday afternoon and the sun's shinning with all its glory. a beautiful day to hit the beach and get urself a tan that you've always wished for. a nice sunday to unwind before the week starts.


as for me, i am lazing at home; doing some computer maintenance and i stumble upon this cool feature FoxyTunes, "it lets you control almost any media player and find lyrics, covers, videos, bios and more with a click right from your browser. iTunes, Winamp, Windows Media Player and other players are supported..." but its an add on for IE7. just heard from a good friend of mine that firefox has the same add on. so no more having ur windows player open while you browse the web. whats more, the songs still shows up on ur msn messenger. cool, eh.

its been a long week and a lot of things have happened especially on the love scene. cupid has decided to go for along vacation. hence, i've heard of three break ups.. the longest was 7 yrs and they were planing to get engaged. sigh... sometimes i wonder what is it like to be in a relationship for so long and risk giving it all up because of a stupid mistake. 'don't know what you've got till its gone' by cinderella, would be a fitting song.

I can't tell ya baby what went wrong
I can't make you feel what you felt so long ago
I'll let it show
I can't give you back what's been hurt
Heartaches come and go and all that's left are the words
I can't let go
If we take some time to think it over baby
Take some time, let me know
If you really want to go

Don't know what you got till it's gone
Don't know what it is I did so wrong
Now I know what I got
It's just this song
And it ain't easy to get back
Takes so long

well, i got to go and get ready for mass..... will be back later to update. till then, keep the fire burning in your love.