fragile

was reading a friends blog a while ago; she had a nightmare abt a death in the family and how she was so affected in the dream but was relief it was a dream...two days later, she received a call from a friend. his elder brother had just passed away, he was only 24 yrs old - motorbike accident. not sure if the dreams are connected but its kinda sad. to lose someone in ya family or a friend. it makes u realise how fragile life is. to all those who have to be on the roads like 24/7, do take care of yourself and others on the roads - life is precious!!


its the weekend! got a dinner & dance tmr at double O, or shld i say later tonight and might be catching 'superman returns' after that. tmr is also the last days or miao, li yin and doreen (i think), kinda gonna miss them. well, i'm glad that our paths crossed and i've got two new friends. :) listening to jay chou & jolin among the rest.. yes, i am slowly losing my 'religion'! :p good night world!! peace out!

high on fiz

was talking to fiz last night and somehow i guess we have grown even closer to each other. not sure why but with her i feel so comfortable and i could come up with all these wise crack and make her laugh... like it when she laughs. ;) going out for dinner with her this weekend and i hope everything will be perfect. we're not expecting anything to happen between us but if it does, it will be btwn us! ;p but for now i guess we do like each other. yes, pat we do and i'm still high on her; i'm happy for u too. :) *hugs*


i'm listening to jay chou's 'yi lu xiang bei' from the initial d sountrack as i blog. yes, i do have this identity crissi once in awhile. i used to go karaoke with my colleagues and they intro'd me to the chinese pop world. i do have to admit that some songs are okie but the ballads just tear ur heart apart. anyway, if u do know of any nice chinese song, do let me know, wanna add it to my collection which i have started five mins ago. ;p


now here's the irony, i'm an indian guy who likes a malay girl and listens to chinese songs! sometimes, i just forget my roots and culture. hahahaha.. 2 days to the weekend, yipppe!! hugs to pat & nessa!

why

Why are we rushing for things which eventually won't be ours for eternity.

ibp

i dedicate this post to all the freaking indians nationality who board the IBP bus at JE. in case u hve missed it, mumbai has been voted the rudest city on planet earth but that doesn't mean u hve to bring ur freaking bad manners into singapore. u r the ones that shld be packed like sardines on a lorry and be send to work every morning for i believe the odd labourers from ur hometown has better manners. tell me why the fucking hell do u hve to push ur way thru to board the bus everyday?? would u disintergrate if u miss the bus? i wld be real glad if u wld, one less asshole. its good thing we dont carry guns here if not i wld hve turn ard and blow ur freaking brains away. if it wasn't me, it wld be the lady with her little kid whom u were pushing too.. tell me what's ur fucking problem....is it against ur freaking religion miss the bus?? or are u wanna using this opportunity to molest ur way thru?? come to think of it, maybe u ARE using this opportunity to molest the girls who board the bus!! just like how a colleague of mine got molested a mth back.


u are such a disgrace to ur homeland and others who strive hard to make ppl respect them. but i guess it doesnt matter coz u guys are fucking self-centred. there's nothing more i can say.

author is an indian whose parents were from india.

the start of the week.

monday was a drag, not sure how i managed to stay awake at work. after work, i found my way to my bro's place to pick up some stuffs. my little niece was asleep when i arrived, while the older one was having her dinner and watching tv; sad thing that she is having chicken pox but she is braved as ever.


came back, put the stuffs at home and went to church to meet nico gab to discuss the fun walk to be held in sept. everything got settled within an hr or so with the help of juliana, whom i hve not seen in my life. but its good to see new faces coming out, (youth group included) and doing something for the church. so if u got nothing to do this friday, come on down and check us out.


before i go, let me intro u to a beauty i just set my eyes on. guess, u will fall in love with her too!! ;)

a lazy sunday afternoon

was suppose to help out in church today, youth canteen but i just couldn't wake up. considering the fact that i've been out late the whole week, if it ain't work; its church. so finally i managed to get a good sleep and i feel good. its looks like a stay home sunday but i have to travel down to clementi to collect some stuff frommy bro later. not sure how to get there; just thinking shld i go down during the week instead since i am closer to clementi from my work place. see wot my mom thinks abt the idea, its sunday and i'm too lazy to make the trip and the weather isn't good too. will see how..


spoke to fiz last night, juz before bed, we were talking abt having dinner and she suggested 'bernie's bfd' at east coast while i suggested 'the altivo bar' at mount faber. but since she so much wants me to check out 'bernie's bfd', we'll go there. i guess it's the best i could as a belated birthday gift to her and i hope it will be something that we'll remember for a long time. if u ask if we're together, i would say that we are not; we like things the way they are. we will find our own partners one day and we'll remain the best of friends still. i am glad that i have her in my life. :)

boring sunday

why do i feel my heart sink when i see u talking to him, why do i wish it was me hugging you , why do i wish that i was with you tonight. why do my heart feel for you when we are like so different.


its saturday and i'm home early and it really sucks. not sure i'll be going out later and juz sleep and wait for sunday. life sucks!!!

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bored

it 's been a long week and i'm freaking tired yet bored. juz came back from work and i'm still undecided if i shld go for choir later or juz sleep. still gotta wake up early tmr ... sigh!! such is life!!

world cup

well, ppl now will stand up and take notice of Argentina. like i've said, they will win the World Cup!!

Argentina 6-0 Serbia & Montenegro

fiza

wot wld u feel when someone replies u back that she doesn't want anything for her birthday, cause she's glad that she have u...and thats all that matters.


well, i'm not sure abt you but i'm feeling like kanya west - top of the world, baby!! :) so i would like to take this opportunity to wish fiza, a very happy birthday. wished i could spent time with u today like u did on my birthday when u brought me out fishing but work got me tied up.


so let me bring u out, we'll check out the restaurant u hve been talking abt at east coast soon. chill out at the beach after that and enjoy each other's company....it'll be just beautiful.


i'm so glad that i have you too, my friend. *hugs*

nessa!!

once in a while, a friend brings a smile into ur life, love and lots of hugs!!!

a friend who knows when u r down or out

or juz plain crazy

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to

-nessa-

thanks for the love and hugs

-roch-

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Nelly Furtado

Promiscuous girl

Wherever you are

I'm all alone

And it's you that want

Promiscuous boy

You already know

That i'm all yours

What you waiting for?

Promiscuous girl

You're teasing me

You know what I want

And I got what you need

Promiscuous boy

Let's get to the point

Cause we're on a roll

Are you ready?

I-POD

i would like to give a shoutout to the following people who gave me an iPod shuffle for my birthday present.

gab, damien, chris,

j sandhu, sarah, hatsuee,

crystal, melvin and robin.

well, this is most awesome b'day present i have received so far, its really worth waiting five months for it. yes, my b'day was actually in feb. but in this fast pace world, we hardly got a chance to meet up. so thanks to sarah who wrap the present and everyone else for it. if i did miss anyone, do let me know. now to upgrade my pc to windows 2000 or XP in order to use it. :p or anyone care to let me use their comp?? :D

manda the panda

manda the panda

This is a good friend who was interviewed by On The Haus, a publication done by the Nafa's very own students. She has been featured in Blank Magazine (Spain) and a featured Artist in Peelzine Magazine (USA) (Issue 6).

She will also be featured in an upcoming local showcase @ red dot design museum, so do support the cause and spread the love.

world cup fever

ytd was really a long day... went for debz wedding which was really beautiful; still can't believe that she is married. hope that they have a great time in Goa. after debz wedding, we had reception which started off with buffet..., drinks buffet. nothing beats having a cold draft beer in the afternoon and to top it off, we also had wine. so there were drinks, good food and eye candies. and after all that, we had to begin prac for mass. its been a long time i sang and it really showed, while my parner in crime - melvin, took a nap. i joined him soon later. as i said, nothing beats having three glasses of draft beer and wine in the afternoon. luckily we were quite awake during mass. felt good singing again...

after mass, met up with hutton, had dinner and proceeded to mel's place to catch the world cup. miss the england goal. i guess which was the only highlight of the game. england got a lot to do, if they're thinking of getting to the next round coz the match btwn sweden vs trinidad and tobago was awesome. sweden threw everthing they had at them, and yet they held on, all thanks to their goalkeeper, shaka hislop - who plays his football @ west ham. he came on when their first choice goalkeeper had an injury ten mins before the game. i guess they are thanking the heavens. the game ended, 0-0 and the t&t fans celebrated as if they had won the game. so england tops the table. the next game btwn argentina & ivory coast was even better. ivory coast like t&t being in the world cup for the first time, displayed their skills and techniques on the field. it was only their finishing up front that let them down, if not they could have won the game; but i have to give it to argentina too, jaun roman riquelme is the man to look out for. oh yes, drogba managed to pull one back and the game ended @ 2-1. i guess, ivory coast will cost holland a lot of problems. for more info, please click here.

youth / choir

been busy the whole week n i guess it will spill over the weekend too. been coming home late almost everyday, if its not work, its church and tmr its gonna be another long day in church. was thinking today, shld i quit choir and help in the youth. of late, i've not been involved in the choir pretty much, so i guess i should move on.; or maybe hugs from nessa will make me stay although i noe some will be glad that i left. not sure why but i do not feel the sense of belonging anymore, although i am close to some. :) see how tmr will go and i'll make my decision from there.. hello saturday! i need sex...

its my life

all of the sudden things take a turn and i'm not sure where i am heading to. my head's telling me that i should move on but my heart's telling me that i should stay but there's left for me here. my dreams and wishes never to be fullfilled during this lifetime or maybe it wasn't meant to be. this life, it was never meant to be mine. a friend, you were meant to be. will i say goodbye to all or will i just say goodbye to u. time will only tell.

missing u

never thought i'll miss u this much ...

is it any wonder

its kinda nice when u read someone's blog and ur name gets mentioned for the good that is. even if it was for the bad, hey.. someone was thinking of u when he/she wrote it down; its better than those who don't get thought off at all. see that made u feel a bit better, din't it. always look at the bigger picture, things will be much simpler that way.


listening to the radio and i sweared, keane's new song, 'isn't any wonder' sounds so much like U2. don't u agree, i think its just awesome.. the song that is.

Sometimes it's hard to know where I stand,

It's hard to know where I am,

Well maybe it's a puzzle I don't understand.

Sometimes I get the feeling that I'm

stranded in the wrong time

where love is just a lyric in a children's rhyme.

Sometimes,

Is it any wonder I'm tired?

Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?

Is it any wonder I don't know what's right?

Oh, these days, after all the misery made,

Is it any wonder that I feel afraid?

Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed?

take a break, have a tig tag

take a break, have a tig tag


i've been tagged by chantique (miss u too, tamp girl)


3 schools i went to
st anthony's boys school
first toa payoh sec sch
national insitute of commerce

3 things in my handbag
.....

3 things i do when i'm stressed
call up a friend
listen to loud music
have a tiger?? :p

3 places i go to on a daily basis
work ---> food court ---> home

3 favourite fruits
banana, papaya & mango

3 names i go by
tommy, tom & rochie

3 of my favourite food
mee goreng
chicken rice
roti prata

3 things i'm wearing right now
shorts and undies. :p

who are in the house with me
mom

who am i thinking of right now
fiza - missing her

who is the last i talked to on the phone
ruth kam

who did i sit with during my 5th period in class
my bud, jeffrey i guess

who was the last person i uttered love to
joanne p

who do i wish i am with right now
fiza

who gets on my nerves most in school
the class bully whose ass got kicked by me eventually

where is my phone
beside the comp

where do i sleep
on my single bed

where is the place i took a ride to
????

what was the last thing i ate
home cooked food

what colour shirt am i wearing now
not wearing any...

what is the closest item to me that is blue
the shirts i have

what do i like most about school
leaving it??

what is my favourite colour
black & blue

what do i wear most often, jeans or shorts
jeans

what was the last movie i watched
over the hedge with ruth

when did i start school
PAP kindergarten in 1975

when did i last go to the mall
today

when did i last burn something
can't remember

3 bloggers to do this
neesa!
april
corrinne

reach out

joan's song was written by friends of joan's who sang it at her funeral, i guess almost everyone was holding back the tears. joan's friends at the pulpit were just breaking down while singing this song. i guess joan has touched many during her time on earth and my only regret is that we didn't get to know joan even though we're from the same parish, which is quite sad actually. i guess we are contended with our group of friends that we hardly reach out to others but expect them to come to us. we are more concerned with whom we hang out with and how it will effect our image. we don't want to be seen with losers, nerds or nitwips, they're like from another world.

so we forget ourselves and become someone that we are not. when we are all alone by yourself, we feel something's missing and to the silence of night, we cry cause deep down these is not who we are. and in the same silence of night; the nerds, losers and nitwips cry out to the night, just to be accepted in this world. i guess it high time that we wake up from our fantasy world and face reality. life ain't simple, we can't change the world, but we can touch someone's heart today. reach out to those you have not and help out when its needed. you will feel much better, trust me.

Joan's Song

Joan's Song

Joan, please don't go

There are many thing that i would like to know

That's getting hard for you to show

The way, day by day

We've traveled miles through deep turnstiles

So many softball slides and daffodils

And played

Though it hurts

Though you smile

Looking back right now

I don't really care

Just want you to know

That I've been thinking about you almost everyday

Unitl I find the words to say

But now

Just want you to know

That I've been thinking about you nearly everyday

Until I find the words to say

I know you're hurting now

But we'll make it through somehow

Won't we, Joan

Joan, say you'll stay

There are many things that I would like to say

That I forgot to mention yesterday

The way, day by day

We've traveled miles and miles through deep

turnstiles

So many softball slides and daffodils

And played

Now it hurts

Though you smile

Looking back right now

I don't really care

Just want you to know

That I've been thinking of you nearly everyday

Until I find the words to say

Now just want you to know

That I've been thinking about you nearly eveyday

Until I find the words to say

I know you're hurting now

But we'll make it through somehow

Won't we, Joan

Wont' we Joan

Just soldier on (3x)

Won't we Joan-oh-oh-ooh

Won't we, Joan

dedicated to joan chan shu fang

born 3rd april 1986

born into eternal life to be with our lord jesus christ

24 may 2006

starting all over again...

well, its the weekend again... not sure why i am not looking forward to it. maybe i need to get laid or something. get it out of my system and start life all over again.

life

well, life has been pretty much boring... but i would like to thank friends like jp, fiza, mary-n and of course my crazy bunch of colleagues @ work for making life a bit worth while..

...will blog another day

miss you too, nessa!! *hugs*